Back On Track Together
# on the scale - A real Mood-ivator
It still amazes me, but I cannot seem to break the cycle, how much the number on the scale give my day a boost or a smackdown...
I've been on vacation for the past several days...Monday when I got home, I got on the scale then did a little mind jig cuz the scale looking good for a loss @ my morning weigh-in & I was a little surprised because I do not monitor myself on eating when I am on vacation other than to try to keep reasonable...
Tuesday I was indeed down a lb, Wednesday held on to it- today, back up a lb...Boy that one lb down felt sooo good, you would think that liking the losing feeling would be a motivator to eat right that day and thus keep the ball rolling...BUT, not me, it was like a crazy red flag in front of a bull, I just kept snacking instead and let the little devil inside my head whisper
"well this worked the whole time you were on vacation, so you must be doing something right, so its OK to keep doing it"...I SO know better, damn devil, damn head, damn mind games 
...
Got to work on breaking this kind of bad behavior...Almost 7 yrs out and still letting stinkin' thinkin' infiltrate my choices...
Will it never end? NO...So I guess I'll just keep dragging myself back to reality kicking & screaming the whole way...
I'm done now...Thanks for listening
I've been on vacation for the past several days...Monday when I got home, I got on the scale then did a little mind jig cuz the scale looking good for a loss @ my morning weigh-in & I was a little surprised because I do not monitor myself on eating when I am on vacation other than to try to keep reasonable...
Tuesday I was indeed down a lb, Wednesday held on to it- today, back up a lb...Boy that one lb down felt sooo good, you would think that liking the losing feeling would be a motivator to eat right that day and thus keep the ball rolling...BUT, not me, it was like a crazy red flag in front of a bull, I just kept snacking instead and let the little devil inside my head whisper
"well this worked the whole time you were on vacation, so you must be doing something right, so its OK to keep doing it"...I SO know better, damn devil, damn head, damn mind games ...Got to work on breaking this kind of bad behavior...Almost 7 yrs out and still letting stinkin' thinkin' infiltrate my choices...
Will it never end? NO...So I guess I'll just keep dragging myself back to reality kicking & screaming the whole way...I'm done now...Thanks for listening
Alesia : start 249 / surgeon's goal 138 / current 142
HUGS... One day at a time... One step in front of another.
Hala. RNY 5/14/2008; Happy At Goal =HAG
"I can eat or do anything I want to - as long as I am willing to deal with the consequences"
"Failure is not falling down, It is not getting up once you fell... So pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and start all over again...."
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