Friday, November 19, 2021

Even though of course you are deserving of love. Or maybe the guy who would meet you would also be deserving of a partner who is smart, witty, kind, and has gorgeous hands :) but yes, its hard to unlearn what's absorbed when we're young.

One of my Mom's talking points was that it was a good thing abortion was illegal when she was pregnant with me, because she did not want to have a baby when I was born. She began telling me this when I was old enough to know what abortion is. She just told me this a few weekends ago! She now follows it with how happy she is that she had me. Yeah, the first message was conveyed clearly when I was young. I would be happy to have me now too if I were her.

I don't know how I moved from that (there is so much more, that's just a window into my little girl life), to finding DH at such a young age. In our life together, there have been things he gave me, I never thought I had the right to ask for. He healed a lot of hurt places. I think I did the same for him. Now I think I deserve EVERYTHING :)

I think getting WLS was one of those moments where I thought I deserved a shot at a better life, a moment of true self love.

Oh, and I used to sit meekly in the middle seat on the plane, because DH wanted the window or the aisle. Now I sit on the aisle across from him. Sometimes, you really can have it all :)

Good Morning All from the farm. DH & I drove up last night after a long week. I had a cracker of a headache - caused from new multifocal glasses- the side "zones" did not agree with me and left me feeling like I had mild vertigo again plus a huge headache. Im going back next Friday night to get them changed.

Now the rain has eased I will go and check our girls. Peps Mikaela is buried in our "dead corner" An unfortunate thing at a farm. John used our neighbours tractor to dig the hole as our 2 are not big enough to lift etc. We plan to finish strapping the driveway trees today and mow. Im hoping the rain stops long enough though you only get wet once.

For now Im enjoying a cup of tea & cuddles from our dogs listening to the rain on the shed roof

Will check in again soon. Love to you all

S

Working in the rain, ugh, but rain on a tin roof sounds so lovely and cozy. My parents had a tin roof on their covered side patio in Florida, and the rain made such a soothing sound.

Sounds idyllic! Tea, cuddles, and rain on the roof!

Liz, almost everyone I know, of every age, who met their partner in the last 12 years met them online. That's how my son met his girlfriend. My niece who is getting married in January met her guy that way too. My husband's best friend, and his best friend's brother, the list goes on...

Wow.... I guess that's the way it's being done these days. Such a different concept to me. I never really "dated" I met people, grew to know them and one thing led to another. I had a few "dates" but they were few and far between.

I think it is harder to meet people - maybe even when younger because they are on their phones txting so much to interact that they don't just sit around and talk?