Wednesday, October 23, 2024

Our autumn down here (in Missouri) isn't very impressive this year either. Kentucky's, however, is beautiful.

"I love them, but I don't have to set myself on fire to keep them warm."

I love this!

DD, that's an impressive statement. I admire you for knowing what you're able to do and not do.

I am sure once it heals, DH's face will look absolutely fine. I have lots of friends who have had it done and it seems to heal nicely. I feel lucky that I haven had anything yet, but I sure did let my face burn a lot when I was young.

I credit being able to have a pretty normal home life with the fact that mine was safe, loving, and secure until I was 12. I can still remember all that. But I did need to have control through those next few years to navigate our family's losses and my mother's downturn.

And I could not have moved in to take care of my mother or have her live in my house either in her last years.

I have a picture of my dad mid-mohs and the entire side of his face is missing! Horrific. Impressive they were able to get him all put back together. It was a 9.5 hour procedure...

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and up several pounds over what seems to be a very short period of time. This is intentional and absolutely about where I want to be, but (as I feared) the addition of white carbs has wakened the head hunger + physical addiction for them, and I'm finding it difficult to dial the carbs down. Now, it's back to detox mode for me while maintaining where I am and then continue.

The excellent nature of discussion these past days reflects my own personal growing up experiences. I recall sitting in a group session where the therapist asked (after listening to a participant's lengthy list of thrill seeking activities and subsequent accidents) just how many years it was had he been trying (literally) to kill him self.

Depression is a strange thing, and by the number of antidepressant users ( me included- a NDRI) it doesn't surprise me the variety of self medication methods described. So many ways of dealing with it and many of those ways so self defeating and destructive. Mental food for thought and hopefully, healing and enlightenment.

( have I mentioned before just how grateful I am for this group and everyone in it?)

Todays project is continuing the reconditioning of my cutting boards and blocks (deep cleaning and re-sanding yesterday) just need to oil, wax and buff.

Ima also thinking it's time for a serious Chef's knife upgrade. Any suggestions?

LOLing at the therapist's question.

Our recent conversations here are quite interesting and helpful to me. It's always good to realize my peculiarities aren't that peculiar after all.

More tomorrow, but for now I'm enjoying my evening whiskey after a very productive day. Then I'm going to microwave a Healthy Choice frozen dinner and hit the hay early.

But before I go, I truly appreciate each of you, your sharing, your support, and for being here 10+ years. As online relationships go, this is pretty rare and wonderful.

ditto that

Agree in triplicate !

Greetings all

Early here for me. Had a morning zoom meeting for the studio this am. I thought there was going to be some controversial stuff but it ended up being not much. I think the person who wanted to make waves could see that no one else was playing that game. But her criticism of one person turned in to needing staff evaluations for all employees. Busy work in my opinion but we do have a board member with experience in that.

Wow DD, you have the quote of the year "I don't have to set myself on fire to keep them warm". So true. Do not envy your position but so glad your brother is stepping up. Crazy Pat used to berate me for not coming back to Lincoln to take care of my mom. She would say she was doing my job. What about my brothers? What about the fact that she drove away care givers with her rudeness? End of rant. Good on you DD for having a balanced approach that does not include self immulation. (applause).

Yeah it's kind of an ugly fall here too but they are never that great. I miss the intense red leaves of the midwest. Enjoy those of you that have it.

Yikes Paula on DH vertigo. Hope he can get it checked out soon. Must be terrible for him to live with. Ditto you having to be nurse. I don't know anyone with a DH that does "sick" well.

House is getting cleaned as we speak. Vet apt for Poppy this afternoon so DH will take me in the new car we bought just to accommodate dog crates. Not sure if I will get to the gym. Bad timing.

Liz interesting to hear of your childhood. Some people spend their time trying to recreate their childhood while others are determined to escape it. But kudos as you seem to have done a great job creating and nurturing a wonderful family. And not just you Liz.

CC I bet your substitute doctor will be fine with scrip request. Similar concerns have kept me from proceeding with these meds. But realistically I doubt my doctor cares that much. He has much more to worry about. Sometimes I think that when we forgo preferred foods our bodies save up some kind of deficit to be fulfilled later. But I bet your body moves along from this phase. (she said as she contemplated an English muffin).

Hoping for a bit of sun and warmth for all. looks like its not gonna happen here,

Diane S