Saturday, October 14, 2023

Yesterday was Friday the 13th! Hopefully none of us had a bad luck day.

Happy Hour last night was fun: A lot of people are starting to come back so it was really busy. What a difference a few years make - we now know a large percentage of the people who go to these events. DH never went before we were together but now he enjoys them too.

It is still muggy but cooler this morning. I think the weather pattern is changing and it can't be soon enough. Yesterday it was too hot to sit under an umbrella at the beach so we just sat by the pool dunking in every few minutes.

I am happy with how the chest turned out. I didn't like that fancy scroll-work when it was brown but it looks okay white. The shell drawer pulls are just plain brushed chrome ones with shells glued on. They wouldn't work out if the pulls had to function (the shells would likely drop off eventually) but they are fine for decorative ones. I couldn't find anything I really liked so I decided to do it myself.

We may go to our usual outdoor venue for music this afternoon if it doesn't rain. But right now it is time to walk with Justice. Have a satisfactory Saturday!

I'm heading down to Prescott today to have lunch with my friend and CA real estate agent (we knew each other as kids and our parents were great friends). He is helping coach a college volleyball team (he played professionally in Europe for several years) and they have a tournament here. He's hilarious so I'm looking forward to it! It's the eclipse here today and we are on the edge of the total band, so all the libraries had glasses for people. So I got a few and am going a little early so we can watch it. We're going to the Palace saloon for lunch - oldest operating business and bar in AZ (1877).

I think that will fill my day. Maybe I'll stop at Costco on the way home since it's right there.

The balloons are up and the birds are singing. I shut several of the blinds of the windows they have recently flown into trying to stem the carnage...

Anyway, I should go get ready for the day. Take care all!

Must be the way the light hits the windows there? I haven't heard people on the east coast complaining of the bird****ting very often when they have large window expanses.

I just found this - very interesting: https://www.allaboutbirds.org/news/why-bird****windows-and -how-you-can-help-prevent-it/#

Very interesting.... I'm not about to paint my windows, though! LOL! Luckily, we have very few bird accidents. I credit my resident owls for that! But who knows. Maybe it's just the angle the birds take coming into our yard with all the trees.

Minneapolis was supposed to get a 45% eclipse, but the clouds rolled in again before the event. I hope you got to see something! Sounds like you have a fun day planned!

Ours was 89%. Very eerie. The glasses were fantastic for looking right at it!

Had a very "enlightening" session with the eating disorder shrink. She pointed out to me that most people with eating disorders have either one type of either two specific triggers/disordered thinking/manifestations...whatever you want to call them. Being an overachiever, I have both! LOL. I also feel it's a sticky thing because I don't fall into the easily definable categories of anorexia, bulimia, classic binge eating disorder... I've been able to cleverly hide my eating disorder to make it more socially acceptable. And like a predator I have learned to groom people to support my eating disorder. Rather clever, really, but in the long run it really doesn't work. So, for now, I'm just working on dealing with the discomfort of challenging the eating disorder behaviors and thinking. It really sucks big time!

I'm off to a dog club meeting and then have a nice relaxing, "I get to do whatever I want to do" type of day.... A massage may be in the cards!

Excavating the past or our psyches to confront our dysfunctions, yeah, I agree, the discomfort is no fun. I'm really curious about grooming people to support your eating disorder. Does this involve some co dependent behaviors on their part?

Watching DHs journey with Wegovy has been very interesting. While Wegovy seems to suppress both my physical and emotional interest in food, DH is still grappling with the emotional need to eat. The Wegovy makes him stop eating before he emotionally feels "full". He's almost to the highest dose, so he'll soon learn if that makes a difference in the " head hunger ".

I completely understand your DH's feelings about not being emotionally "full". I had a great deal of difficulty with that post VSG. Everyone on the boards kept writing about how full they felt. I never EVER felt full. As a matter of fact, I didn't have much feeling of physical satiety for months and months. I went from feeling hungry to over full in a bite or two and never got the satisfaction of that feeling everyone raved about. Frankly, I still don't ever feel full the way I used to prior to VSG. I have learned to feel the new feeling of full, but it is a very unsatisfying feeling emotionally.

Grooming people to serve my eating disorder does indeed include utilizing codependent tendencies in my friends and co workers. There is a group of people (women of a certain age particularly) that delight, for one reason or another, in "feeding" people. They are easy to scope out in a work environment and in social circles. Letting them know particular likes, etc... during conversations (stories or bits of knowledge about eating delights) is a great strategy. Very soon people are bringing chocolate, cookies, brownies and gift cards to favorite places. As a teacher, one of the things our PTAs have always had us do is fill out "like" sheets at the beginning of each year. Nothing like letting parents know what floats your boat in the treat department. Honestly, I wasn't aware of what I was doing until recently. Once I uncovered that little layer, I thought "oh, clever man!" just like the game keeper in Jurassic Park just before he gets eaten by a Velociraptor! Irony at it's best!

Oh, and Ron and I have developed wonderful cohabitational disordered eating strategies. He's still not there in acknowledging how he supports my eating disorder, but I can see in time he will. Part of me dreads that day! LOL! The Disordered part of me likes very much having a live in support provider for my disorder!