out of control..... grrr - rant

On one side I love traveling ... but any travel messes me up.
Since I got back for CA my eating, appetite, BM and even sleep pattern are off. And I am *****y and easily irritated.
Today I had to leave the office I was so out of control.  Was snapping left and right on anyone... I am a manager - so nobody would stand up to me... (and when I get that way - they better do not) But I do have enough sense to know when I am crossing the line and get out of there before I upset more people.

There is a lot of stress - taxes, travels, other issues... I had a small fight with my BF a few weeks ago.  He said something stupid, I reacted to it, the way a normal full blooded woman would.  (checked that)  On a surface all is good... but deep down things are not resolved.     And I can feel myself start questioning the whole relationship.    We are close, but I know I am pulling away.  For my own good. 

So there is really a lot going on right now...   I do eat correct food... but lately either not enough or too much... and it is not as satisfying as it was before.

I need to get myself back on track.  Mentally and physically. Thanks for  reading. 

Send me good vibes.. tell me what is eating you.

I know in perspective my issues are nothing compare to some of you guys... but to me they are huge...  I think I may try to get some psych counceling...
 

Hala my friend, I am sending you good vibes to help you get over the funk you are presently in.  I understand stress and taxes and traveling, for me, going to Nashville and being up there for the next 4 days is probably going to mess up my regiment something fierce and I will probably be pissy on Monday when I get back too.  As for the BF, I have been married so long that I don't know what one is anymore.  If you love him and he is good to you then hang on to him.  If he is not, then set yourself free.  You are too good of a woman to settle for less.  I hope you have a better day today.

Thanks babe... The BF is good... and he really treats me well... but I need more than a BF on weekends.  I want someone full time..   I think ... maybe not.???  Heck... I am not sure what I want...  

Hope you are feeling better soon...sending you some good juju!

Thanks.  HUGS

Sending GOOD VIBES!

We've all have had one of those days.  Take a moment for yourself, stop thinking so hard and let things come to you, you know what you want you're just not ready to spell it all out.

It will, and it will be what you need and what you want.

Do something for yourself today.

Thanks babe ..

it will be what you need and what you want.


A long as I know what I want...

We could be twins (mentally speaking) at this time..I have an appt next month to start seeing a councler.. I know what I am SUPPOSE to be doing...but doing it is the problem.... I just want you to know you are not alone !

huggs

Kim