Saturday, October 8, 2022

A bit more sleep was available last night, but I was still restless from 2 am on. Yesterday was a decent day though. I hit well at the golf course and met a lot of new people at the clubhouse Happy Hour. Sometimes we go out afterwards to eat but not last night. We came back home and went to bed early after dinner.

DD, at least you have the weekend to recover. Sounds like a nasty cold/virus. I can understand your concern about your friend staying. We don't even like it when someone stays past a week. Peps, some of the weight loss programs work for some but would be disastrous for most of us. I know a couple of people who have done well on medically supervised liquid diets. That would be a recipe for instant regain for me! I once broke my jaws in an accident and had to be on a liquid diet for several weeks while they healed. Though that was 50 years ago I can still remember the severe cravings I had!

Time to do our Justice walk. I'm not sure what else is on the agenda for today. Have a successful Saturday!

Good morning! Feeling optimistic this morning, after another day of antibiotics and another night of decent sleep I'm feeling better. I'll go to the show today, but that's not a very strenuous activity :) . Dinner afterwards, at 4pm, so home early.

Liz, a week visit from bff would be a dream. I really struggle with this. This has been going on since she left her husband 12 years ago. We do have room. But it comes around to again, I want to live my life in my home, the way I want to. She was here 7 weeks last winter, because Covid shut down all her other hosts. She was in our house all summer. We do not ask her to pay for anything. Maybe we should. Anyhow, I asked her what part of her trip she was thinking of staying with us. She said she was going to split the time between our house and DH's sisters house. (Over the years, they have become friends). Fine, but she is going to be here 10-11 weeks, so I then said, let me know what 4 weeks you will be with us. 4 weeks is as generous as I can be, I would prefer 3. If my SIL is up for hosting 6 plus, more power to her. She will of course be regarded as a hero, and DH and I the meanies who put BFF out on the streets... So be it. People always get a little bent out of shape when they encounter boundaries. Vent over.

Beautiful, sunny, crisp fall day. Have a great weekend everyone!!

Peps, your statement about how the feeling of being uncomfortable about weight gain coming and going hit home.

For me, it's like there is a heavy opaque curtain between me and the reality about my weight. I live mostly on one side, living for the moment, eating whatever I want which generally means to excess, not thinking about what's on the other side of the curtain.

Every once in a while, the curtain blows back and I am hit by a panicky "oh my god, what am I doing/what have I done?" feeling. That's the feeling that spurs me to do something. But then the curtain falls back in place and I'm back on the denial side of the curtain, with only surface feelings that sound like "I probably ought to do something about my weight" with no real conviction or urgency behind them, not thinking about the long term impacts of my immediate actions and not seeing myself as I truly am.

I suppose my brain is protecting something by ignoring the panicky feelings? I guess it keeps me feeding the soothing coping mechanism rather than taking that away from my brain. Sigh. A decade of therapy and I still can't turn that off.

I too have had thoughts about more medical type interventions. I came across an article on the new expensive shots that DD mentioned, but $1000 a month for 4 shots seems like a fortune for something that when I'm in the right frame of mind feels easy. https://www.newbeauty.com/what-to-know-about-weight-loss-inj ections/

Sigh. Anyone know of a brain curtain removal drug?

Yeah, getting into the right frame of mind is definitely the biggest challenge!

I find that so confounding, that's its so easy sometimes to eat well, until it isn't, and then it seems impossible. Why??!!!

Frame of mind... Hmmm... How cravings work, how all these complex hormones play with each other that leave some satiated easily, some always hungry, some soothed by food, some repulsed by food in times of stress... things firing in our brains and guts, and science still hasn't untangled the code. The only thing I know is that its not from lack of willpower. Look how much effort collectively we put into trying to figure this out.

So true!