Tuesday, January 12, 2021

Thanks, Bonnie! He told me on the way to the airport his pre-visit urine test already came back as suspicious for cancer. So already starting out on a back foot. He said he's going to discuss immunotherapy with his oncologist. It's Keytruda and has been approved for bladder cancer.

God bless his heart. It takes courage to pursue the kind of treatment needed to treat this very rough disease.

While I have been reading daily and making comments, I really haven't "posted" since sometime last week. I guess I've had a lot on my mind and have felt like I haven't had the mental energy to participate with a full post.

I continue to work whole heartedly on my eating disorder and learning from my logging. I discovered that weighing myself was not a good idea. Weighing just the one time triggered a week long battle between me and my ED - ME: should I weigh? ED: YES!!! Why? BECAUSE!!!! Because why? BECAUSE THEN I'LL KNOW HOW MUCH I CAN AWAY WITH WHEN EATING TODAY!!!!!

Oh, the drama of it all! I ended up weighing one last time yesterday (You know, to start the week, of course!) and then taking the scale and putting it up in the guest room closet rather than in my bedroom armoire. It will take much more effort to get it in the guest room. If the guest room proves to be still convenient enough then it's out to the garage with the scale. If the lure is still too strong, I will break it and throw it away and get a new one when the time is appropriate. However, here's an interesting question: Do I even need to know how much I weigh?

Hmmm.... I know the answer for me is NO! I don't NEED to know. I like knowing. I'm programmed to know. I'm obsessed with knowing. But, I don't really NEED to know. I'm not sure I will even need to know when I begin to lose weight again. I'm not sure, but other than to sate my curiosity, or maybe to judge whether what I'm eating is working for weight loss, is there a reason to weigh during weight loss? Again, trying to take a really NEW and DIFFERENT approach to this whole thing.....

Social unrest... I am a firm believer in the human spirit and goodness is an inherent quality with which we are born. I have no question that "we" will prevail. I have been trying to listen to those who think differently and have a different perspective than mine about Trump and what is going on in our country. I have learned a great deal. I can understand from some of the things that I have read and learned why some conservatives are really angry. I also understand why liberals and moderates are alarmed by current events and what those events may foreshadow.

We are living in a history making era. I wonder to what degree COVID19 figures into the political climate in the USA. I'm sure it must affect how people are feeling and dealing with politics. COVID19 has really been a political hot topic on its own, so it must be a fairly significant factor in the civil unrest we see today.

While I know my stand in all this, I hope I live long enough to see on which side History falls.

I found this really interesting - historically, pandemics are often followed by civil unrest. Humans are consistent...

https://www.newsweek.com/history-epidemics-pandemic-civil-un rest-reasons-1530055

A soup note from the recipe I posted yesterday, don't put the 1 tsp salt in that recipe asks for until you check at the end. That plus the olives and whatever is in the stock makes it plenty salty! Very smoky flavor. Tastes good, but less salt would be better. I also only used a 1/4 cup of cream and that was enough for me.

Well, I will let you know. Already put the salt in.... I tend to love salty food, so fingers crossed! Having a late dinner tonight....

I wish I'd gotten to you sooner! After I made it, I plugged it into MFP and as written with my ingredients it's got 2100mg of salt per serving. I love salt and that's a health hazard! I've been chugging water...

Edit to add - shame on me for not checking the sodium in my chicken stock. 690mg a cup. I should have bought no salt added. Or low sodium. Hopefully yours had less.

The soup was absolutely delicious!!!!! Luckily, I used Kosher salt, which has less sodium than table salt. I used a stock base called Better than Bouillon. Checking the info on that shows that it has 680 mg per tsp, which makes a cup of stock. So, we are in the same boat. While it was a bit salty, it was so damn yummy it didn't bother me one bit.

I shredded up a rotisserie chicken breast (skin removed, of course) and added it to the soup. Highly recommend! I also used a can of fire roasted diced tomatoes, which I thought may have added to the rich smokey flavor.

Thanks again for the recipe. It's a keeper!!!!!