Food addictions

I'm off the white carbs, well except for air popped popcorn.  But the sugar is killing me.  I love candy! Chocolate, ummmm! Home made cookies(no others). I just can't seem to leave it alone and can't break the dependency on it.  I know the more I have the more I want.  I even 'think' about how to get more of the flavor and pleasure of eating it.  geeeze!   Non stop snacking on it is making me fat. 

I would say help I don't know what to do!  But - I do know what to do.  Why can't I do it?  Do I need to check myself into a treatment program or something?   It's sooo frustrating!

I have all the desire in the world to be BOT.  I just can't seem to get there. 

(excuse) I'm sure being unemployed the last year and a half, recently receiving my medicare card in the mail, which means I am officially a card carrying member of the senior citizens club, has nothing to do with it.  It's always something...just looking for somewhere to place the 'blame' besides at my own feet I guess.

The only way to do it is cold turkey. I was you last sunday night.
On monday morning I cleaned out my house and restocked with only proteins and carbs.
My food intake this week has been 1000 calories a day, 70% comprised of fat and the rest protein. For this one week This is the FAT FAST diet of the Atkins program. It sounds insane to some, but in 2 days it got rid of my sugar addiction.
This afternoon my baby daughter was literally shoving a piece of cookie in my mouth and i didn´t eat it. I took it in my mouth to be nice then spat it out.
I feel totally in control now and confident that I´ll be able to get BOTT now that I don´t have that monkey hanging over me.
So do whatever you have to do to stay clean of carbs for 2 days. ALL of them. Every single one of them. Carbs only make you crave more carbs.
I know eventually I´ll go back to some complex carbs but for now, the only thing keeping me sane is staying away from all of them.
I can only tell you what worked for me, you know we´re all different.
Good Luck
Marisa

Remind yourself you will not DIE if you give in to a craving - you MAY die if you do.  Please choose to live.  If it was easy, you would already be doing it.  You are worth WHATEVER it takes to take care of yourself.  You CAN do it, the truth is that it is simply a matter of you WON'T do it.   Be a Nike girl - JUST DO IT   As to being a member of the sr. citizen's club - I'mm 77 and I did and am doing it.  So CAN you - it is always a choice.

Want to hear my excuse? We moved overseas and then offbase-- no facilities, no one to talk to and home with a 4 year old all day. Went from having family around me 24/7 and daily YMCA access to being alone the majority of the day (except when hubby had 30 minuts to talk to me before sleeping before his next shift).  I reverted, after two years of modest success (lost 90 pounds and felt great), and bega eating..and couldnt seem to stop. Grazed like crazy on anything sweet. Rediscovered pasta and soda.
Moved on base, finally, but had gained 25 pounds by then...was depressed... went to the States for a funeral (my grandfather) and gained even more.

I have gained 50 pounds in the last two years. I'm embarrssed and pretty much disgusted with myself.

So I've bought some overeaters books (although some of the concepts don't really work for me) and today I gave up soda. I'm also going to HAVE TO avoid my children's sweets. Tootsie Rolls are my crack-- this week I worked on eating less than I would normally, but in truth, it needs to STOP.

I also may be clinically depressed, so I'm calling the Family Support Center and making an appointment with a psychiatrist tomorrow. Of course, I've been telling myself that for two weeks now.

Oh- hubby walked in and I forgot to add to my post:

I will gladly buddy up with you if you need someone to talk to or start workingon changing habits. I wouldn't mind at all to have the company. :)

Those little tootsie rolls are a killer!!!
Boredom is hard too.  Even though one or more kids are around you can still be bored.  I remember oh so well!
Where are you stationed?  Is the weather warm so you can get outside?