Wednesday November 24, 2021

Time to make an apple pie. The pumpkin pie and cranberry bread I made yesterday look good (hopefully they taste good too). Funny talking to the family about how they prepare the turkey, make the stuffing, and what they have for side dishes. So very different than ours were. They do the stuffing outside the turkey which in our family would have been considered blasphemy LOL.

One more person arrives today making it 10 in total. That's a lot of people in one house! Each of my children and SILs will be in a different location tomorrow. DS is at his birth mom's, younger DD is cooking with the BF, older DD is at her half brother's, and each SIL will be be with their children. At least all have plans (as they typically have had for the last 5+ years).

Better get going on my pie! Have a safe and healthy Wednesday!

Boy issues make for good scale numbers. 183.6. Apparently there is a level of stress over which I'm more nauseous than wanting to stress eat. I won't go into details, but his immaturity has sunk to new lows. Reinforcing my doneness. And not sure I can even remain the friends I thought we were. But if you believe some people are put in our path for a reason to teach us a lesson, I have learned a lot from this I hope I can apply later. To recognize emotional immaturity earlier and disengage, to not get so caught up in being liked that I don't I spend enough time asking if I like all they are, to see when I'm being manipulated and gaslit and my focus on someone's behavior deflected. And to really hone in on what I want, what I deserve, and what is "normal" behavior versus quirky versus dysfunctional and damaged.

So hopefully the rest of my trip is on an uptick. Lots of cooking tomorrow and eating back those 1.4 pounds.

I hope everyone is well and happy!

At least you will go back to California with that relationship resolved... And it is good that you had a learning experience and can put it behind you.

Told you, DICKWAD! Take great comfort in the fact that Dickwad is the culprit here. You know that old line when you're getting dumped, "No really, it's me, not you..."? In this case it's, "No really, it's you, all you... you're an immature, dysfunctional dick!"

I love you, Devon!

I'm sorry this is playing out like this. A few times I've been betrayed by people who I thought were my friends, I try not to blame myself, that it's on them, and I tried to do what friends do: give them the benefit of doubt until they show me they don't deserve it. Some might get the benefit of doubt longer than they should have, but that's more on them too. Manipulative people can be very skilled at creating false intimacy and caring. It might take longer sometimes to wake up to what is really going on, but eventually one does. Wishing you peace my friend as you untangle yourself from this.

Thank you, DD!

Liz, your thoughts about Thanksgiving remind me of the compulsory pre marriage counseling we had to do, and one of the talks was about holidays. The speaker said prepare yourself, you are about to find out your beloved has been celebrating holidays all WRONG. Made me laugh. So we learn to flex, but on one thing you are not wrong, stuffing belongs in the turkey. Stuffing in a pan is for the vegetarians.

I was going to cruise through a bunch of paperwork today, but instead got distracted by trying to tidy up the house. A never ending battle. I really need to get hooked up with a cleaning service. I hate cleaning, but I like the outcome, so here I am.

My son, his girlfriend and their dog will be arriving this evening. Tomorrow we go to my Uncle's house. My Mom said she has already packed the outlet charger for her portable oxygen, unlike the last time she was there without any way to recharge. Should be a nice day.

Puppy #1 has arrived. Boy, 11 oz. Mama is doing well. Only 6 or 7 more to go! I can't tell you how thankful I am for a day litter! I don't think I'm going to have to pull an all nighter tonight. Fingers crossed.

New life! How lovely.