Wednesday, September 14, 2022

It is 5 am and we are all ready to go (including Justice). He saw his travel bag. Believe it or not all preparations went completely smoothly yesterday so that we were able to go for an early dinner with DS and to bed early.

We will spend more time in car travel than plane travel today but should be at our final destination by 4 or so. We are leaving here 3.75 hours before our flight to drop the rental car and get bags checked (we are 1.5-2 hours from the airport depending on traffic). We fly for about 3.5 hours, get our bags, take a taxi/Uber to pick up the Florida car near where Mike's DS lived until a week ago, then drive 1.75 hours to get back to the house. Thank goodness all will be clean when we get there (housekeepers went in yesterday).

Who the heck knows what eating will be today? All I know is that the first cup of coffee is here, the second will be at the airport. Maybe we will grab something in Fort Lauderdale?

Have a winsome Wednesday!

Liz, I sure hope that returning to Florida will bring you some down time. I really would not enjoy the schedule you keep. It's too much for me. I'm not big for travel really, I guess. I like a trip now and then, but you seem to always be going or coming from somewhere! LOL!

I guess I've been a bit absent lately. Not intentional. Just busy. Had some fun in Carmel with Lucky on Saturday, then groomed, groomed, and groomed some more on Sunday. Monday work and dog breeding and grooming. Tuesday work, dog breeding, working out, "homework".... And here I am.....

I "bloated" during the heat wave and now with a return to normal weather the water is coming off - more slowly than it came on, but isn't that how it always goes?

Diamond D's post about visiting her WLS center gave me pause. I am beginning to believe that the recidivism of disordered eating is more common than I wanted to believe. It shows how terribly difficult sustained weight loss is, even with WLS. I think all of us who post here, whether regularly or less frequently, struggle with large-ish fluctuations in weight or, in my case, substantial regain. Learning to live with disordered eating is really, really hard. I'm learning that my eating disorder really does work for me on some really basic levels. What I don't like are the physical and medical health side effects that are brought on by the eating disorder. I don't think there is a surgery out there that can really work for me without getting a pretty good grip on my disordered eating. Always something to work on!

Otherwise, life is good. Pups are growing, dogs are well, and the fall weather seems to announced its impending arrival. My oaks are shedding something fierce and the last two mornings have had that nice dry chilly breeze that indicates cooler weather is on the way. I am wearing long pants today. First time this school year!

Wonderful Wednesday to all!

Liz I hope you are relaxing somewhere in Florida at this very minute. You've earned it.

Peps, taking a deep dive into what drives our obesity, a daunting task. You have done difficult, but productive work confronting your disordered eating. I think my overeating stems from a biological disorder, primarily.

While I definitely eat during times of stress, in my case, much of my over consumption seems to be driven by hormones. Surgery, after the initial healing, was such s relief. My body wasn't screeching, screaming, demanding to be fed. Post surgery, I enjoyed food more than any time in my life. I'd never felt satiety before. It was marvelous. Eating reasonably wasn't difficult. Food was no longer an obsession. But over time, the feed me voice started coming back. (Although never quite as loud as before) Then it got hard. Then I was dieting. Ugh. Add the tamoxifen, and game on. So, now when my clinic talks about new research that say the hormonal fix fades around 5 years for some people, it made sense for my body. That's when my initial gain began. Restriction stopped it from going further. I hung out at a higher than goal weight for a good couple of years, but I had to diet from time to time. The big blast of weight that pushed me back to obese came with the tamoxifen. No medical person disputes that. What really frustrates me is that the medications that increase GLP-1 are out of reach for me. I can feel it in my bones that this would help me, would replicate the feeling I had towards food the first few years after my surgery... So I'll try this other drug and see if it can quiet the feed me voice at all...

What a journey it is!

The difference between the start of school this year and last year is night and day. I'm so grateful for this period of grace.

Off to Costco for toilet paper, chicken and yogurt. The glamorous life goes on :)

I am very relaxed here! We've been walking everyday and I sleep like the dead. Tonight a friend of my dad's is staying over to help him sail the sailboat back to its winter home. My dad's wife and I will I drive up to get my dad tomorrow night. It's a long journey - 13 hours by boat and 3 by car. But knowledgeable sailboat storage is hard to come by in the sticks.

Off to go make dinner!

Sounds like your Dad is doing well too!

He is!

Greetings all

Its a foggy day and I am sipping iced tea while I cook hamburger for the dogs. I went to the big city today to take back the floor sample and also to see a show of women's art at the local museum. It was impressive. A juried show sponsored by the trust of a local artist who died some years ago. She died horribly, having gone into the woods to paint, taking a fall and shattering one leg, trying to get to her car and eventually writing her will on a road map and dying of exposure. Her trust has also provided scholarships to some of our studio students. Anyway she will be remembered.

A cruise ship came to Humboldt bay today. That hardly ever happens so its a big deal.

Chicken and salad tonight.

Yep I am convinced that there is a lot more to be discovered about obesity. No one wants to be obese, everyone hates it and shames it and its not fun. I used to wake up thinking two things: I hate being fat and what can I eat. The early years of vsg I just was not hungry and put a great deal of energy into reading labels, eschewing carbs, planning healthy meals and so forth. Somewhere along the line I ran low on energy and gave in to the carb monster. But I have no regrets and would do vsg again in a heartbeat. But we have all had regain to some degree and none of us like it. The answer may be somewhere in the gherlin production, metabolic rates plus the whole mental thing.

Peps you got to wear shorts to teach in! What a world! Makes so much sense.

My 50 college reunion is coming up. I probably will not go (Grinnell College in Iowa) but its fun to see the email remarks of classmates who were asked to say why they went there and what did they remember most about the early days. I remember being befuddled by these seemingly sophisticated people. Thats about it.

Time to feed the dogs.

Diane S

I know a few people who went to Grinnell. In my little town, we hadn't really heard much about it, I learned of its reputation later.

I agree there is the whole mental thing, one of the things I loved post surgery was only dealing with head hunger. Its like I went from fighting a war on two fronts, to only fighting on one front. There's still a fight, but it was one I could usually win... Definitely has changed in the last few years...

Yep you got it, I know from my 400 lbs Sil that she was very hungry much of the time and that was the anti this of what was proscribed for obese people. She died obese, a lifelong issue