ididabadbadthing

  Hi,

They say it's better the second time around.  Let's try it and see....  I am going to come here daily and post about what will help me get through another day, successfully.  It may be about food, exercise, mood, humor, success and failures, if failure is the word of the day.  Get out of it what you want, it's for me and if I help others along the way the more the better  Join me if you want, I am sure I am not alone.  I will tell you I am several years out, my "tool" did not fail, I failed.  Here goes..

I just got back from the gym for the first time in a L O N G T I M E!  I sat in the car for several mins, it was so hard to walk in there. The last time I was there I was in kick ass shape and looked that way too.  As I walked in with my head hanging down, I got the courage to glance at my reflection. Damn that big tee shirt didn't hide the fat like I thought.  WTH, I looked skinny at home    I want to do a couple of weeks of cardio first before getting into weights.  I know that is what works for me. I put the earplugs in and walked towards the gym, sweat towel (not sure if its big enough) and water bottle in hand.

I went over to the epileptic machine and to my surprise I remember how to turn it on.  I got on and before I knew it my legs and arms were moving, YEAH BABY, and I was huffing and puffing and sweating like a pork sandwich (I know but fish didn't sound right).  It was only 3 mins into the workout   

With the help of good tunes and a few "pauses" I got through 30 mins.  Yeah me....the next part shocked me but makes sense.  Don't read if you have a weak tummy.

Have you ever seen them on the Biggest Loser where they throw up after the first big workout?  I started hacking and hacking and thought my lung was coming up.  Thank god no one was in the bathrooms.  I started coughing up **** like crazy. Then I realized, it was my body trying to breath, trying to get healthy, trying to remind me there is a price to pay for crapping on it....

I made it home, barely.  Walked in the door and my husband looked at me like I got hit by a bus, I waved him off  and hit the shower where I proceeded to cough up crap for 15 mins.  Once I was done I felt able to breath, and felt good.....  Geez and this was day one.  

Stay tuned 

Welcome.  You will find the people on this forum very friendly and supportive.  I will stay tuned!

Just me

 Hi Just Me,

Thank you for the welcome!!!

Welcome to BOTT!
The first thing that I noticed is your name.  You didn't do a bad thing.  Everyone stumbles with weightloss and trying to be as positive as possible really does help!  You need to take small steps, try walking around a few blocks or a park, out in the open air.  Toss in a cd and do what you can, you would be surprised!  Try to come on daily and post you meal plans, it helps when that tummy is growling and looking for a snack. 
Take it one day at a time, come on and visit with us, we'll get ya going in the right direction!
Deb

 To be honest I love that song LOL and it was a bad bad thing to put weight on.  I will change it to ididagoodgoodthing when I get to goal again.  Thank you Deb!!!!

Welcome!  You can do it babe!  One day at a time.  Baby steps!!! Congrats on 1st workout.  Remember consistency is key not perfection!  Are you logging your food and exercise anywhere?

Deb is right about your name for sure.  My 3 P's that have served me well in getting back on track are Perseverance, Patience and Positive.  It has got me 40 pounds re-lost since last March.  Not much but it is better than gaining which is what I was doing the years before 2010. 

I had another weight loss body who had her name as ITHINKICANITHINKICAN and at my suggestion she changed it to IKNOWICANIKNOWICAN.  Perception and positive thinking is everything for sure.  Negative will hinder progress for sure.  IKNOWICANIKNOICAN (Cindy) has lost 87 pounds and this is without WLS. 

I am not giving up this time and I know I can and I will do it no matter what and as long as it takes.  I am in no hurry.  As long as I consistently log my food and exercise and keep working at it I will reach my goals.  It does not matter to me when I do it, just as long as keep working hard at it.  Success for anyone is never giving up.  You have taken a big step in coming back here and going to they gym.  Hopefully you have support groups in your area or find more support because support is very important also.

 Hey Molly,

You are my kinda gal!!!  Thanks and way to go!!!

Thank you!

Wow!  You sound exactly like me!!  My tool did not fail, either, I did!  I was down 90 pounds and have gained back 25!  I am so ashamed of myself.  I have started a first day to 5k program, walking and running and have done it faithfully three days a week for almost four weeks now!  I feel so good when I do it!!

My downfall is eating. I don't dump on anything, which, apparently means I can eat whatever I want be damed the consequences!  I now know what those consequences are - my clothes don't fit, I've started snoring again and my arms fall alseep in bed!!  UGH!!!  I like the idea of posting daily what's helping me get through the day!  Maybe I'll post when I feel like snacking!!  Good luck - you're on the right track!!

 Hi Therese,

Don't ever FELL ASHAMED, we are only human and kudos to you for stopping it at 25.  You said NO MORE!!!  

I too have seen signs of "issues" coming back with weight gain and I don't like it!   Thanks for the nice greeting and WE CAN DO IT!!!

Congrats to you too Therese!!!  Good job on 5k!!  whoooohoooo!!!  I think food addiction is more of a monster than many of us thought but we will not be defeated!  I never dumped either.  How I wish I had.  My tool works and I may get a little hot when I eat foods too rich or very uncomfortable but no dumping. 

Keep up the good work!!