Nearly quit do to insecurity

I almost did not come back to this site. I was not feeling like sharing with others how I am and wondering why anyone would care. feel like I am imposing, and yet I know this is not true.  I am pulling away from things that help me just when I need them the most. So I made up my mind ot come one even though I don't know why. Lots of junk in my life right now and I am really stressed.  Usual tricks like warm bath or reading just are not enough.

Eating is going well. Exercise needs some work. Ia m cutting out the carbs and increasing my protiens. I have been losing slowly and really enjoy reading here how others are doing. It gives me hope.

Don't ever feel like you can't come back here. This site is for support and it sounds like you need some right now.

Don't be afraid to come here any time you need to vent or ask for help, that why we are here, we all know where you are coming from.

This has always been a very supportive place and I always feel welcome. Not sure what is bringing up these feelings.

Come on and spill it gurl!!!!
Talk about the junk and stresses, that's what we're all here for. Don't hold it inside.

Easier said then done.  Learn early that speaking up is not a good idea. Learned to keep to myself.  I am working hard to break out of that mind set.  I tried to go to a small group through church Sunday and left without going in. I have gone before. Everyone is nice but I feel disconnected.
Hubby is entering a second childhood and I am about ready to leave. He is not wanting the same life I do.  We have got forty years togetrher so this is not easy to think about.  But I am so past the stay up all night to hang out stage.  I work all day and want to relax and unwind at night.  When I around others I don't really relax.
 I expect it will all work out in time but it is really unsettling for now.

I hope you know that here on this site, you are among friends.  Feel safe and share whatever is on your mind.  We will always try to lend an open ear and offer solutions if asked.  Take care, life has a funny way of working out sometimes, just not what or how we thought it would but hopefully for the better.

Honey, you are sounding really like a case of clinical depression.  Please see your doctor for some
help. 

Granted, your problem with your DH can't be cured with a pill, but maybe you can find some help
in order to get through your days.

Wishing you the best,

I think your right. I printed out names of psychitrist from my medical plan to go see and maybe get something to help.
I just need to make the call. Some days are just so hard to get through.  I just breath and refocus.

 We are so glad  you are here. Life is just too hard these days. We all need some where to go to dump.  Check out our dumpster diving thread LOL

I got a punching bag and let me tell you that really helped me.  Try to take it one thing at a time so you want feel like you are buried alive.

We posted some steps to help with stress read it and we hope it helps.

Welcome, you are with your Bott family now!

hugs   

Please keep coming back regularly. Life's struggles can be very overwhelming and then when you throw clinical depression into the mix, sometimes it's hard to know what to make of anything. The hearts in the people here in BOTT are genuine, I have learned. You don't need a reason to come here...just do it.
::: Hugs :::