Saturday October 15, 2022

So much for going to Water Aerobics this morning. It is raining with some thunder. It should clear later so we can take a long walk but my new "routine" is compromised already.

I heard from 2 friends I had made in the Alzheimers Support Group. They were wondering if we would ever get together again. So we are meeting for lunch on Monday! I am flying north early Monday morning so the timing worked great. I can't wait to catch up. One of my friends commented that it must be that the "boys" were making it happen.

Today we may go listen to some music outside but otherwise it will be a low-key day. Last night we went to Happy Hour at the clubhouse, then ate at our favorite place so we don't feel a need to go out again.

Have a super Saturday!

This morning I did a trail clean up event with the women's group I joined. Met some nice people and re-met some I met before (though the person I carpooled with was not who I thought I was meeting!). In fact, I don't actually remember meeting her! I guess I just get in the car with strangers now - haha! She was nice, but her husband was one of those know it all conversation hogs. It's funny, but sometimes I meet women's husbands and think, my God, how do you stand listening to that 24/7? I would rather be alone!

Do you ever get sucked into watching those Instagram Reels? I got presented with one yesterday that smacked me between the eyes. It was a woman with a caption that said "The price I paid to be the "Good Kid" that nobody needed to worry about". Then a series of traits she developed popping up one after the other:

• Perfectionism
• People Pleasing
• Anxiety
• Self-hate
• Disordered eating
• Afraid to upset anyone
• Feeling like a burden
• Feeling unworthy of love

There wasn't one thing about ALL of that that I didn't identify with 100%. She went on to say that kids who don't let out emotions and explode and act out or test boundaries because they have been made to feel it isn't safe to do so, instead go the controlling, perfectionist, low maintenance facade route are more likely to experience depression, anxiety, disordered eating, addiction, self-harm, suicide ideation, etc. They don't explode, they implode. The exploding kids are the ones coping well with life.

I'm a lifelong imploder. Now I need the follow-up reel with how to fix myself! She left me hanging! 10 years of therapy has helped a lot, but the residue is still all over me.

Food is still good, exercise good. Scale bouncing around the same number.

I hope you all have a good day. Don't be afraid to explode!

Amen CC from one imploder to another. Lets go explode! ds

Wow! That was quite the insightful video! I don't know instagram well so only look at my close friends pictures.

Nice that you continue to make friends. As to the conversation hogger, I find that some people compensate for nervousness that way so are not the same at home with their person. I have a friend exactly like that. We disliked him at first though we liked his wife. Eventually he stopped being so verbose and we started to enjoy his company while his wife was able to say a bit more as well. After typing this I did remember another guy who never stopped. We couldn't figure out why his wife was with him and eventually they did divorce. She said he was a narcissist and I do believe her because he still thinks he knows everything even when proven wrong.

Spot in 100% !! Thanks for sharing !!

Greetings

Early drive by today. I have gallery duty in awhile. Its foggy but there will likely be a few tourists. I m going to raise the price on some of my stuff so it does not sell so fast. The thing is I have to go into the square and figure out how to make the change. It will give me something to do I guess. Then our team plays tonight so I will pick up a pizza after gallery duty plus items to feed the dogs.

I reconnected with a friend from years back on our internet scrabble site. Had lost track of her. She is retiring soon and has moved south and has a horse! Very fun.

Our nephew and his wife are going through ivf treatments. Send good energy everyone that things work. She said the drugs you have to take are 9k for 10 days. They will make great parents and I am hoping it goes well.

Fire engine was at my neighbors house last night. Her teenage daughter is an epileptic so I fear there was a seizure. I was there for one some years ago. Things seem ok over there today as they are having a garage sale. This is the fence fixing neighbor who is also going to make us some planter boxes out of the old planks. She is really scrambling to make a living post covid so I hope it goes well.

WE watched the rest of Bad Sisters last night. Apple tv. I reccomend it.

Guess I'd better get dressed. Can't show up to the gallery in a nightgown. But actually, no one would notice.

Diane S

IVF is not just expensive, the drugs can make a woman feel a bit crazy too - like super-PMS. Mike's daughter and husband tried several rounds but unfortunately it didn't work. Prayers for your nephew and wife!

And also for your neighbors. They sound like kind people. I have never seen my daughter have an epileptic seizure since they didn't start until she lived away from home but her friends have and it sounds really scary. She has gone to the hospital a couple of times when they were more severe (she can't seem to orient for a long while afterwards).

Liz, I'm glad you can get together with some of your support group, you all know the real story and an instinctive understanding of where you're at now with the new seasons of your life.

Many prayers and good thoughts for your niece and nephew Diane!

Oh CC, imploding vs exploding. I think I exploded sometimes, but over things that were way off the mark from what I really needed to be protesting about. Maybe that was a form of implosion, because it sure did me no good, and left the important stuff unsaid, not dealt with. I am going through yet another life review, not sure I know what triggered it, but a lot of stuff that happened, I either didn't have the words to describe, or I didn't understand how profoundly wrong it was when I was younger. What to do with the explosive feelings all these years later? Still unpacking things, resorting, dealing. Life long process I guess, but as the years go by, I feel stronger each time I open the box and take a look.

Beautiful sunny day, fall leaves stunning here in Chicago. It's a bit crisp. The wedding was lovely, in a very old, ornate church near Lincoln Park. It was a full Catholic Mass, with some parts in Polish, as the bride was born in Poland, and immigrated with her parents when she was 5. In fact, the wedding was live streamed to family in Poland, and the priest had a few polish words of salutation for them at the end of the service.

The bride was of course lovely, and our bridesmaid daughter also looked very pretty.

We are on a break between the service and reception. There is a shuttle between the venue and the hotel so no worries about counting how many drinks before driving.

Sounds like a wonderful wedding. I hope you enjoyed it fully!

Yay sounds very fun! ds