OMG, I need to stop!

This has been one of the worst eating days in months!  I've not stopped eating, since I woke up at 4:45 this morning!!  I'm not trying to make an excuse, but I'm 51 years old, I should not be getting my period anymore!!!  I'm so frustrated, I know that it's wrong everytime I go to the kitchen.  I just sit in the family room and I'm getting back up to go into the kitchen!  So, I am offically going on record here and now.  I'm done eating sh*t food!!!
There, I'm done with my rant!
Deb

 Thank you for posting this... It has been that day for me to. I am sick  and my son is home sick with me, and a neighbor brought creamy chicken noodle soup from the cafe in Fred Meyers with multigrain baguettes. I ate 3 servings of this soup which calculated to 650 calories for just the soup. Then I ate two baguettes with deli meat and pickled beets.  I had a can of asparagus tips. Meatballs with spaghetti sauce and now I am sick to my stomach.. Oh don't let me forget the fage with s/f caramel syrup. What is wrong with me?  

I do not know how I fit it all in and I am probably forgetting something. 

I am so ashamed!

I am done now... no more to eat tonight.  Fluids only... warm tea!  

Mechelle,
I hope that you feel better soon.  You're much braver than I am in posting what you ate.  I thought about doing it, but didn't want to see it in writing, it would have made me feel worse than I already am. 
Stay strong!
Deb

I have to agree this is the worst month ever.  I started back on track and was going strong until my mother in law got sick. The first couple of days I did fine, but by the 4th day I was just grabing anything.  No sleep, No good food, No energy. I still kept eating it. She has now passed and yesterday after the wake I told my husband I needed to get back on track. I brought veggie tray, meat tray and fruit to my sister n laws, I was starting right after the funeral...Good plan..I did not have anything I brought. I had cheese and crackers, pototo chips, cookies, olives, Macaroni (thatt wasnt good and I still ate it). Pizza and wings.. Oh wait cheese cake that made me sick after one piece but I still ate a second one when the nausa left me. Now it is 337 am. I am up because I heard those cookies calling me so I got up and had 2 with reg. milk. Lactose doesnt do well with me. Now I am nausa all over again.... Why do I do this to my self.  I have not been taking my vitamins or my synthroid. HELP me Lord and give me the stregth I need. HELP me wieht loss friends with you wisdom and support.
When the nausa stops I am going to bed and start a new day.
Linda
Be the change you wish to see in the world!!!!!

Hi Linda,
I'm sorry for the loss of you MIL, I know how difficult that could be.
I don't know why we do the things that we do.  I know what my "trigger" foods are and that if I start with one piece, I can't stop. 
Today is a new day!  That's why I try to post early, to get my plan in order.  If I fall of my plan for Thursday and any day after, I will start posting what I put into my mouth.  I'm sure when I see it in writing, it would embarrass me enough to stop. 
Hang in there, we all can do this.  We've done it before.
Deb

                              


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Dreamgirl119

Well, let me jump on this band wagon too..............I have now devoured about 1/2 cup of chocolate candy since I ate dinner and I'm miserable.  No, make that MISERABLE!!!!  Please let me stop eating and doing this to myself, Lord.  I obviously cannot do it myself.

I wish there was someone who could eat my food for me so I wouldn't ever have to put anything in my mouth again.  KInd of like a trustee who handles money for those unable to be fiscally responsible.............wish there was a trustee for me as I am not "food" responsible!!!

I'm finished confessing and pray that I'm finished with this crappy eating!!

Thanks for being here and for listening!
Carol

Carol,
That's a GREAT idea!  Heck there's people who clean houses, people who cut grass and even people who will shop for you!  You'll need to put an add out, let me know if there available in Chicago.  I'll hire them too!
Deb 

 this is the part they can't fix...the hunger in our heads...the need to pacify ourselves with food...why we do what we do...and for whatever reason we do them, they can't tell us. I know why I want to eat 27/7 however allowing my self  to is where the battle is until I am healed.....I try to pay attention to when I am really hungry...and this takes alot of concentration...I eat so much "less" when I am in this mode...and it is does not just come to me...I battle with is everyday...sometimes for hours at a time....heck for me food is trigger food... I am sure some of you know what I am talking about. I MESS UP TOO...I battle most at night..I LOVE SWEETS...i know the worst time to even think about it. It is the rage in our heads...the addiction. we all battle this ... sometimes I think I don't have time for baby steps...I have the all or nothing notion...and when i mess up i seem to give up for that day...only to find it turned into a week ...2 weeks....
when we fall down we have to get up...I AM LEARNING this ....so i messed up at say 2pm and had a couple or several cookies...or chips...that does not mean i cant stop this behavior and plan the next meal and be consciously aware that i want to feel good ...and eating medicates me when i do it mindlessly... IE eating and not noticing i have eaten all my food or 5 cookies etc. and then i feel horrible...and the roller coaster starts again...
I am trying everything I CAN  to realize food is NOT LOVE. ( it is my personal problem) I found this out with a little soul searching...and reading good books.
We can help each other...if we are truly willing to change...cause that is what it will take...

Deb, it is the change of seasons.  I think all of us are having the issues.
last night when i got home, i started eating and I ate for 2 hrs.  barely ate anything all day before that.  Not good. 
Today I already made myself eat real food.  Maybe evening will be better.  lol.