VSG Maintenance Group
01/08/2021, Friday
on 1/8/21 9:32 am
Weight down from yesterday. 196.4
I was reading before bed last night and really craving something salty to eat. But I pushed through, knew I was a tiny bit over my calories for the day already and just turned out the light. That always feels like a win to me, because sneaking into the kitchen at night to get something to eat when I was young was a huge problem. Granted I live alone now, but if someone had been here, it would have been a sneaky mission. The presence of another person doesn't change the behavior!
My house is clean and I walked again yesterday. The pergola guy says he needs another day on his last job (fine with me) and will start tomorrow and thinks they'll be done in a day. We'll see.
Today I just have my therapist. Then a walk too. Maybe some cleaning out of clutter.
Hope you all have good days!
I think I get what you were saying, if you got up to eat, you would be reinforcing a bad habit. A version of drive by eating. Congratulations on pushing through! If you do have a salt craving at a time when it is okay to eat, here's one thing that has helped me: I made a pot of veggie soup to keep in the fridge. When I have salt cravings, I scoop some out, heavily salt it, eat. It scratches that itch.
****ly, just a heads up...I posted a reply comment to your post about sneak eating. I sent it but it didn't show up here. I had noticed the font was a bit different but didn't think anything about it..a pop up said it was successfully sent, but I have no idea where. I wonder if maybe it went to your OH email? Hope I didn't inadvertently report your post. 
Ocean Diane, the two of you must be doing well if you can be respectful in these very turbulent times. And you're right, we can't live in echo chambers, we need varied perspectives. My parents are Evangelical Christians. Years ago, they became friends with their new neighbors, a young gay couple. Later, when Minnesota had a state constitutional referendum on the ballot legalizing same sex marriage, they voted yes. They thought it only fair that "the boys" (their neighbors) should be able to marry each other if they wanted. Likewise, my parents church is full of people much more socially conservative than me. And, they have a washing station with a washing machine, showers and toiletries that anyone can go in and use, no questions asked. And they offer free English classes to immigrants of any status, no questions asked again. I learn from them that liberals haven't cornered the market on compassion, there are people of goodwill across all spectrums of religion and political beliefs.
Kind of in the spirit of what we've been discussing
...Crash was on and just starting after I put the girls to bed last night. I saw it when it came out 15 years ago (gulp) and maybe another time. This was a tough film to watch back then and it's gut-punch-achingly-cathartic now. I found it to be so powerful. It was kind of like those The Hartford insurance commercials--where someone sees someone helping another and do the same to pay it forward--but in terrible awful reverse. It definitely captured on the themes of hurt people hurt people. And that every group is capable of racism. Somewhere we have to push reset. And while I hope our politicians will provide good leadership in this cause, the real battle is for each of us in our communities, and more importantly our homes, to take up.
I believe very strongly in doing what you can in your own sphere. There will be people who rise up to be great leaders on a large stage. But the rest of us have a role too. My husband is so kind, and sometimes I could almost weep over the things he does for people. He works in automotive services store. One day he came home and said he asked a customer how he was. The customer said, not good, I buried my son today, and I just can't go home. My husband said, tell me about your son, and the guy talked to him about half an hour. Or a new widow came in and said, my dome light is burnt out, my husband took care of these things, what do I do? My husband said you need to buy this 3 dollar fuse. She asked, where does it go? My husband walked out to her car, and popped the fuse in for her. My all time favorite quote, "Do small things with great love" ~ Mother Theresa
