Thursday, November 18, 2021

Our friends went home yesterday so we have two days to ourselves before Mike's family arrives for Thanksgiving week. We have some errands and packing to do for next week but lots of time to do it. It is nice to have a little down time before the festivities. Though Mike and I enjoy company we do find that we also really reli**** just being us (and Justice of course).

Eating is not good. Too much stuff around for company and too many thoughts about why there is no point in bothering at this time of year. I don't eat a lot at any time (thank you VSG), but I am eating stuff I shouldn't. Like half a bagel - that one was a mistake all around!

Have a safe and healthy Thursday!

Hair appt today and therapy. I think I need the latter! Lots of ugly tapes rearing their heads this week. I think my friend talking me into setting up a Match profile kicked it off. I panicked and deleted it after a day. I was feeling like now all these guys are going to think I think I deserve to find someone. Like how dare I think that? Just those old tapes of "no one is going to love you if you're fat" morphing into you are not good enough as you are. I KNOW it's untrue, but how do I BELIEVE it? Two different things.

Argh.

It's not easy!!!!!! For some people those match sites are nothing more than a set yourself up for failure type of thing. I think I would have a very hard time signing up for one, myself. You are not alone.

Liz, how nice to be with someone whose company you enjoy when its just the two of you, or in a group.

Of course online dating isn't for everyone, but I think I'd try it if I were single. Before I met DH, the old fashioned way through mutual friends, I answered a few personal ads, the 80s version of online dating. It was fun, I met up with a few people, had some fun conversations, but didn't really click for anything longterm. I was all of 21. I met DH shortly before I turned 22. The joke here was everyone who wrote a personal ad said, they loved long walks around the lakes. Minneapolis has a chain of lakes, and all of them having walking paths around them. And yes, DH and I walked around the lakes when we first started dating, cause it's what you do! Now he bikes on them, but we still occasionally pick a lake and walk around it together.

I think my food has been pretty much okay today. I'm not sure what I'm making for dinner. Tomorrow is blessedly Friday. Monday I am using a bereavement day to attend a memorial for a dear friend's father. Wednesday was supposed to be a professional development day, but our Superintendent cancelled the training, and said it was now just a workday, and we could work from home if we wanted. How wonderful!