Monday December 7, 2020

I agree completely with both you and Miss150. I don't think I would be anywhere close to this aware, etc... without having had the WLS. So, in that respect I am grateful that I did have the surgery. On the other hand there is the complete regain issue that is a separate issue. Even though I now have a much clearer picture on why I gained by the weight, it's still a hard pill to swallow. Let's face it, no one goes into it thinking they are going to THE ONE *****gains the weight. You all talk about the horror of mild regain and the fear and panic that sets in with the regain. I ended up being THE ONE (of many, many, I know....). There are feelings wrapped up in that. That's just fact. Now, I'm not feeling terribly down or upset or pitiful today. Realistic and blunt, yeah.... I'm just trying to acknowledge my whole truth - even the ugly feelings, that's all.

I finally left the house last evening, and went to Joann Fabrics. My kids have quilted stockings made by mother 25 years ago. I can't make an exact replica, but I'm trying to make a similar one for my son's girlfriend. Based on what she has shared, she probably never had a Christmas stocking of her own. She has no contact with her family. DH and I decided we will pour love on her.

I should do things like clean the house a bit, or exercise, but I don't wanna. I am making a healthy dinner (Brown rice and lentil casserole and fruit salad), so there's that. Not too exciting, but for some reason my family loves it.

Love love love walking the isles of a fabric store- hand extended, fingers lingering across and feeling every single bolt of fabric in the place!

My Mom and her friend, both quilters, like to say, she who dies with the most fabric wins.

I love looking at all the fabric too, the colors and textures. I come from a long line of skilled seamstresses, but alas, I struggle to load the bobbin correctly.

Yeah I don't wanna clean the house either, but once I got myself started I was okay. Because I don't really have anything else to do I have run out of reasons not to (and it does pass some time).