Wednesday, December 8, 2021

We are leaving at 11:45 to drive the sisters to the airport. It has been a good visit and I think they really enjoyed themselves. Two days from now we will be getting ready to leave to pick up DD and her BF for the next visit. I do have to say that 3-4 day visits are a lot easier and I would prefer to spread them out further in the future.

Both of us are already worrying about the packing we have to do less then a week from now. So many details to deal with.

And like DD I need to do something about my eating...

Have a safe and healthy Wednesday!

Not gonna lie, I did have a few moments of "F.. it!" yesterday and therefore indulged in TWO desserts. I figured I could do a lot worse! I also indulged in one hell of a workout. It's not often my obliques are sore without having isolated them. It's from punches and pullovers, which indicates how much weight I am using for each exercise. Whew! Feels super ouchy sore, but oh soooo good at the same time!

The last puppy to be born - the one who is a day younger than the rest of the litter - is the first to open her eyes and see the world. Her eyes are fully open, but no one else's eyes are open yet. I find that amusing for some reason. All pups gained close to 2 oz yesterday, which makes me gleefully happy! As long as everyone is gaining, I am a happy breeder.

I wrote a list of proteins and higher protein carbs and dairy that I believe will help me when it comes to creating a personal weight loss style of eating. Now I must look at carbs - both complex and simple. Fats are fats calorically, so for those it will be a matter of looking at saturated and unsaturated fats and choosing those more healthy fats. Certainly not going to start on a weight loss endeavor during December, but I am pleased that I am at least looking at ways to manage weight loss in a way that will work best for me.

Talking with the NUT therapist last week gave me some new understanding of my eating disorder. She talked to me about how dysfunctional eating that stems from childhood emotional issues is a far more difficult "fix" than correcting the eating that caused a person to become overweight in adulthood. Two very different beasts apparently. That knowledge helps me to be kind to myself during this very lengthy process.

First PT appointment is tomorrow. I'm fearing a diagnosis of psoriatic arthritis. I have developed a rash on the back side of my knew. I am hoping it is from the brace I wear practically 24/7. I so want to have a healed knee and be able to show dogs without pain! Fingers crossed.

I suppose that is enough from me.... ramble, ramble, ramble.... Short and sweet is obviously not my forte!

I like your rambling posts! And it would make sense that longer held dysfunctional eating patterns, especially those created during our most formative years, would be the hardest to rewire.

Agreed. Your reflections give me insight.

Bizarre drunken texts and phone calls last night from MI guy. I told him my mother drank too much and his behavior reminded me of how much I hated phone calls from her when she'd had too much to drink and then never acknowledged having told me what she told me the next day. I told him I would rather talk to him when he's sober. He said he respected that, but did the opposite by keeping going with he "likes me", he misses me, it would be good if he didn't like like me, "it was a truly impossible task" (whatever that means), "I can't stop", sent several songs that shed no light on anything... Be specific in what you wish for. I wanted a man to be interested in me and this is what I got! He's apologized this morning, texted several times, twice in a way that is acting like nothing happened, and called once, but I didn't answer.

Today will be a conversation about how uncomfortable last night and the previous incidents made me, how this behavior isn't something I want in my life and how I think we work best as friends, but we can't be more. I'm not looking forward to it.

I'm trying to keep my eating measured and walked with my friend this morning who gave me a lot of good insight.

Argh!

There's not much left to say, good grief Michigan Guy!!! Dude, stop.

Oh boy - this guy is bad news.

Greetings all

Hey lets all ramble away. I sure can ramble on and on limited only by my crappy typing fingers.

Getting ready to go to the gallery for an afternoon of duty. DH will take me as he needs the car. we both love the electric car and avoid the gas car (which is 25 years old) as much as possible.

Puppy eyes Pep! So cute the little one was first. The runt of our litter was tenacious and has turned into a beautiful fun dog. I will see her in a couple of months. That little sparkle of reflection from a little dark eye opening is so precious.

Yeah Cecily your instincts about mi guy are right on. Life is too short to be annoyed.

So today I was on the phone to a banker support person on how in the hell to get logged in and get the studi ppp loan forgiven. DH decides at that exact moment to take the dog for a walk. Of course, all hell breaks loose with the other dogs barking and jumping and pounding on ex pens because they want to go. Poppy jumps out of her pen! It was a mad house and I was just trying to talk to this person whom I am sure thought I was nuts. But it looks like the loan thing is settled. up. I have a bunch of finance stuff for the galleries and studio to do at end of year and it all comes at once. But at leas that is one thing off my list.

Yeah Peps, makes sense that eating issues that developed from childhood issues are tough to treat. Because they cant be rationalized or explained away. They are just there. Good thing to understand.

Steak last night. Costco something tonight.

Cheers all.

Diane S

PS. Its time to go to youtube and listen to Aretha sing Joy to the World. ds

Reminds me of my go to: Mahalia Jackson, Go Tell it On the Mountain.