Wednesday September 22, 2021

It is the first day of Fall! The last 2 were great beach days and today promises to be warmer and humid. Possibly a kayak day? Mid-day we are leaving for Mike's daughters home in central Massachusetts as we are puppy sitting for a few days while she and her husband go to a wedding. Tonight we are staying there, tomorrow we are staying at Mike's place on the Cape because we have an activity tomorrow night, then back to central Mass for 3 nights. Justice is coming along so he will be spending time correcting the puppy. We haven't seen her for about 3 weeks or so and it will be interesting to see how she has grown and/or matured.

So, I had to hire a lawyer yesterday to deal with the proceeds from DH's forgotten office account. The bank released a check to his estate, not in my name, and because of the amount it has to go through probate which requires filing with the court, notices to the kids, and notice in the paper. I could do it myself but I'd rather pay an attorney to do it and make sure all is done correctly. Luckily I had worked with a law firm here previously on some estate planning so they picked it right up. I go tomorrow to sign some of the necessary forms.

Not much else on the agenda. Continuing to try to eat smart. I'm not losing weight but I'm not gaining.

Have a safe and healthy Wednesday!

Last night in England. We've had such a good time! Tonight we are going to see Jennifer Saunders in Blithe Spirits. We happened upon a tv show being filmed with Gary Oldman at Greenwich today! Super fun.

Off at the crack tomorrow for the airport.

We had fish and chips at one of the top 10 "chippys" in the country for lunch. So good, but low cal it was not. We did split an order, so hopefully half the damage we could have done...

Have a great ending to your fabulous trip!

For the first day of Autumn we are getting a "break in the hot weather" according to last night's evening news. Yes, a big, whooping 7 degrees difference. So instead of yesterday's high of 96 we will have a high of 89 today. Really? Much needed break? LOL

Thank you Liz and DD for responding to my question. Helps me to understand my own situation better. I really don't feel the sleeve helps that much anymore and hasn't for a very long time. I should have been worried I suppose when my surgeon told me he wanted me to eventually eat like a normal person. Oh, well.... It is what it is. What I can't do anymore is Thanksgiving Feast type of eating. But I can eat a normal sized plate of food on the holiday and have room for pie not much later.

So, I do want to contemplate best ways to deal with losing the regain while working with (rather than against) the eating disorder. Thoughts are welcome.

Did I mention that I had to buy new dress shirts because the neck size is too small on all my shirts? I was feeling rather disgusted by this fact. I mentioned it to my trainer and she beamed with pride. I'm like, "Really?" Like Ron, she said, "It's not fat." and pointed out I haven't gained weight. Got me to thinking. She's right. I haven't gained a pound, but my neck size has increased, which can only mean it's muscle. I still find it loathsome that my neck is so damn thick, but it did make me feel a lot better to realize it wasn't from getting fatter. My mind immediately equates larger clothing to being fatter. Honestly, I'm still working through the bigger neck size thing, but at least my shirts will be comfortable and I can wear a tie without cutting off oxygen to my brain!

Only two more weeks and I will be off to PA for the nationals. So exciting to be able to take young Blitz. He's looking great and I will be so proud to be on the other end of his lead.

Hope all is well. Safe travels home, Ceci!

Diane Ocean.... would love to hear how it's going......

I didn't answer your sleeve size question! I can eat quite a bit now. The crappier the food, the more I can eat of it. But the difference with the sleeve is I can comfortably stop at less. Yesterday's half of a fish and chips order might have left me hungry and disappointed. But I was satisfied and not stuffed. It was about a 6" piece of fried cod and a bit over a cup of fries. I guess there is a mental barrier the sleeve gives me if I pay attention to it. The physical feeling of "that was too much" allows me to eat more than I had hoped for when I got the sleeve, but I suppose that's what makes it a tool and not a cure? I'm not sure in terms of ounces of meat as I don't normally eat meat alone, but I would say my sleeve makes me eat more like a "normal" person, not a bird, with normal full cues, which I was lacking before. I can no longer eat for a family of 4!

Greetings all

Zoom meetings yesterday and today. Those of you who do a lot of them - how do you stand it? So much time wasting on the technical parts. Oh well, its over for a number of weeks. Reminds me I need to get re-educated on this PPP loan stuff to figure out what to do with it.

Liz to bad on the office account. Some states have ways to deal with that stuff without a probate but that assumes bank will cooperate. Hope it gets resolved soon.

It was a heat wave here yesterday. 70 here but just slightly inland it was 96 degrees and boy were people whining.

Cecily I can almost taste those fish and chips. Enjoy the rest of your trip.

Peps when you mentioned bigger shirts I totally thought "muscles". In my case its never bigger neck but always bigger pants.

Speaking of pants and such I realize I have a lot of stuff I just don't wear due to regain. I am just going to get rid of it. No room in drawers for anything. Even if I get some weight off I want new stuff. Since I never have to dress up I go around in stretch pants and sweat shirts and wear the same few things over and over. I have only worn one pair of my three new pairs of shoes. Guess I am in a fashion rut ****anyon) but I am at the age where comfort is what matters most.

My sleeve still works and serves me well. However it does not make me eat roast chicken in lieu of crackers. Thats what I need to revisit - choices.

Yes, DianeO we would love to hear from you.

Thinking about Halloween. Specifically candy.

Cheers Diane S

Wouldn't it be nice if our sleeve made us want to eat chicken vs. crackers, LOL.

In Massachusetts we can do a Voluntary Administration if the amount of the estate is less than 25K. I had filed for that last year when the bank refused to tell me how much was in the account. So now we are going to do an "Informal Probate" which involves a magistrate vs. a judge. DH would have understood all of this (when he was practicing). Luckily I can hire someone to make sure it is taken care of properly. We had done our POAs with this law office while DH was still competent and he felt that they handled things the way he would have.

Hi all,

6 month check up with my oncologist today. I love her, she is the best! She said I qualified for a 3rd dose of Pfizer, all her cancer patients do. They aren't doing them at the clinic yet, but she said I could make an appointment anywhere they are doing shots and tell them I'm imunocompromised, and I can get a dose. She recommends I do. We talked about my fatigue, and she said confidently, that's the Tamoxifen. It's strangely comforting to have a "reason", like it gives me permission to actually acknowledge I'm tired and I can make concessions to accommodate it. I'm not being a baby, its real. She also said it could get better, so that's something to look forward to.

The moon sure was beautiful last night! Shine on harvest moon.

I'm pretty boring these days, work is adrenaline fueled sprint, so when I get home, reading the paper is about my only activity. Then it's pick out the next day's outfit, shower, watch the news, sleep, repeat.