Here's my Story in a Nutshell

 I hope you have read my intro.  I am NOT good at boards or getting support, but after reading here I realize you guys have the same problems that I have with the sugary, slider type foods.

I wasn't always fat, but I suppose I always thought I was.  I really started gaining weight when I was around 28.  I went from 155 to 195 very quickly.  At 31 I was divorcing from an unhappy marriage and went to about 220.   From there to 250 after I got remarried.  I had my second daughter at 34 and went to 280.  Then back down to 205.  Then finally 2 years ago to 275.  That was my weight on my surgery date.  I wasn't even pregnant.

I was drinking TONS of beer and no****ching what i ate.  I hated my self and was totally out of control.  I was still adjusting to being a stay at home mom.  My surgery went great.  Lost the weight without trying.  

I never, ever dealt with the Head Hunger.  I heard people taking of it, but it never struck me to what it actually meant.  I mean i knew what it meant.  I was never one of those people that would say I Love Food.  I ate enough of it,  but I wouldn't say i loved it.  Eventually, I quit losing and wasn't exercising.  I started to eat sugary foods and quickly became addicted.  I just don't really care what i eat anymore so what ever is easiest.

Then I started t really realize the Head Hunger.  The past few days have been much better with recognizing it.  I just always feel like eating.  I never learned or actually practiced the right way to eat.  I'v been doing the NO water while eating or afterward for quite a while now, but now I am really trying to do the protein first.  It's also much easier to get rid of the Wanting to Eat feeling if I just acknowledge it.

I know my sleeve is still there safe and sound and I never really have overeaten at one time.  Not too bad anyways.  I have NEVER been one to eat to the point of discomfort.  So i know it works.

I have been on Zoloft for about 3 years or so. I had PPD pretty bad.  My doctor added Lamictal which is used for manic depression since it doesn't aggrivate the manic part, though I don't have that.  Last month, I ran out of Zoloft and before I could get any, I noticed the withdrawl's weren't too bad.  Like the physical symptoms. So i went for it and stayed off until I was sure I was going to kill someone.  When i Quit Quitting, I had also been off the lamictal for 2 days I think.  I started back to 1/2 the dose of Zoloft and I feel fine now.

My daughter is at a playground program from 9-12 and I am really trying to work on myself during this time  Okay, after everything else at least.  It's all a part of this journey I am on with myself and dare i say, God.  That's a long story, but i need to slow down and take care of the moment is basically the deal.

So, here i am.  Awake way too late because i stayed up past my point of being tired playing a video game with my completely bad influence husband.  Had a good day though.

I kept track of my food on my iTouch and went about 1800 calories.  Too many carbs, not enough fiber and PLENTY of protein I am happy to say.  Plus my sodium was really good i think.  Didn't exercise formally, but did do a lot of outside work.  

I NEED you guys!  Thanks for Listening,
Amy

Amy - I have recently found mydailyplate on Livestrong.com.  It has made my life a whole lot simpler.  After 3 1/2 years I still need to record my calories every day.  This site records calories (it has an incredible # of foods and if you don't find your food there, you can enter the nutritional facts from the label on the package or from a book that gives the info)  It also has a place to record your exercise - but I find that a trap for I need to exercise to eat my calorie limit - I do not need to subtract calories burned exercising and then increase my food intake.  So....I just ignore the exercise section.  

As I've read your posts, the thing that jumps out at me is that the secret to your success will be CARING about what you eat, and do, and just plain CARING ABOUT YOURSELF

Come here often and let us know how we can be of help.  WE CAN DO (AND ARE DOING) THIS TOGETHER

Hi Amy

thanks for posting and your honesty.  This is a great place to be open - I love it that we are all back on track together - not on our own any more.  We are among people who not only care ut understand and maybe struggling and dealing with the same issues too.

You've done a hard part of looking at yourself with honest and open eyes, now take it step by step.

Ruth