Sunday, May 15, 2022

Who is planning on watching the eclipse tonight? Apparently, this is a once in a century eclipse. I'm looking forward to watching. I should have a spectacular view from my backyard. So maybe a BBQ/cook out is in order for tonight. The weather is certainly perfect for it.

Had a GREAT session with my nutritional therapist. The absolutely honest logging was a great exercise. After sitting with the logs, digesting the "data" and what it represented, I feel completely accountable for my eating, my behaviors, and choices. I KNOW that I am making the choices to stay at this weight and that my eating disorder is really doing a fine job at being a maintenance disorder. It's up to me to decide what to do. Do I want to put in the effort to make changes, or am I actually happy/content being where I am right now? For now, I am making two small, but important commitments for the next two weeks. That's good enough for the end of the school year.

Luckily today is a free day for me. I'm being a slug this morning, which is just perfect. I've been up for since 8:00 and have accomplished really NOTHING and am enjoying that immensely!

Looks like it'll be at its peak here at 9:11pm. I think I can stay up that late! Ha!

I was looking forward to a day of sleeping in late, staying in jammies, and doing nothing as there are no painters here, but the board I'm on had other plans. MI guy is president and a woman on the board (who in his defense is very difficult) complained about his behavior in a township meeting. He's threatened to quit (for the thousandth time, honestly it's annoying and lost all meaning) if we don't get rid of her. None of the rest of us saw his behavior, so the secretary, vp and I are meeting to discuss today on Zoom (so I have to get cleaned up). I have never wished I hadn't joined anything more! Now I know why my knee-jerk reaction to being asked to participate in things is NO. Because nothing good comes from this stuff!

Anyway, I should go get dressed. Take care all!

The total eclipse here is 11:29. NO WAY I will see it

I am so jealous at you being a slug!!! We had a first communion this morning, then a family lunch. We are FINALLY heading for my home on Cape Cod with a short stop in the middle to pick up Justice from DD. I just want to get home and vegetate.

Not much else other than it is time to wrap my head around losing weight. Maybe I will do the pre-surgery diet I followed in the 2 weeks before VSG. We were allowed a protein drink for breakfast, one for lunch, a mid-afternoon cheese stick, and a lean cuisine or similar meal for dinner. Maybe it would de-carb me enough to manage shifting to a WW type diet like I used the last time I had this much to lose.

Have a fantastic Sunday!

Greetings all

Thanks for the reminder on the eclipse Peps. Its cloudy here today so we might be in for a big nothing. But maybe it will clear up. years ago in college I remember a major lunar eclipse where the moon was blood red. Kids carried the lounge sofas out onto the football field so we could sit in comfort and watch it. Now I am hoping that if we can see it I will be able to watch through our skylights lying down on the sofa. Slug indeed!

And Peps, glad you got some slug time. Everyone needs it. Liz yours will come.

CC don't ya hate organizations where people fight and argue! Sometimes I think conflict is a basic need for some people. They seek it out and don't care who they inflict it upon.

A dear friend stopped by this morning. She had been helping out other friends where the wife has dementia the husband was just diagnosed with untreatable cancer. Wife became combative so friend is out of there. My friend was in tears recounting the events. Just awful. DH will be helping her with her tv set up again. Why do these golden years have to be so corroded with crud??

This week is somewhat busy. Studio visit tomorrow to help our director set up a new iPad and later pick up another friend from the airport who is returning from Italy. I may have mentioned we are so close to the airport we see the planes come in and time the drive of 1 mile for pick up. Easy.

Not sure about tonights dinner. I have some frozen shrimp so maybe its stir fry. Buying a giant costco bag of frozen shrimp seemed like a good idea. Now its got to be cooked and consumed.

Intense food tracking is a good idea. Peps do you use some kind of phone ap or the old fashioned notebook method. I still have about 6 volumes from my early vsg days. It does work.

Cheers all. Diane S

Unfortunately dementia includes combative behavior more often than not. When they don't understand, are scared, or are overwhelmed they lash out. One of the hardest aspects to deal with.

Back from a weekend with my Mom. Its often so intense, my Mom re airs all her grievances, and past sorrows with me, tells me she thinks it's time to give up, laments the conditions of her house but won't let me take care of anything. I rarely respond, just listen. If a grievance is re aired more than once, I say, we are not going to change the outcome its done. But I save that for infrequent deployment, or I fear it will lose its impact. I also cope by eating, taking a long time in the bathroom, and dissapear into the guest bedroom, even if all I do is sit on the bed and look at the lake for awhile.

It is very sad to Ser her life as it is right now, but I remind myself she has always lived with a level of discontent, and she made choices every step of the way that has lead to where she is now.

I didn't get to see my Dad, because he was Up North. He is full is schemes and plans that are several standard deviations from the norm, which create a whole nother level of stress. Like the time he wanted to work on the roof, and I protested that an 83 year old man with occasional bouts of vertigo should stay off the roof, and he told me he would tie a rope around his waist and the chimney. This from a man who has an IQ over 125, but no common sense. Yikes.

DH is still in Boston and I am back home in our very quiet house. It's peaceful, but I also feel a little bittersweet, because I've always had a pet companion, and often more than one. The house just doesn't feel the same when I'm home by myself.

Plans tonight are to finish the book, The Lincoln Highway, which I am loving! And then get ready for the coming work week.

I feel so sorry for your Mom and you for having to listen but not be able to change anything. Healthier for you to keep visits short. Do you think perhaps your Dad is so full of plans partially because your Mom is depressed and has none?

He's always been this way. He never stops. I love him very much, but he is difficult in his own can do way, sometimes without thought to consequence, as my Mom is in lamenting things that can't be changed.