Sunday, December 4, 2022

The sisters go to visit someone tonight so Mike and I have a day off. We are going golfing this afternoon (9 holes of course). He really wants me to like this game and maybe play with others. I don't know about that. It is okay and I don't mind playing but I'm really just doing it to have an activity with him.

It will be interesting to hear if the extra protein helps your aches Diane. I have been very achy lately and someone suggested that it could be the statin I am on as they are known to cause that as well.

I feel your pain CC. The last time I did a major move I was 40 and I can still remember how exhausted I was and both my feet and back ached for a few days. The moves to my retirement homes weren't nearly as bad because they were already furnished.

As to weight loss, I do feel like trying to get on plan now would be doomed to failure with the trip home coming in 12 days. Mike hasn't started that drug he got from his physician yet though he did fill the prescription. It supposedly can cause some uncomfortable side-effects especially at the beginning so it doesn't seem to be something one wants to start when there is company coming or travel starting.

Not much else on the agenda other than the usual Sunday laundry and walk with Justice.

Have a super Sunday!

Happy Sunday!

I have a rare Sunday with very little on teh books. All I am fully committed to is going to my dad's to help him create a moving list.

I saw Liz's post in TT this morning. I so understand the thinking and feeling behind her words. I did, however, offer a different option - one that has taken me years to accept - It's okay to choose to NOT lose weight. Choosing to not lose weight is not choosing to gain weight. It's just that as people living in padded, large sized bodies we have conditioned ourselves to believe we should always be in weight loss mode unless we are 100% at goal weight. It's a bull**** way of thinking, but I believe all of us here think that way most of the time. I can guarantee you that people don't look at us and start mentally picking us apart. Most people will notice Liz's great sile and twinkly eyes! That's what I notice..... Same with CC.... I see gorgeous soft eyes, beautiful smile, and gorgeous hair!

So, my advice to all during this eating season is to let go and let live. Enjoy your families, friends, loves and yourselves. Appreciate where you are today. Don't worry about where you believe you ought to be-what number the scale should reflect, or what you should be doing to reduce your physical size. Why the f*ck should we feel guilty about enjoying/loving who we are just because the bodies in which we live are not exactly as we believe they should be?

I suppose this thinking is the result of way too much therapy and working on my disordered eating. For the record, I am not interested in losing weight at this moment in time. I am fat. I know I am fat and I am 100% okay with that for right now. I will absolutely change my mind about this in the near future. I had to look at my truth and my truth is simply I don't want to lose weight right now. Getting okay with that has not been easy, but I can tell you it's a nice place to be.

Super Sunday to all.....

I am where Peps is at with the weight. Not trying to lose right now, and I'm okay with that. But boy, have I not been okay with what I'm weighing in the past. Dare I say, some dark nights of the soul and outright despair. Its all so complicated. I'm content right now for a couple of reasons. 1. I am not at the highest regain weight.2. Because I did lose some Wright this fall, and I've kept some of it off, I have hope for that future date when I can focus on weight loss again 3. I'm just delighted to feel human again. Now that I am feeling bettet, I'm understanding even more how terrible I did feel.

Great show last night! So fun to be out and hearing incredible live music. 2 people in my club were sick this morning, so our meeting was cancelled. Quick pivot, DH, BFf and I then had time to go to our favorite coffee shop before the Vikings game. Which just ended with some yelling and disbelief how close they once again let the score become. But they did win, which is an unusual place for Vikings fans to find themselves. Usually they snatch victory out of the jaws of defeat, at least they are winning this year, even if down to the wire.

Time to get a pot of chili going and then I need to get to the Sunday paper...

Diane S, I can't see any downside to your plan with the Fair life milk. Good quality protein with a nice hit of calcium. And not nearly as yucky as other drinks. Sometimes I heat it up gently and put some coffee in for a mocha. Or warm it up and add a shot of SF torani , like hot chocolate.

Greetings all

I am having a bout of grumpiness. Not due to my day 2 of having a protein drink to raise my protein consumption. Rather it was spending several hours with a friend who wanted me to look at a contract for her. Wow can this person figure out ways to spin her wheels and digress! This is a 6 page agreement. Its nothing. I made a few points on what is important but told her to just get it done. Must be awful to get so wrapped up in stuff that you become paralyzed. It's a mental health problem that a bit of contract advice won't fix. Oh well.

And yeah, for some time I have been having resentful feelings about being overweight and beating myself up. (speaking of spinning wheels). Sometimes I think I have no more control over my weight than I do my height and I should just accept it. But at age 71 it's not about looks anymore but it is about health and strain on my aching body and off balance self. Again, Oh well.

Once I was changing clothes at the gym and a little girl, about 3, said "mommy why is her bottom so big?". Mommy shushed her and then explained that god makes people in all shapes and sizes and isn't that wonderful? good parenting and we should all take note of that. It was actually pretty cute. No other bottoms were in view so I know she meant me.

Chip seems slowly declining and today I thought it was maybe the end as he did not want to eat. But later he did eat a good bowl of chicken.

Costco enchilladas tonight. Love the recipe.

DD glad you got to a live show. So uplifting. Methinks we need to find a new comedy series. I can only take so much drama on Yellowstone. How many fist fights can men have before lunch?

I am also crabby because I was trying to order stuff from Lands End and their web site is completely hostile to old people making it hard to read and navigate and making fabric content a nuclear secret. Is it too much to want 80% cotton clothes?

Enough rambling. Time for dog care in this doggy daycare/nursing home.

Diane S