Last Day in May

Good morning, on this last day in May. Liz, I don't know if I'd be able to leave that beautiful oasis, although the Cape is wonderful too !

I am grateful that people share such honest feedback about the quest for health and happiness with a significant other in your life. There are pros and cons to living alone and your reflections help me appreciate the balance.

I started to type and lost it - so frustrating when that happens!

There are definitely pros and cons to living alone. When I was first contemplating life without deceased DH I thought that I would like my place being exactly how I wanted it: clutter-free and decorated my way. But I was so lonely during his last few years with dementia that I decided fairly quickly that I didn't want to be alone in the future.

We locked up the condo this morning and are just getting our COVID boosters. Then we are driving to the airport, flying north, meeting with DH's sisters for dinner, ending up at my Cape house. Can't wait to see Justice!

Have a winning Wednesday!

I look forward to blocks of alone time. I like it when DH has dinner with his BFF or "the boys" from work. But I wait eagerly for his return too... I imagine this is the story when its the right person. My BFF on the other hand, has been divorced from her cheating, narcissistic husband for over a decade, and she says it still gives her peace to think, he's not coming home tonight, or ever!

Another gorgeous day in paradise! The tree planting is done. Now they need to attack the weeds, but a lot of the weeds are wildflowers, so the delay is okay by me.

I'm having lunch with my neighbor today. I don't want to be one of those difficult food guests (unless something is going to make you sick or kill you, the picky food guests irk me and trigger major internal eye-rolls), but now I feel like a picky food guest. Carbs won't kill me. I think she's making a bean soup and it's sweet of her to have me over.

After posting that hoisin sauce video on the TT thread, that song is now stuck in my head! "Go to the store...buy a bottle of hoisin sauce. Open the fridge...oh no! I have a bottle of hoisin sauce!" I do this with cheese.

I'm just noticing I'm having a lovely moment of calm. Birds singing, breeze and sunshine coming through the door, no hammering or back up truck beeping coming from the houses under construction... Bliss. There is a woman on YouTube whose ASMR videos I have on when I'm trying to go to sleep. She often says, "Nobody wants anything from you at this moment. Nobody needs anything from you at this moment." Never ceases to lower my blood pressure.

Food is still good. Weight is stubborn. A walk would be good.

Hope you all have your own moments of calm! Take care!

Weight loss stalls like you are experiencing always drive me crazy!

I'm having a moment of peace too. Sitting on my porch, watching a robin splash around in the bird bath. A moment of respite. Recharges the soul.

Well, hot damn! Got on the scale this morning (haven't been on since sometime last week...) and find I'm down more than 4 pounds. Go figure....

I had a good session with the nutritional shrink yesterday. Always a plus when I come away feeling good from those sessions. I'm glad I've been sticking it out with her. I believe my understanding of my eating disorder has really deepened this past year and that a new chapter, so to speak, of recovery is in the works.

The rehab place wants to discharge my father on Friday due to lack of progress. We are going to appeal the discharge. He is 93 and demented. They cite him as noncompliant. He's not noncompliant, he's having difficulty moving his body according to the directions. And he has trouble remembering things. He can't walk yet. Even with a walker his ability to walk varies from session to session. ONe day he walks 25 feet with the walker and the next day only 5 feet. I'm not sure what progress these people want to see, but dang he's been there three weeks today and has had less than three weeks of PT!

Safe travels, Liz! CC, would love to see some photos of the new forest you have planted. DD, losing inches and feeling better in your skin is nothing to sneeze at. Better than scale movement, if you ask me! Shirl, hope you are feeling better ASAP! Ocean D, you are right, there are pros and cons to having a partner - especially when it comes to food, dieting, eating disorders... Diane S. sent in my entries for Ferndale...

Discharge him to his home, where he lives assisted, but still independent? Yikes. Makes me feel so sad they label him non compliant. Your Dad sounds like such a old school gentleman and charmer, this is no label to stick on him.

I assume they would discharge him to assisted living where he would have outpatient PT? Not necessarily ideal but I'm afraid several of the caretakers in my former support group ended up dealing with this scenario which they weren't really on-board with. Sometimes the outpatient PT did work ultimately.

I came home early today, because I have a doctor's appointment. Rather than rush from school, I took a smidgen of sick time. I have a busy afternoon, first, see my oncologist (routine check up), then over to DVM to get a real ID drivers license. Luckily, they make sppointments, so i won't have to be there long. They are not required yet in Minnesota, but my license is up for renewal in July, so I thought I might as well get one before we travel this summer. Hopefully I understood what forms of id are needed.

Tomorrow we go for TSA pre check appointments. As much as we fly, I don't know why we haven't done it sooner. But at least we are getting to it now.

I'm sitting on our porch. The warm breeze, the birds singing, the smell of pot wafting from my neighbors garage... Haha, we like him a lot, but we notice he likes to seize the opportunity to relax if his wife isn't home.