Thursday, May 20, 2021

Where is everyone?

Weight: 188.6. Yes, skipping the grocery store this week to avoid having food left over was a big mistake.

This morning I got my blood drawn and walked with one of my friends. Nothing else on tap for today except getting organized, which, while I've spent countless hours agonizing about how I need to do it, I haven't actually done anything!

I hope everyone is having a good day!

Here I am!

I was doing that teaching thing all morning. Work gets in the way of leisure time all too often these days! LOL!

Ceci, you need to get on your broomstick and get your packing and closing up work done! You'll be a stress caboodle, if you don't!

Took me a few days to figure out what is going on with me on the eating front, but I think I nailed it - Right now I seem to be fearful of being hungry. Not sure what that's about, but I need to spend some time figuring it out. Today I am eating my fill using acceptable foods (eggs, POGO bars, yogurt, fruit, low sugar cereal, etc...)

Another psychological mechanism I want to explore with more depth is my ability to completely separate the reality of my size from how I feel internally about how I look. When I'm lifting super heavy weights or finish a great workout, I feel strong and fit. My mental visual of myself doesn't match what is reflected back in the mirror. I think I have habitually relied on the internal feeling as a self image rather than the real image I am. Not sure if that makes sense, but in my mind I feel I look one way, when in fact I don't look that way at all. In turn, the reality of what I really do look like can be shocking and send me down a path..... Another thing I realize, too, is that holding on to the false self perception allows me to make eating choices I might not otherwise make because there is that part of me that wants to believe I don't have an eating or weight problem. All pretty mind blowing sh*t, when you think about it!

Enough of my psycho babble for a Thursday. I hope you all have a great day.

THIS !

Greetings again

OH ate my earlier post. Dang it. Of course I had pages of brilliant remarks explaining the meaning of life. LOL

Put DH on a plane to Burbank yesterday so he can visit his sisters and their families. Brand new airline first flight out of here. Hope it keep going - good way to get to the redwoods. Avelo airlines'

Went to the natural food store and bought various deli items including salads so I can eat them while DH is gone. Actually, no reason not to feed DH this stuff. I have been in a major cooking rut but since there is a very nice health food store nearby with complete deli, no reason to cook again.

Whew puppies! I feel like the mad housewife with 5 little kids. Feed, wash up, pick up poop, rest, repeat. I have to get two of them in for health certificates because they are going on airplanes but I can't even get through on the phone.

I may have more later. Want to see if this survives.

Diane S

Hi all! Just back home after helping Mike's DD move. We were up at 5 and left at 6:15 to drive almost 2 hours to their apartment, then another 45 minutes with an SUV full of stuff along with Mike's DD. Everything went smoothly- I was able to help by putting together a patio table and being a food runner. It turns out that their new home is only 2 miles from one of my SILs, so I was able to get take-out and restaurant recommendations for them.

But we are TIRED. Hopefully it will be a quiet night. Justice looked really good this morning so I think he had a good day with DS. Have a good rest of your day!

Hello All

Popping in at lunchtime again. The days seriously fly !

Weight- a nice drop to 175.56lbs. I have now lost my COVID weight but need to drop a further 4-5 lbs to be were I want to sit. Plan is to try before my 4th anniversary at the end of June....

Last night was a cook fest! Dinner was stir fry pork n veg with ginger rice then we made Cheesy Chicken Encillatas, Chinese Beef & did Beef Brisket in the slow cooker- will pull that & make BBQ sauce to take to DSD tonight for dinner. We also did 11lbs of beetroot chutney. Was a little pooped by the time we went to bed but good to have it done.

Friyay here and we have a nice weekend planned. Staying at DSD tonight, we are digging out std roses they dont want tommorrow and taking up to the farm. Will spend Sat night- Sun lunchtime up there then home to get organised for next week. Things are always busy but Im settling into my new role & finding my feet more each day

Cec- Good luck ! I love going away but detest the packing n prep soooo much

Peps- I want a bit of your exercise dedication to cross the miles please. I need to get myself into a better routine....

Diane O- loving hearing about you settling into your new home. It looks gorgeous there

Diane S - Hope DH has a good time with his family. Enjoy those little rascals.

Liz- Hope you both have your feet up n getting a bit of a rest. Glad to hear justice is healing well

DD- the June end is in sight :) Thinking of both you & Peps

Well I had best keep working

Have a wonderful evening all x

S

Happy with myself because it is 9:30 pm and I'm ready for bed. Lights out at 10pm, and I'll have a fighting chance at 8 hours of sleep.

High temps Saturday, approaching 90s! I'm meeting a group of friends for lunch on a patio, so should be awesome!

Still trying to shift my focus to eating delicious and healthy food. Every day I choose high quality food, I feel better. Eat junk, feel junky. A lesson I keep learning. Today was quality food. Add in some good sleep, and tomorrow should be pretty decent.