Monday December 7, 2020

Yes, everything we think we know keeps changing. DD was supposed to get a Covid test before a medical procedure but now they don't want to test her since she is within 90 days of having Covid (and may show positive as you described).

Sorry, but neither Mike or I ever had a fever. Just what felt like cold symptoms.

I did post this on the RNY menu thread:

In case anyone is wondering, I have been eating out a minimum of 2-3 times a week since mid-summer, essentially always outside. We have been shopping in food stores, with a mask on, distanced and I bagged my own food. We always wear masks when near strangers (except when eating though we are socially distanced). I caught Covid from my daughter whom I spent 6 days with in close quarters, a good 6-7 hours of which were in a car after she had symptoms (though we thought it was allergies). So being outside and distanced seemed to have worked (though maybe there were fewer Covid infected people for most of that time).

ALSO: the guy who picked DD up from the airport in Massachusetts didn't get it though they were in the car, without masks, both in the front seat for almost 90 minutes.

My hairdresser's son who is living with them had it, didn't quarantine in his room or wear a mask in the house and neither of his parents caught it (they were tested for Covid and later antibodies and had neither). Finicky virus!

My SIL, who had her first chemo last week, got Covid shortly before her treatment started. She hadn't gone anywhere except to many medical appointments, including an MRI, PET Scan and day surgery for port placement. So despite masks and sanitation, she picked it up somewhere along the way. Both her husband, and adult daughter who was visiting have negative tests. Go figure.

Poor thing! Breast cancer treatments plus Covid seems acutely unfair.

Weight the same. For my Monday weigh in that's a pound for the week and 21.4 overall. I had a ton of hair coming out in the shower this morning. I have the most temperamental follicles when it comes to weight loss! Fast or slow, high calories or low, good nutrition, supplements, it falls out.

This morning the landscape contractors came out to give me estimates. I got a really good vibe from them. I think they're going to be great to work with.

I dropped a bunch of books off at the post office and then got coffee at Starbucks. Maybe wasn't the wisest choice as my anxiety is high this morning. I think I need a long walk to burn some of it off. Later is the therapist.

Liz, I liked Virgin River. I read the first book years ago and Mel was pretty insufferable in it. So glad they made her better in the show. Good luck with the house cleaning!

Bonnie, so lovely to see you here this morning!

BB, your Santa pancakes were adorable!

House is 1/2 cleaned. I will finish tomorrow. Kept me busy for a few hours and gave me some exercise!

Liz, your covid experience is MADDENING! LOL! You're cleaning house, bored, etc... Yeah, I'm envious you have a "cold".

I was more like, "OMG, do I REALLY have to tend to the newborn puppies and their mama? Can I please sleep without waking up to cough? Please, God, let me feel better..." I remember the day I had to go back to school realizing that I shouldn't go, but the thought of taking the mental energy to write sub plans was more overwhelming than getting dressed and driving to school. I had no trouble quarantine during the prequarantine times. I didn't WANT to leave my bed/couch, let alone the house! LOL

I am today un-miraculously the same size and weight as I was yesterday and the day before that.

Steps in the right direction include talking to my main enabler at school today about my eating disorder. I told her there was coming a time in the very near future when I was going to ask her to help me and stop enabling my disordered eating. It's going to be baby steps there, but I'm prepping her and she understands. Her demon is that she is an enabler and she is aware of it, but it's hard for her to stop. It's her curse, but I feel well loved because she only enables those she truly likes. Other steps: eating purposefully prior to leaving for school, being aware of how tapes will try to play today.

The tapes want to play long and loud today because today is my 9 year "surgiversary". I am pretty sure I don't need to get into the story about the feelings that could rise up from the depths to make this a really super crappy day. Muddling through. Managing to stay positive, even if today is a reminder to me of how I fooled not only the doctors, but myself, into believing I was a good candidate for WLS. If only.....

While I won't lie and say it's all good, I can honestly say it will be. Maybe not today or tomorrow or next month or even next year, but eventually, it will be good.

You are so right that I have been incredibly lucky not getting more sick. I know Mike was scared the first few days when he was coughing a lot. And I am especially thankful that I can't bring it home for Christmas to my at-risk family members like SIL.

Awwww, Devon.

Your 9 year surgiversary is not the whole story- only a chapter somewhere in the book- and there are many more to come. I bet as you move on further in the story, your sleeve may indeed show up as more helpful than you may know!

I see in your last paragraph you've read the end of the book. You are right--all ends well, and it will all be good!

Cannot wait to see the movie...

I feel like your WLS is still an important part of your story. There's no way to know where you'd be today if you hadn't taken that step. Would you have found the strength and joy you get from working out? Would you have taken the brave steps to address your eating disorder? Would your weight be a lot higher? Even when things don't work out like we hope, they lead us in directions we might not have gone down otherwise and that can be a really good thing.