Sunday, February 5, 2023

We stayed up too late talking but it was really nice! Not much to do today anyway on a rainy day. The talking was after dinner out at a new Mexican restaurant where the portions were huge but the food was very fresh and tasty. We have enough fillings from fajitas along with refried beans for 2 meals.

No Topamax on board again. I'm not sure when/if I will restart it. I really enjoyed my day yesterday feeling like normal. I felt kind of depressed the days I was taking it too - possibly because I didn't feel well physically or possibly another side-effect.

Have a sunny Sunday (unlike our rainy one)!

I had a nice walk down the hill from my house to cheer on the runners in the Sedona half marathon yesterday with my neighbor. The halfway point of the race was at the bottom of the street to my neighborhood. Nice of her to ask me to join (I wasn't jazzed about getting out of my jammies, but try to say yes to things here to work on making new friends).

It was a gorgeous day and is again today. I started to do some weeding, but I was picking some weeds with very fine (almost couldn't see them) barbed *****les that went right through my "*****le proof" gloves. i found out later it's aptly called *****ly lettuce. They were so fine they just broke off when I tried to tweezer them out of my fingers. So today is a trip to Home Depot to get thicker gloves.

This morning was pancake/bacon Sunday. Delicious but not low calorie or carbs! Tonight is salmon with salad. Maybe a snack midday.

I think that's it! Have a great day!

Liz doesn't sound like Topamax is right for you. It was working well for me, in terms of suppressing cravings, I lost interest in snacking. But then when all hell broke lose with my health it seems to not be working so well, or my need for dopamine or whatever I get from snacking is overriding it. So it's probably not a holy grail. My daughter is having some success with injectable meds, but I know others have experienced lots of side effects from them...

Happy Anniversary Diane! What have you and DH decided to do to celebrate?

CC, pancakes and bacon, that's what I asked for for breakfast yesterday. Seemed like just the thing for this darn cold.

Stupid cold. Its not going to be a quick one. And I really don't feel like I can miss any school the next few days, too many meetings that would be so problematic to reschedule and to make it not worth it to stay home unless I'm vomiting. Luckily when work is done, i have no obligations so i can just come home and rest. Anyhow, yesterday I had a carb fest, today I'll get back to eating food to help me be nourished.

Had a couple of busy days.... Dog and family stuff.... Me, I'm fine....

Since it is up to me to find the answer for which we all are searching....(LOL) I did stumble across a little psychological info i thought might be worth pondering for us all..... FEAR OF LOSS OR LOSING IS A MORE POWERFUL MOTIVATOR THAN DESIRE FOR REWARD!

Given that finding, I have been focusing on asking myself what do I fear losing when eating to lose weight? It is a powerful question - especially if I keep asking myself why for each answer I give.... Can get you pretty deep. Long and short for me, is that this question when probed deeply enough led me right to some pretty deeply rooted childhood feelings - which logically don't make much sense, but given my history are 100% understandable.....

I have honestly tracked for two days to see how i'm really eating. All I'm looking at is macros and calorie density. No surprise that tracking my eating with honesty and not going into diet mode, I saw in illustration I tend to choose calorie dense foods over all others. Literally, food for thought.

I must get on my broomstick! Dogs need to be fed and i need to clean up before my client arrives.

I find I gravitate towards calorie dense foods too, foods without fat just don't stay with me. But I'm okay with a small portion of higher fat food, I don't need a lot of volume if it's calorie dense.

Greetings all

Rain, not rain, rain. Thats today. Of course it started raining again as I went to CVS, my one outing of the day. But I scored big as they had my favorite coffee on sale. Then I bought a bag of potato chips to celebrate. Can you spell "self destructive"?

Folks I cannot figure out why I don't do what is in my own best interest. A few minor food and ha*****anges and I would be much better off. I hear voices from my childhood "you are lazy etc etc. I really thought I had the answer with vsg and did for quite a few years. Oh well, more to ponder.

So today I told DH I wanted to go to the sushi restaurant for our anniversary. He was less than enthused. I reminded him you can get tempura shrimp and such. I think he will come around.

Party yesterday was fun but there are so many attributes of aging. We had a discussion about getting a shopping cart in a store even if you only want one thing because it gives something to balance on. And about how print is too small and we cant work our phones. Our now 84 year old friend announced he is on Match.com. He is planning a trip to France but thinks he can do without his smart phone. Hmmm.

Yeah Liz sounds like topomax is not for you. Not worth feeling crappy.

Peps hug the pups for me.

We watched the Banshees movie last night. I liked it but as a person who has crippled fingers, some of it was hard to watch.

Not much else. I tell myself that if I go fold all the clothes I can have a glass of wine. Food and drink as a reward system. Hmmm indeed.

Diane S

It was a very bleak, strange movie, but...also so masterful. What story telling. Very glad I saw it, it still stays with me over a week later, but I am scared to flat out recommend it because it is so dark.