Tuesday August 24, 2021

Did you have dinner at some point? That doesn't seem like so much food considering what you asked your body to do.

Dinner was around 8:45 or 9:00 - grass fed hamburger on the grill with a large chopped cabbage salad sprinkled with Feta cheese. Dish of ice cream at 10. Full disclosure - I am unwilling to let go of the ice cream. It is my ****tail, glass of wine, what have you.... So, while it may not be the healthiest of choices, it serves a purpose!

My trip is coming up fast! Typical pre-travel anxiety is kicking in whi*****ludes, what the heck am I going to wear worries. panic bought a bunch of stuff online and will send back what I don't like.

Today I got my Day 2 covid test ordered and sent to my friend's house (UK requirement). That'll be 3 covid tests total! One to get in, one day 2, one to get back into the US. I haven't done one yet, so I guess I'm due. Also bought travel medical insurance today after hearing about Liz's friend and thinking out of country coverage could be an issue and Covid makes that feel a bit more pressing.

My cousin was here over the weekend. Love him. We had a lot of fun. He had a lot of anxiety about getting into Canada to go to my other cousin's place and getting his test in time to cross the border. I think the anxiety must be genetic as he sounded just like me! Given he's 10 years older and a psychologist, I'm thinking we're not going to grow out of/therapy ourselves out of this.

My dad and his wife are at Mayo for his quarterly check. They detected more cancer lesions so he'll go back for surgery to remove the spots next month. I don't know if that means the Keytruda isn't working or if that needs more time? Frustrating for him and us.

While my cousin was here, we FaceTimed with my aunt. Good heavens, she has deteriorated unbelievably far. Breaks my heart. She drove me nuts, but I wouldn't wish this on anyone let alone someone close to me. The only late stage sign of dementia she is missing is not recognizing people. She knows who you are. But can't talk, walk, eat solids or reposition herself. They think her dementia might be a result of long-time, undiagnosed hydrocephalus. The pressure it puts on the brain is similar to what happens with dementia I was told. I don't know enough about it, but it's sad that this might have been avoidable if a doctor had noticed the signs early. A young, second-opinion neurologist picked it up. But he thought it could have been going on for 10 years or more.

We just had some thunderstorms come through, so I might go hunt for rainbows!

Maybe she had driven you nuts because her mind was deteriorating? BTW, each person with dementia is unique and may not show all listed "signs" or not to the same extent as the others. DH could recognize at least his closest family until the end but hadn't been able to speak, understand, or read for a long time. He could also wal****il he went into his final coma a few days before he died.