Wednesday, May 17, 2023

It is 6 am and I have been awake since 4:30: 5 hours of sleep last night. I am sure I am jet lagged but I am also getting stressed over the upcoming condo purchase and move. Every joint in my body seems to be aching today perhaps because of lack of sleep. Unfortunately we have to be out late tonight as we are meeting DD for her birthday (35) tonight, a 1.5 hour drive each way. Luckily Mike is coming so maybe he will drive home? He fell asleep right away last night and is still sleeping so he has had at least 8 hours. I envy people who can always sleep.

Yesterday we were able to walk on the beach with Justice. He was one happy boy! However, he is also part of my sleep disruption as he has been getting up with DS since we left for our trip at 4:30 am. So he was whining at our bedroom door to go downstairs at that time yesterday and this morning.

Today includes putting away what remains from unpacking, then repacking for 10 days in Florida. I am going to do my best not to overdo.

Have a warm Wednesday!

I'm with you on lack of sleep catching up with me! I was so tired last night I crawled into bed to watch tv just before 7! And I hung on as long as i could, but was dead before 8. My alarm went off at 5:45 to move my car as I can't get out if the painters park in my driveway. I was literally staggering...

I'm so relieved the paint color is a perfect match and the sheen level isn't shiny at all. My trees went in yesterday and the landscaper (I feel like we should just refer to him as James at this point. He and his crew are here so often, he might be family now) convinced me I need 4 more. 6 of the new ones are deodar cedars and will get fairly tall and large, but they look a bit small and lonely given they are very pencil-like now. Why not. I could use the screening from the street.

The a/v guy fixed all my little issues so that was a successful day. They brought custom labeled, backlit, engraved light switch button covers. So nice to not guess what button goes with which light!

The calibrating with the finger-stick meter has fixed my monitor being high. That was 10 days of wasted worry and disappointment! Seems like a flaw in their system. A diabetic (whom these were made for) would have a blood meter to calibrate against. They should include one or make it optional with their kit. They aren't expensive and would make sure people are dealing with accurate information. The spikes and valleys with food and activity are still accurate, but whether the numbers are worrisome or not is what is dependent on how accurate the device is. So, I'm not pre-diabetic nor am I insulin resistant. Yay!

Today it had me do an exercise test to see how my blood sugar responds to exercise. I had to do it fasted, so I was very ready for coffee and breakfast when I was done. Food is still on track. Weight was the same today.

I foresee another early bedtime tonight. I have a felted animal class tomorrow and Friday with my weavers and spinners guild, which should be fun. If my animal isn't too hideous, I'll share a picture...

I think that is all I know. Take care!

Here's a cactus from my yard...

Thank goodness you aren't pre-diabetic! Beautiful cacti.

Liz, it is very tough for a person who already struggles with sleep to have that many disruptors. These 10 days need to go fast so you can have the stress of the closing behind you, and just have happy thoughts about you and Mike buying your first home together.

CC hooray for the paint working out so satisfactorily!! You just never know for sure until it starts being applied, and really, until it dries. Awesome to know your blood sugar is actually normal. Seemed kind of crazy that you were pre diabetic with all of your walking and tweaking of your diet.

I am losing ever so slowly. Slow. So slow. But since I've started taking Tamoxifen, I could not budge my weight. In March, I decided to give WW a good ole college try. I tracked very well, I measured, I tried to use the extra weekly points for indulgences etc and really track them. I exercised. I lost 2.6 pounds in 6 weeks. Not even the usual 3-5 pounds of water weight. So I still remain hopeful with Wegovy, because at least the scale is moving a little. I weigh less today than I did on this date a year ago, I guess that's some progress.

DD is here working from home this week. She was in pretty good spirits, than a few things happened today that became all too much, and I found her weeping in the family room. The biggest was her lease is up August 1, and her landlord informed them he is raising the rent $400 a month. That wouldn't be her share, her rent will go up $140. But she is just scrapping by as it is, so it stressed her out so much. She has a year and a half of grad school to go. We told her we'll help her for now, and when she's a big deal therapist she can start paying us back. Sigh. I had a very rich friend who used to say, if money can fix it, it isn't a problem. Only true if there is money available to spend on the problem... Anyhow, it was probably good in a weird way to see her distress, because she is very good at faking everything is fine. Remember when Ocean Diane's daughter was going through so much during Covid, and wished her Mom could come and braid her hair? I sat daughter down, made her an iced coffee, and combed and curled her hair for an hour while we talked. She just left to go hang out with a friend. Her hair looked great. There's not much else I can do to ease her way... I wish there was.

As I thought yesterday's beautiful weather slipped away and high was 66 today. Still not too bad, but not warm enough to enjoy sitting on a shady porch. Weekend is setting up to be nice.

I had a very rich friend who used to say, if money can fix it, it isn't a problem.

Ugh. What a thoughtless thing to say. Sounds like someone who doesn't appreciate how very fortunate they are to not have to worry about finances. It's true that money does not buy happiness (or love or a family or health). But it absolutely buys safety and security and that is not to be taken for granted.

You DD is lucky to have you and DH. She will get through this with your support. And she will be a great therapist because she will be able to relate to her patient's anxieties. And yeah, anyone who has struggled to pay bills at some point in their life knows that money CAN fix some problems (even if it can't buy the things CC enumerated).

DD, I understand your friend's quip about money and problems, but damn.... it comes from a financially privileged life experience. I have had many, many problems that money could fix during my lifetime, when I did not have the money to fix the problem. So, an extra $140 per month is a big PROBLEM, if one is just squeaking by.

I wrote a long, detailed post this morning and just as I hit submit, we were hit with a power outage and the WiFi went out. My post was lost to the ether! I've not the energy to try to recreate the post. Long and short, things with my dad are stressful. I realized leaving nursing facility after visiting yesterday I was feeling loss and grief. My father sounds and looks like my dad, but his essence has changed. He is no longer the same man he was just a few weeks ago. He is not the person I called Daddy. It's really odd to look at his eyes.

Needless to say, food and eating and weight have had very little of my attention the past 11 days. I can report my weight is right where it's been. At least it is stable.

The eyes are a view into the inside and I still remember my deceased DH's empty eyes in his last months. His body was present but there was no one really there.

Greetings late night check I. On the iPad. Busy day with studio, car software updates etc. the moons must be in the house of no slurp as i woke up early coughing. No fun. So the house got cleaned and the car repaired.

peps sp sorry got you and dad, it wil be a lot for you but your dad is lucky to have you,

cold shrimp and spinach salad tonight. A proper post vsg meal for once.

that's it. More tomorrow,

diane s

iPad typing is a challenge isn't it? LOL