Wednesday, October 23, 2024

Weight 119.4. Next to last day of DS's visit.

Lots of deep thoughts yesterday, much deeper than are you a thrill seeker or into comfort. I hate scary rides btw and love warmth and funny movies. My childhood was good until my father died when I was 12. My mother might have shaken the alcoholism if my brother hadn't died shortly thereafter. Living with her was hell (she was a nasty drunk), but I was out within 3 years after my brother's death and focusing life on being a young mother. I think most of that made me stronger, but it also made me seek ways to comfort myself mostly with food. I probably do like my wine too much but never anything else. I always like to feel in control and I guess because I am used to wine and sip it slowly enough it never impedes that.

Today we will take DS to lunch at the Beach Club and dinner at the main clubhouse. He loves this country club life LOL. I am trying to finish up some painting on the exterior lanai wall. It's a little hairy to do but I think it looks unfinished without paint. I should have had the painter do it but didn't think it needed it at that point.

I'm a little sad DD and her DH aren't going to be able to visit but it will be nice to have a break in the visitor schedule. Apparently Veterans Day is a big deal here in Florida - it is mixed in Massachusetts. Schools and banks are closed but most businesses are open. The high airfare must be families with kids taking a long weekend.

Have a wonderful Wednesday!

Hey all. Sorry for not posting, I've been busy and feeling a little overwhelmed! My weight is up again this week. It's like the shots shut off and I'm my old self again. I do think this sudden change in how the meds feel is curious that it has coincided with switching to a different pharmacy. But it also coincides with reaching a normal BMI, which I mentioned I never seem to be able to maintain. Argh. I have felt in the past like they have stopped working, but not like this. I'm ravenous for bad food. My next prescription is now a day delayed with Fed Ex issues. I need to look up what they say about it showing up warm. I'm thinking about asking my doctor to do a prescription for the real stuff, but that would require explaining I was on compound. And I wouldn't be explaining it to my doctor, I would be explaining it to her temporary replacement as mine is out on maternity leave. None of it is insurmountable, but all of it feels like the equivalent of rocks in my shoes as I walk the path.

I have a board meeting today, I have to make calls to see about an error on my alarm system after they swapped out my internet antenna on the roof for the new tower that should have had zero effect on the alarm system, and I need to walk Kirby.

Anyway, take care all!

I was surprised that my doctor was in support of me taking the compound when I told him this summer. He had been willing to prescribe the brand name stuff but then we found out it wasn't covered. He said he had a lot of patients taking the compound either because of cost or availability.

I hope it starts to work for you again. But maybe your head is overruling it because of the thought that you can't maintain a normal BMI?

Definitely ask for prescription. It's very easy to explain why you used the compounding pharamacy: supply issues. Let her know you've lost successfully, but now that the supply issues have lessened, you'd be more comfortable with a prescription from a traditional source.

154.8. I was so hoping to see 153's or even 152's this week when I was at 154.1 about a week ago. I have no idea why the numbers mean so dang much to me except that I had mini goals in mind, 152 is 40 lbs. down! The next goal after that is 145, normal BMI!

I had to pick DH up at work last night at around midnight. He had a vertigo episode and was puking his guts out and could hardly move. Thankfully someone on his crew came into the bathroom while he was there and helped him out. The vertigo episodes are becoming more frequent lately and that concerns me. He is also one that doesn't do well when sick.

DSD and fiancé will get in late tonight. They are driving from Denver where fiancé just finished a med school rotation.

Worked on the scrapbook supply sorting and pricing last night, more of that to do today. Ordered DS2 some of his birthday and Christmas gifts. He likes Fiestaware and lost half of what they had in the breakup. Kind of expensive dinnerware but so his "aesthetic " with the bright colors. I also got him a gift certificate to his favorite "upscale " pizza place in Madison. I never thought of pizza places as being upscale, but I guess Madison has one!

Need to prepare for woman's Bible study that I am leading tomorrow. Such a great group of ladies! I especially like that we are a multigenerational group, with members in their 20's to 80's, some new to the faith and some seasoned!

That vertigo issue sounds awful. Hope your DH is feeling better, and can some effective interventions.

Love-love my Fiesta-ware! I've over 140 pieces and stopped collecting after realizing there was no place left in the cabinets to add 12 fruit cups I was considering, And, that since there is no end to the variety of set pieces in the collection line I will never be able to have it all.....

DH is pathetic when sick, and, while I excel at doing for needs, I am a wretched excuse for vasts amount of bed sided sympathetic hand holding; it is a good thing he is not often sick.

Vertigo is horrible to experience - I hope they can figure out how to get rid of it for DH.

I love Fiestaware too - I had a fake version at my house in Florida which I left behind when I sold it. I kind of miss the colors. Here it is all white. Okay but not fun.

Liz, I so get your preference to stay in control. I think its an instinct we as young people develop when we are dealing with adults who are anything but in control. Kudos to you for building a beautiful life and raising a beautiful family. It's so powerful to change the script we were given as kids.

I do so appreciate my brother stepping up. There's a long history of him doing quite the opposite. But he is there now, and that's what we will focus on. If he wasn't, there would need to be different solutions. There may still need to be. Years ago, the plan was my brother and sister in law were going to move in, and my parents would sign the deed to the house to them. With the hoarding and other issues, there is no way for them to effectively move in. But one thing for sure, I will not ever be moving in, even though they may wi**** In this new stage, I am again taking stock of what I can and cannot do, what I owe them, what do I owe myself, what can I live with and still consider myself a good person... I love them, but I don't have to set myself on fire to keep them warm.

DH had his Mohs surgery this morning. The surgeon was able to get clean margins on the first cut. DH has 3 layers of stitches, two layers are dissolvable and one layer he will need removed next week. Hopefully the scarring on his pretty face will be minimal.

It hasn't rained here for 38 days. Crazy, after the monsoon we had in June and a good part of July. All these bright sunny days have been lovely, but some rain would be good for our trees and shrubs before going dormant this winter.

I'm going to do a little bit of paperwork, and then see what DH would like for dinner. I'll give him the night off from cooking. :)

No rain here in the longest, either---fall tree color change options are: dull green, puke yellow, brown, maybe a sprinkling of burnt orange, or dead and on the ground.