Monday's Dumpster Diving

 Morning Botts,

I am posting here to try and work on my fears.  The biggest hurdle for us that have gained is to get over the overwhelming feeling of failure.  I don't care if  it's 5 lbs or 100 we feel like OMG we are here again, how, why, I am such a failure.  Then when we try and try and try and can't do it, that is a double whammie. I was right there with you and finally something clicked for me (my son's up coming wedding) and I was able to put all the pieces together.  Now, here I am, wanting to cross the finish line, get back to my goal weight.  Can I do it?  Oh everyone said I looked so great, so it would be so easy to just stop here. But I am not happy and I have to please myself.  

One day, one meal, one step at a time.  Ok, one meal down, one workout completed....  I can do this, I can do this, I can do this. With all your help!

Take care,
Kathy

I'm in a depressed funk today. Just everything i****ting me all at once.
Depressed for letting my finances get in a mess.
Depressed because my house is a mess.
Depressed because I'm not getting to the gym as often as I should.
Depressed because I'm not sure what to do about my relationship.

The good news is that my weight is ok, I'd like to loose 10 pounds though, and I'm getting compliments on my arm muscles.

 I hear you, it seems like life likes to throw it all at us at once. Take control of what you can and if it's out of  your control then leave it.  

Also, try taking one thing at a time. When my husband had a stroke and was fired a week later I was devastated. Still facing losing our home and not making ends meet.  I turned to carbs and old habits. No, it didn't help but I guess those life long bad habits come back from time to time.  

I was not able to afford my gym cost and had to quit.  Anyway, I took one thing at a time and made it through.  My Y had a program to help me with lower payments and working out helped me clear my head.

You know what to do my friend, you have been my inspiration for years.  Just sit down and make a plan of how to handle each issue one at a time.  But keep eating and working out so you can deal with them.

We are hear to listen!

Take care,
Kathy

I could've written this today myself. 

Then I'd add that I've gained 30 lbs over the past year.  Can you say non-compliance?

And then I'd add that the orthopedist says I need a knee replaced and there is no fix for the arthritis in my  ankle.

And then I'd add that since I lost the weight, I have become "Sharpei", and envy anybody who has a relationship to think about.  

BUT -

I swam laps today at the Y, and feel a lot better.  A nasty virus recently had me down for days and days, so I wasn't sure I was up to any swimming, but once I was back in the water, I was happy to be there again. It's my favorite place to be. Next time around, I think I'll be a manatee.

And even though my life is one huge mess right now, I'm working on that...

 You are taking action where you can and starting to let go what you can't.  I was so out of shape and started working out in the pool.  I can't tell you how better I felt after getting out of that pool and doing it first thing during the day.  

We are here for you and take it one step at a time and you won't feel so overwhelmed.

Take care,
Kathy