Tuesday, August 30, 2022

Good morning from the outer Cape (meaning near the furthermost areas like Provincetown). Justice really likes it here because the area is much quieter and he gets long walks on an extendable leash. I can't use one in my part of the Cape or in Florida because everywhere we walk is either close to people or traffic.

It would have been Paul and my 41st anniversary yesterday, which apparently was also DD's and her DH's. I read this yesterday in The Book of Two Ways by Jodi Picoult: "If you end up remarrying [he'll] be there too. Because [he] is the one who taught you how to love someone. ...The good ones often [remarry] because they remember how it feels to be happy. It's not a replacement; it's more like an echo". It reminded me of something Paula said to me when I was dating Mike.

Yesterday I was suffering from some back pain caused by improperly handling heavy items I was moving from my home to here on Sunday. Today I still have some twinges but it is much improved. I will take Justice for his beach walk shortly, then possibly go to the beach. Mike is golfing this morning and won't be bac****il mid-day.

Have a timeless Tuesday!

I tried the quarter Valium again last night and woke up in a terrible panic a few hours later. Darn it! It took reading a book with the tv on for several hours to drown out my brain noise and house worries. I'm tired...

I met with the alarm guy yesterday. It just reminded me why I don't like alarms! He gave me a long list of things I could add going on about where people would get in but I'm not worried about break ins, so I went with just basic stuff. We've had such problems with the monitored smoke alarms in the MI house and it's so stress inducing! The alarm goes off (often from cooking), you punch in the code on the panel to stop the screaming, the monitoring people call, the alarm goes off again because there is still smoke in the air and cuts off the phone line, (repeat 4 times) and since they can't get ahold of you to get your "safe word" they send the fire department. I am upset just remembering the many times that's happened. I'm not sure when it will be installed.

The previous owner wife was nicer. She must be adjusting to leaving.

It's going to be 100 for the next few days. Today I think I'll stay in and clean. I might just take off for Michigan soon too.

Maybe a change of scenery to Michigan will give your mind a break?

Hello everyone! Back from another day of training, when all I really wanted was to get my room straightened out. There was construction in the ceiling, so all my desks, book shelves were just pushed to random parts of the room. Some things were too heavy to budge myself, and I didn't want to wait for the janitor to get me on the schedule, so I recruited DH. Now all the furniture is where it should be, I just have to tidy up a bit for open house.

Liz, it makes sense that people who were happily married remarry after losing a spouse. Marriage was a good experience. I would imagine that unhappily married people would feel free in a sad way, and not be as hopeful or willing to take a chance again. Of course there are exceptions. My in laws were happy, but my MIL died very suddenly at 60. My FIL couldn't recover from the shock, and died 3 years later. DH tried to convince his Dad it would be okay to date, that all the kids would be happy and understanding. He still feels his Dad would have lived longer if he had found love again. Probably.

CC I'm sad you're dealing with so much anxiety. I know that feeling when it becomes a runaway train that you can't seem to stop. Ugh. As Liz said, maybe some time in Michigan would give you a reset.

Tomorrow is a long day, we have open house in the evening. But then it's done and behind me for the year. I'm not contracted to work on Friday (although there will be loose ends I'm sure ) so there will be a long weekend to look forward to.

Food, well, there may have been some candy at a meeting. I will meal prep this weekend.

Weird, I had to re sign-in to be able to post today.

All is well in my corner of the world. I have no complaints. I am really enjoying the new job and its perks so much so that I don't mind the challenges. Far more plusses than minuses - especially the being able to leave school at school part. Sure I plan a bit on the weekends, but that's just a teacher's life. I don't have the stress factors to contend with the way I did before. Big perk for this week: NO BACK TO SCHOOL NIGHT for me! Last week I volunteered and helped at the band "petting zoo" for the 4th and 5th graders. That was my Back to School Night. Much more enjoyable than presenting to a bunch of parents.

Weight is fine. Food was a little bingey last night. Not gonna lie... I had a bunch of handfuls of Trader Joe's mini PB cookies. They are 130 cals for 6 cookies. I'm sure I had 18 cookies over the course of the night..... Still not a whole lot of damage, but I could have enjoyed a few other things more for that calorie cost!

Not much else going on.... Have a training session tonight at 5 pm. Oh, and GOAT 3.0 is ready to be taken to its "berth" at the RV lot. I'm sure I will find little things I have forgotten to do, but for now, I'm reasonably sure I have everything back in that needs to be in!

Rats Peps, now I want those cookies! Good thing we have no TJ here. ds

Greetings all

The sun stayed home today so it seems I never quite wake up. I had a boring board meeting. It astonishes me how some people cannot stay on topic and digress into trivia. Its a zoom meeting so they can't see that I am sitting playing games on my phone through most of it. No one but me reads the financials so I always have to report on them. I could make up anything I want and no one would know. Geez what a cynic I am.

So the reservations are in for DH 50 reunion. The designated hotel could not figure out how to book us for two extra nights so we said forget it. Its also a high rise with no where to park but a parking garage and thats another no go. So we are staying near the airport. I was hoping we could uber around and not rent a car but DH wants it. Now I just have to find a house/pet sitter.

I had a bone scan today. Somehow, I grew a quarter inch in 3 weeks when my height was last measured. I told the tech how amazing that was. Some doctor out of the area reads results. So thats the end of my recent medical agenda except my ankle is really bugging me which means the boot again.

CC big life changes can sure kick up the anxiety meter especially when there are things that you can't control. MI might be a good idea. And I love the alarm stories. We just put a system in the gallery because our insurance company said we have to. With 23 artists I guaranty there is going to be the drill like you describe of false alarms. At least no cooking goes on there.

Frozen burritos on the menu tonight. Works for me. Recipe is same as for pot pie: open oven, insert food, come back later.

So the fence fixer is almost done but she is off to take her daughter to Burning Man. Thats something I always wanted to go to but I feel too decrepit. She has been many times and after hearing her description of the heat and dust storms I think I am fine not ever going. Her daughter has an art piece there.

Not much else. The dogs are orbiting. Time to cook for them.

Diane S

Haha, the dogs are orbiting :) I feel a metaphor coming on about The Goddess Diana, aka Goddess of the moon (the orbit) and the hunt (her faithful dogs) From one "Diana/Artemis" to another, lets run freely in the moonlit forest with our pack of dogs, if only in our minds.

Lol I am indeed Diana, goddess of the kitchen.....

It would be a hoot to see you at Burning Man, Diane!