Monday, July 1, 2024

Down another ten spot; Dang, those are always special. Whoop, indeed. Also special is setting those goals to the side marked, "well and done".

I am injecting 75 units now - seems like a lot! Congratulations on being down another decade! So much easier with these meds instead of "dieting" isn't it?

Finding new adjectives is harder on some days than others but it is a bit of fun. I have also found some entirely inappropriate ones while searching...

148.6. First of the month tally-up: June 1st- 157.2, July 1st- 148.6 = -8.6#

Total from April (189#) -40.#. (High weight at regain 9/23/23 was 194.6).

Biggest takeaway (how many times am I going to have to relearn this?)

• It took 3 1/2 years of steady regaining, denying, ignoring, lip service without significant effort only to return to continuing increasing gain -
• It took ONE day to honestly admit full responsibility for the gain
• It took me coming back here for the support, encouragement and help
• It took the next day and the next days after to detox the slider carbs
• It then took 4 months of practicing mindful eating to lose the weight.

Three and a half years of me not taking responsibility for poor choices and then 4 months of daily effort (not always successful, but committed).

I'm saying this is my truth - The problems involved in weight gain and the inability to maintain sustained maintenance are many- food addictions, disordered eating, medications, misguided coping patterns; seems like all and anything physical, mental, emotional. Many of these are life long issues I also struggle with.

Guess I'm just today puzzled at why'd it take so long for me to choose to do the work ?

Thanks to one and all here in the place where I can be/ask for accountability, talk, share and discuss all matters without judgement. Megalopsychy is found here in good measure.

Today you have been my therapist - thanks for listening and send me the bill

It is an ongoing frustration/puzzle for me. Eating well is so easy, until it's not. I've been through many, many cycles. One of the many things I love about this group is the demonstrations of courage to keep on searching for the puzzle piece that will help it make sense.

Yes! All of this! Sounds just like me!

It's a struggle for us all. That's why this is the place to be. Even when in regain mode staying on here helps me think daily about what I should be doing (even if I'm not). Sharing the losses and the wins with our tribe helps immensely.

I so relate, Miss150! Except for a few glorious years after surgery, I've never been able to just maintain. I was always in a gaining cycle or a losing cycle. While gaining, I would berate myself, give myself pep talks, remind myself that I am always happy and content when losing...and then ignore everything I just said to myself. When losing, I SWEAR I will never let myself regain, that it not difficult or miserable, etc. etc. I am REALLY hoping that with the meds, I can break the cycle. But I have learned that this is how I am wired, for whatever reason, so I have stopped beating myself up so much for gaining. Cheers to you for all your insights and thanks for sharing them!

Lizanne

Greetings all

It's sunny here and almost hot. Don't need a hoodie. It's great but the less clothing I need the more I am reminded of my fatness.

DB sent me some lovely bath towels as a hostess gift. Perfect color and I am sure they are fancy designer stuff. Nice to receive.

Yep Liz, bad drivers are epidemic. Here I think it's the year round people and not the tourists. Our freeway ramps are short and no one entering yields. Drives me nuts. Did they not ever take a driving test? Speaking of which, our friend who was in the hospital all that time missed her deadline to take test and now has to study a lot. They have all these questions like what sized car seat do you use for a 3 year old?. I learned to drive before those were invented.

Bonnie 150 your comments are so wise and to the point. You tell the truth Sister! Awesome that you shared it for all of us to learn from.

Studio time today. Nothing for me from the kiln. Will be next week. Meanwhile I made a bunch of new items today since my gallery spot is almost empty. Slaving away over a bag of wet clay....

Peps hope it cools there soon. If not, you know where its always cool.....

I get vicarious thrills from reading everyone's d-junk stories. Still dreaming of the day when I can see most of our bedroom floor.

Gallery had an opening on Saturday and sales were HUGE! All kinds of stuff. My display is almost empty. Hence slaving over a bag of clay.

Stopped at the store for some dinner items since we have eaten our way through the go boxes. Hamburgers or steak tonight.

Diane S