VSG Maintenance Group
06/16/2021, Wednesday
Yes, stopping the tapes before they start is most likely too lofty an immediate goal for me. Right now, I'd settle for identifying and stopping them before they overwhelm and override all rational knowledge. I find the longer I allow them to play, the louder and more frenetic they become. I have to believe that all of the work I have done to understand myself and move forward in a healthy, balanced life will ultimately kick in. I have to be aware and create the space for that to happen.
I had an initial intake with my new primary doctor yesterday, and have bloodwork done tomorrow. We'll meet at the end of the month to go over the bloodwork and do my annual wellness check. I have my first therapy session, since my life took a sharp turn, with my Dr. on Demand therapist at 1 today. I'm looking forward to her feedback.
DD, your peaceful sleep is worth a fuss. I am confident that your grace and calm request made them more than happy to accommodate.
Age: 64; 5' 5"; High weight: 345; Start weight: 271 (01/05/15); Surgery weight: 218 (05/27/15); Pre-Op (-53); M 1 (-18); M 2 (-1.5); M 3 (-13.5 ); M 4 (-13); M 5 (- 8); M 6 (-12) M 7 (-5, Xmas); M 8 (- 9) Under surgeon's goal and REACHED HEALTHY BMI 12/07/15!! (Six months and one week.) AT GOAL month 8. Maintaining at goal range (139- 144) ~ four (4) years !!
Diane, It sounds like you have made some important, positive changes in your life lately which I think will help you in moving toward that healthy, balanced life. It takes a lot of strength to make the changes needed as quickly as you did.
More of the same here in paradise. Tonight I am taking DD out to dinner alone. Mike will stay "on campus" and eat at the resort. I hope DD doesn't want to go too far afield. I hate that I already feel like we are wrapping up our two weeks. Our Covid test is scheduled for tomorrow and we have already planned our last three evenings here.
Yesterday I went to the office and changed my timeshare ownership to remove deceased DH. I also asked them to approach the owners of my room the week before or following my 2 weeks. I might consider buying an additional week if either of them are willing to sell, though surprisingly DD doesn't think it is a good idea.
Have a safe and healthy Wednesday!
Liz 5'3" HW: 219 SW: 185 GW: 125 LW: 113 Desired maintenance range: 120-125 CW: 119ish
No doubt Diane there is a lot to sort through, both physical and emotional. Keep feeding yourself nurturing foods and thoughts.
Liz, You seem to really enjoy your time in Aruba, so another week would make sense.
Today I did something I haven't done in 20years ~ I rode a bike :) the hotel has free bikes to check out, so we rode to breakfast instead of walking. It was fun, but I was a little wobbly.
Today we are of course going to the beach. And out to dinner. Tomorrow, back to Minnesota.
on 6/16/21 12:55 pm
Weight, a pound down, but still in eek territory
Nice dinner with my dad. Today I washed my car and laid in the sun reading. I think if heaven is everything we love, this will be the weather there if that's where I manage to end up! 66, sun warming me, slight breeze, blue sky. Gorgeous perfection.
Not much else to report here!
Good Morning All
Trying to do a quick post before I run out the door to work as I never seem to have time once there
DH got to the farm safely and will stay there over a week or so. Im going on the weekend. We will get our orchard trees. Yay
Had exercise class last night then home to tidy up etc. Mum went home so stripped the bed linen and did the towels. I have the house to myself tonight- Im thinking I will pick up takeaway on the way home for a treat
Weight is back within range this morning 173.8- Im happy with that
I had best run. Love to you all
S
To hell with stopping the tapes! My plan/hope is to ERASE the damn tapes! Lofty, perhaps, but when I committed to this path I decided to see it through and I think going back to rerecord those tapes is my hope. I have a lot of work to do and have decided that it will be best to set aside an hour or so each day for a few weeks to write through those issues that served to create the original tapes. I think it is more than just acknowledging the tapes on an intellectual, logical level. The tapes we all play are deeply rooted in emotional baggage - painful memories, hurt feelings, feelings of betrayal, abuse, etc.... depending, of course, on your own personal history.
I think that all of us here deserve to not have the tapes play at all.
Yesterday California "reopened", but didn't! Every place I went still required masks. (Okay, I went to an AAA branch and the UPS Store - so only two places). Not much of a reopening. Also, for the time being, all schools are still requiring students and employees to be masked while on campus. Not much is going to change for me it seems.
Workout yesterday was extraordinarily efficient (that is code for "Kicked me in the azz"!). I absolutely loved the workout. My upper body felt like a wobbly noodle when I was done. And, yes, I like that feeling now that I understand it. LOL! I know.... FREAK! My chest and triceps are perfectly sore already, which means I may feel the soreness just a little more than I want later on tonight.
Temperature is supposed to reach 108-110 here tomorrow. Rescheduled tomorrow's workout for later in the evening instead of 5 pm. Depending on the heat, I'll workout at 6:30 or 7:00.
Food was GREAT yesterday. Very well balanced - two salads and fruit, no carbs at dinner. That's all I'm asking for right now.
Liz, you LOVE Aruba! Why not buy an extra week? Time shares are not my thing because you all know my vacations are mostly dog events, but I can't say I wouldn't enjoy an annual vacation in Hawaii each year. It's been 15 years since I've been to Hawaii and I sure would LOVE, LOVE, LOVE!!!!! to go back with regularity.
Took dogs for 2nd flu shots today. Grocery shopping and cleaning and hopefully, a pedicure are part of the plans for today.
Not much else.
