Wednesday, April 28, 2021

Siesta Key beach yesterday and Fort Myers beach today. I have to admit that I am tired from all this activity (I was in bed at 9 last night)! And I can't wait to see Mike tomorrow. We will be here for a day, then we are going to Miami for a couple of days to see his son before he transfers to Europe for his job. And one week from tomorrow we leave to drive home.

Not much else to report. Have a safe and healthy Wednesday!

It is so exciting when looking forward to seeing someone warms your heart and soul ! Your joy shines through, Liz.

Weight:188.2 argh. Self-sabotage. Working on pulling my head out of the sand.

My fever went back up again last night (101.3), so I popped another Advil and went to bed at 6:30. Woke up 14 hours later and felt totally back to normal. That second shot is no joke! Sooo glad to have it behind me.

I moved my hair appointment to today so I'm all one color again.

Right now I'm sitting here fighting the food impulses that are so strong after having given into them for a week.

Hope you all are having good days.

I don't know if I am in self sabotage. I've been thinking about it, because of Peps comment that it is so common among people who struggle with obesity. I feel so tossed and blown around by all the STUFF with students, with co workers, with friends, with Minneapolis, with my parents, with Covid.. I think I am a person with a deep well I can draw from when called upon to give emotional energy to others. But I am beat. I come home and I don't have the energy to do what I need to do to care for myself with food and exercise. Monday I picked up Pizzas on the way home. Yesterday, I had leftover pizza for lunch and a cheese quesadilla for dinner. Today, more leftover pizza. DD is making some pasta dish, that looks like a lot of veggies, but would probably not be WW friendly. I KNOW I would feel better if I were eating better, by which I mean, good whole foods for fuel. I know this is a self perpetuating cycle, eat poorly, feel poorly, eat poorly because I'm too exhausted to shop, chop, cook. Maybe I need to bite the bullet and spend some $ on meal kits, or buy some high quality prepared frozen foods, and try to get back to taking some care of basics. Whew.

In other news, the sun is finally out. Warming up. I think I'll make a cup of tea and sit on the deck for a bit and seek some vitamin D therapy.

Greetings Friends

Just got home from the studio where I did not do much, and then the grocery where I did not buy one green thing. Not good. Had to get some fro yo for Tesla to eat. She eats and eats but the pups are sucking her dry. Pups weigh a total of four pounds now and she is only 14. All are doing well - Bat Girl is still the runt and weighs only about half what big fat Spot weighs. Eyes will soon open and then the legs will work. Oh boy.

My desk looks like an exploded recycle bin. Papers everywhere. Why does it take me files and files to do a one page sales tax return? (answer: because my computer skills are poor and I can't organize on the computer).

Liz I hear you when social life gets to be a full time job. Time for some down time with Mike.

DD you have stated an important truth. Some of our poor eating habits come from not having the energy to prepare proper stuff. I have thought about the boxed food but it seems silly when the store is only a mile away and is full of good stuff and not even that huge.

Studio had a board meeting today. We are ordering a new kiln though it is not clear if its intended purpose will become a reality. But I figure we can always use it for other stuff. We have about 10 already plus some junkers.

Popeye pie again tonight. a non guilty dinner. Why doesn't some company make frozen ground beef thats already cooked and crumbled for those of us who are truly lazy?

Time to weigh pups.

diane s