Saturday November 14, 2020

Weight 126.6 (down 1.6). Still needs work but not as scary as earlier this week. I stopped taking miralax on a regular basis because I felt it was too effective so now I am back to some previous backup issues.

It was a great beach day yesterday, then we had a nice dinner outside with some old friends/coworkers of Mike's. Very nice couple originally from the Bronx so they have that distinctive accent. I got on really well with the wife. Both are retired from the company they worked at with Mike but are working full time as contractors. So last night I dreamed that I was going back to work, LOL (no chance).

Today is more beach, then out again to a fancier restaurant (still outside). Last night was a brewery so I wore white jeans but tonight I have an excuse to get a bit dressed up.

Tomorrow would have been DH's 68th birthday and the kids are going to visit the grave. Sometimes when I reflect I still can't believe he was gone so young because he was always the one with healthy weight, eating, and exercise habits. Never any problems with cholesterol or high blood pressure. I always thought he would outlive me.

Stay safe and healthy!

No weight

We are negative in this house! I kinda figured since no symptoms. But I guess this is a sneaky virus.

My in-laws are still coming for Thanksgiving. Numbers are rising so I'm slightly concerned. But this is also the first holiday without DSIL. And next Thanksgiving isn't a guarantee. I wouldn't have thought in my wildest dreams she wouldn't be here this year. But I do think we'll lie low this week before they get here.

I say that, but if school is still open for the littles, they are going. It's unbelievable how hard it is to get anything done with them here and awake. I tried to hang just a handful of clothes while they were awake. The price? Constantly taking remotes and other such things and attempting to hide them until they gave up on that and started pulling their already-folded laundry out of drawers. I give up lol.

No home team football today. Good excuse to do some home improvement. Since DR's bday was in isolation I'm wondering if I should take him out to dinner. We would of course mask up until we're at our spaced out table. Maybe

I am glad you are negative! I feel like we are being careful, but we do go out to eat and one never knows these days. At least here in Florida it is easy to stay outside this time of year. I am getting worried about Christmas gathering. I am going home and plan to get tested but who knows how much gathering we will do.

Happy Negativity! LOL!

Liz, it's good to hear your weight is trending downward. I admire your discipline working your plan. And I have witnessed your story again and again, the surviving partner who always assumed they would go first. I'm afraid it may also play out that way for my parents. All the men in my dad's family, including his brother died by 53, all of them except my Dad. We all lived with the thought that Dad's genetics meant he wouldn't live to be an old man. He's in his 80s now (he had a quintuple by pass when he was 63). It isn't until the last few years he began to realize he might be on the track to his 90s now, and he could outlive my Mom.

Bonnie, glad you're all negative! You might just want to go out while you can. I'm afraid we're all in for rounds of quarantine because of direct exposures.

I went shopping for some Christmas presents this morning. It's the second time I've been in a non essential store since March. I went early, the store was pretty empty, I browsed a bit, spent a lot of money, and came home with my gift giving loot.

Food yesterday started okay, and then became not okay. Today is better. Overall, it was a decent week. Keeping the faith, that if I can make choices that are in my best interests.

You might be right. I kind of expect for the other shoe to drop especially after Thanksgiving.

My sister and I have a bit of a disagreement. Some suggest quarantining for 14 days after exposure regardless of test result. But then why test? I've searched up and down and it does seem like there can be false negatives (and a high percentage) but it seems like most of those are "oh I had lunch with a friend 2 days ago and she now has covid, I'm getting a test." Which is why my Dr. had us quarantine for 5 days, then test. But in any case I'm going to be extra cautious wherever I go. I wear a mask when out and about but I'm definitely going to stay away from eating drinking (hence maskless) around people outside my family for a few more days. But to some extent I feel like I might be more negative than an average Joe walking around who hasn't tested. Idk. I need to go grocery shopping hopefully but will try to keep spaced.

Weight up.

I broke down and turned on the heat last evening. Brr! (And stink! That burning dust smell the first time you use the heat in 8 months is so distinctive) But we're supposed to be back up in the 80s in a few days. So unpredictable this time of year here.

My new iPhone came yesterday. Always fun. It's big. Good for my 48.9167 year old eyes. I need to try out the camera today. Maybe taking pictures of some more things to sell.

It's pretty today, so I will take a walk.

Not very interesting! Hope you all have fun today!

Greetings All

Sorry to be AWOL. Not much news here. Gallery duty yesterday which was pretty dull due to rain. Today was football - our team finally won a game. Yay.

Weigh issues going sideways here. I asked DH to bring home almonds from Costco. So he did - chocolate covered ones in a huge bag. I used to get rid of that stuff by taking it to the studio but we can't leave food there now due to covid. It used to be a grazing station!!

We had our first winter rain yesterday. Its a relief. Our new neighbors are fussy about leaves in the front yards (most of which are from our tree) so DH is stepping up his leaf blowing.

So I am working on this PPP loan forgiveness for the studio. It requires scanning in and uploading all these payroll documents. Drives me nuts. Fortunately DH will help as he used to write the software. But it makes us both cranky. I must say that loan plus another local grant really saved our business. Not sure we could have made it unless our landlord forgave rent. But this way we don't have to ask. I plan to write congress people and tell them.

My brother, the one who has the bad disease, is getting a rescue pomeranian. I am so glad. As he says, the dog is rescuing him. So far so good except the dog fell in the pool.

What was Peps writing about being unfat or something like that? Gotta read. I think of myself as "untall" and "unstupid". Also "unyoung". Lately I find myself thinking about a lot of old stuff - mostly good - which is a sign of being an old person I guess.

We are going to friends for Turkey day. 6 or 8 people and they are our "pod" so hopefully safe. Our county is still in the lower risk level and most new cases are travel related.

Take care all. Diane S

I'm in an interesting mental space. These are the things rumbling around in my mind:

1. Taking an unpaid leave of absence for the remainder of the school year. I realize I'm not really comfortable going back to a classroom of children and opening my bubble to such a degree. I am feeling some anger towards the district and the parent community. As BB so aptly pointed out in her post it's a lot easier to get things done around the house without the kids under foot. Covid has pointed out how many parents/community members look at school as a type of daycare. (It's different with toddlers, IMO, as parents have to PAY for the convenience and privilege of child care at that age. So please, BB, know that my comment is not aimed at you!)
2. Understanding a significant component of my eating disorder, dealing with the emotional aspects of that reality.
3. Because of the new information regarding my eating disorder I am feeling discombobulated - like a soldier out of step.
4. Navigating feelings of floundering and not really knowing what to do.

So there you have it.

T'was a busy day in the best of ways - I was in charge of my business and it was filled following my passion with my OWN dogs. Lucky looks utterly breathtaking and he can tell his daddy thinks he is one special dog. Doesn't get much better than that.

Can't believe that after more than an entire year of not showing my own dogs I will be back in the ring with them next week. Whoohoo!

I have a friend who is the school nurse at one of our high schools. She said the parents who screamed the loudest for their kids to go back to school full time were the ones with special needs kids. She said some of these kids have profound disabilities and likely wouldn't survive Covid, but the parents can't handle being the full time caretakers anymore. Made me really sad for the kids, but having never walked a mile in those parent's shoes, who knows what I would do? Bad outcome either way, I suspect.