Saturday Halloween 2020

Weight 126.8, the same weight I was the day before we left on our trip 20 days ago. Now the remaining 3.8 to get in my comfort range will definitely be a challenge.

I am a Great Aunt to a beautiful 9.5 pound healthy dark haired little boy! I felt very emotional about it yesterday and really sad to miss the celebration of SIL with my DS, DSD, and other SIL at my home last night. But how wonderful that he is here and all is well. Mom was in labor for just over 24 hours. She must have been exhausted.

Today Mike and I are driving to my place to stay for a week. We may be meeting a friend for lunch on the way.

Have a safe and healthy Halloween! Trick or Treat!

Congratulations, Liz!

I was awake way too early this morning. I think I can safely say napping is in the cards today. The scale was down, but still 0.2 over last Sunday's official weight. This could be a nothin' loss week. Disappointing when I haven't been over at all on my calories.

PT was fine yesterday. It was uncomfortable to have someone (young enough to be my son!) seeing my ugly back/waist scars. I feel like there is a hierarchy for scars - some are a sign of strength like from accidents or necessary surgeries to save your life. My scars feel like a failed attempt to disguise my weaknesses. Not something to be proud of at all, but an embarrassment. extra embarrassing because I couldn't even heal right. Not to mention having him prod and massage my Covid back fat. Not fun, but made it feel a bit better. Sigh.

Anyway, not much going on here today. No candy for me and that's okay! I have eaten several lifetimes worth of Halloween candy and am not missing out.

A chilly 54 here this morning, but it'll be in the mid-80s later. The air still reeks of burnt hillside. I think it may be that way for a while...

Congratulations Auntie Liz. What happiness for your family. My DH has 4 siblings, and I've always felt that one of the beautiful things about marrying him is I got to be an Aunt. I referred to them as my practice kids. Now they're having babies, and it delights me so much.

Cecily, I understand the conflicted feelings about your scars. It's either scars, or loose skin. Under my clothes(and sometimes fully clothed), my body tells the story of decades of obesity. And those physical therapists are usually young, fit, and relentlessly cheerful. It can be daunting. It's why people sometimes avoid getting the care they need. I used to be one of those people.

So where does that leave us, the scarred from surgery, from stretch marks, from paper thin saggy skin that was asked to do the impossible? We have to find a way to believe that obesity is not a moral failing. It's not. It's not. It's a disease, with multifaceted origins. If it wasn't, WLS would not work for anyone, because it doesn't improve our moral character. It changes us physically, and hormonally. I am no better person today, my willpower is no stronger than 9 years ago. If I've kept any weight off its because WLS, a medical intervention, is a treatment for obesity, a disease. I am old enough now, to look at the world and feel no need to offer apologies for my flawed physical self. I don't owe the world a beautiful body. I owe the world a soul that tries to be better each year.

Perfectly said!

"I don't owe the world a beautiful body. I owe the world a soul that tries to be better each year."

Trick or Treat!

Checking in while I sit for a minute after preparations for Halloween party tonight. Not much of a party but I still find entertaining exhausting. Soup is underway and veggies are chopped.

The soup I am making is from a low cal heart healthy list. Cook a bunch of summer squash and onions. Add several cans of chicken broth. Puree in the food processor. Season with salt, pepper, basil and a blob of greek yogurt (or sour cream as I am using tonight). Works with most any kind of squash.

Congrats Auntie Liz. Wow, a 9 pounder after 24 hours! Give that woman a treat!

DG is out in the front yard with the leaf blower. Not sure what he is up to

One of our friends coming tonight has been diagnosed with Alzheimers. She is 82 I think. Her husband is bringing a woman who I think is being arranged to be her care giver. I have not seen Jean for months and am curious but fearful her decline will be major.

I am still shoveling and cleaning. How can two people be such slobs!!??

As to weight, I am in ostrich mode and probably will be for awhile. Just don't want to think about it. Kudos to you who are facing the music.

Cheers. Diane S

Good Morning All, Popping in with my cup of tea. DH is still sleeping. Its my quiet time before the work starts ...

Very productive day yesterday, lawns mowed, steps built n veggie boxes filled. Came in at 7pm exhausted after planting some herbs, more tomatos & planting our rosemary. Its looking amazing. We will finish off the final one this morning. Its going to be sweet corn & cauliflower. Then the plan is to pressure wash the deck and roof in preparation give it annual coating. Also want to paint our bedroom window frame- we have 3 more days off work so should be able to get it done. Lastly we will seed the patches that DH has filled in on the other side of the yard. As he and the dogs leave Friday & it will make it easier for me to get it to grow without the paw traffic.

Congratulations Aunty Liz- welcome precious angel ??

Cec- glad they could help your back a little

Diane S- hope the party went well

I best go ring my mum n get the washing on

Have a wonderful evening

S