Tuesday, May 10, 2022

We are at n the road more or less on time (we left around 6:15). Of course the car showed a low tire so we had to stop even before we got on the highway to get air. But we are on our way with an ETA in Nashville at around 6 pm. This will be the longest driving day but we will stay put and sightsee tomorrow.

Not much else to report. I am feeling fat after all the eating out the last few months. I sent out the invitations for the wedding celebration party yesterday and we already have 31 yes replies (we expect around 50). It would be nice to lose some weight by then. And doable if we stopped partying on a regular basis.

Mike feels much better though his sinuses are still draining. And I never got whatever it was.

Have a safe and healthy Tuesday!

My dad's wife has covid. She said she's had colds that felt worse. I hope if my dad gets it, he's the same.

House is powerwashed and they start prepping today. I went to Home Depot and bought one new inexpensive outdoor light fixture and a can of black spray paint for two other light fixtures that are looking tacky. They were a faded bronze color before (originally a dark brown metal). The CA sun sure does a number on anything that sits outside! The painted fixtures look great. I'll rehang them after the painters are done.

In the category of it's always something, I needed to shut all the windows for the power washing. They were all closed, but as I was rechecking them obsessively, I noticed one closed one looked a bit whopperjawed, so I opened it hoping to straighten it out. Well, messing with it just made it worse and it's open and won't close. I've had two friends play with it including myself and we all just made it worse. So I've called a window repair place and haven't heard back. Ugh. In the meantime, I shoved a piece of foam tubing in there and duct taped it so they could power wash.

On the food front, it hasn't been good and I so need to fix that. But I am a stress eater at heart and I'm stressed. I did walk with a friend yesterday and it felt so nice. I need to be consistent about that as it really does help me.

Hope you all have a good day!

That window would stress me out (and all your other repairs/upgrades).

We may have to stay in this house until they carry us out. I don't know if I have the stamina to do all the things needed to put it on the market!

A part of me questions why I would wait to do all these things for someone else rather than doing them so I could enjoy them!

Really not much to say today. Oh, I did hate, loathe, detest and despise writing down my food intake yesterday. Not because I felt bad or guilty, but I really didn't enjoy seeing the naked truth about my "noshing" (though I think foraging for and shoveling in chocolate would be a more apt description). Was able to talk a bit about that at therapy. One more day of logging food and then I'm done for the week.

Finished the maternity trims on both girls. That is a nice feeling. It's one less thing to worry about before the puppies come.

Working out tonight...

Safe travels, Liz. Hope the painting goes smoothly, CC. DD, how's the cold progressing? Hopefully, you don't have the damn lingering cough like CC and I have. Blech! Diane S. I envy your level of daily stress - and your cavalier attitude about your stressors!

Greetings to all that follow!

I'm still coughing! I got sick Easter night. Grr.

My cold is pretty much gone, no coughing, just some leftover congestion. I did a lighter workout last night, and felt good when I left.

I am coming up on the 10 year anniversary of my surgery in June, and am spending a lot of time thinking about this whole journey. The first few years I kept around my goal weight, but each year gained a bit, until year 5. From year 5 -8 or so, I maintained the same, albeit, higher weight pretty easily. If I started going up, I could turn it around, I couldn't get lower than this set point, but it was easy to maintain, and I was satisfied with my mobility and appearance. But enter the winter of 20/21 and holy crap, cancer and Covid. Since then, I've gained as much as 23 pounds. Right now I've peeled it back a tiny bit to 19 pounds. Sometimes I feel desperate, that I'm going to keep getting fatter and fatter until I'm back where I was before: someone who might need a seatbelt extender on any given flight, someone who doesn't fit in theater seats easily, someone who never sees the view because they can't climb the tower, stairs, hill, someone who never feels pretty at the party... I'm not there yet, but ... What a mind game this is!

Working out and increasing my protein intake are my current bright spots. I'm feeling more fit and energetic than I have since the winter of 2021. It gives me hope for a good quality of life these next years. This week's focus, trying to cut back on the Diet Coke. Also, any other choices I'm making: telling myself, just do it for this week. There was a big candy bar on my desk Monday (parent gift), I broke it into pieces, and gave it to my students. There were colossal cookies in the staff room (600 calories per cookie!, I looked it up) today. I told myself I could pass on one today, because, if I really want one, I know where the bakery is and I can go buy one next week. I'm only asking myself to say no thanks this week. Like working out, I feel a little stronger each time I flex the no thanks muscle. Can I do it for one week like I'm asking myself? Stay tuned.

So there you go, almost a decade of post WLS living, and I have a lot of thoughts :)

And I still don't know if I have reached the point where I could honestly track an eating whatever kind of day as you are doing Peps. I'm great at tracking when I'm monitoring my intake, not so much when food is more random.

Um, yeah, yesterday sucked from a reality standpoint, but I did appreciate seeing it all on paper. I am beginning to understand why ostriching is such a talent among our kind! It's far easier to live in the land of personal reality than in the land of actual food reality.