October 5, 2020

The world is Crazy and who knows what news is real or exaggerated? It is hard to trust much other than those in our immediate circles.

Anyway, back to reality such as it is today. Yesterday Mike and I couldn't climb Mount Monadnock as NH State Parks now require a reservation in advance to hike. So we hiked a much smaller mountain, Mount Wachusett, and it was beautiful. It was considered a moderate level hike and was about 5 miles round trip so it was sufficient for us. I felt good when I realized that while we felt some effort on the steeper areas it wasn't that hard for us but a lot of younger people were really struggling on the climb. And there were a LOT of people! I guess everyone wants to be out on a nice fall day. Everyone in masks and 6 feet between groups. After the hike we went to an apple orchard and got some apples for baking, then went out to dinner at an outside spot on the harbor and watched the sun go down while we ate. Last time this season.

One wee****il we leave for Florida so I have to get serious about organizing for packing. Other than that I have to drive an hour to get my darn flu shot. None of the pharmacies here have had enough of the high-dose version and the flu clinics at my doctors network aren't in my area until after I leave so I have to go to one on the south shore of Boston. What a pain!

Not much else cooking... Have a safe, healthy and social day!

Only .2 down this week. Boo. 12.2 overall.

My shoulder pain merged with a sleeping wrong neck pain yesterday to create one cranky hurting gal. I haven't wanted to do much as a result.

But I did get my one full trash can out! Obvious things to pitch are now gone. So it may be harder next week...

.2 is still in the right direction. Probably stall time. I have to weigh tomorrow after my eat everything "diet" last week. I am dreading it.

Not walking I don't think helped! Between being 100 degrees, losing my walking partner, and my neck/shoulder pain, I just didn't feel like it. But it may make the difference between me being able to eat 1700 or needing to eat a little less.

I hope yours isn't as bad as you think!

Did you say you were considering a chiropractor? Or your doctor? You shouldn't suffer, whether you were the day before, or the hour before, your pain is legit and you deserve to have it treated.

Good Morning All

Second day of the working week. No rain today - its supposed to be back tommorrow. Just a bit of housecleaning after work. I might make a couple of bacon n egg pies so I can take some over to my mum. See how I feel. We are having a week of meals from the freezer as we have run out of room again.

Have Hand therapy at 10am via telehealth - should be interesting.... Have to contact my orth surgeon - my knee started grinding when I rise from sitting and I thought it would settle but it doesnt appear to be - so best I go see him and get it checked out. Its certainly feeling a lot stiffer of late.

Thats about all the news.

Liz - Good luck with your flu shot & packing - exciting to know Florida is just around the corner

Cec - You poor thing. That shoulder is certainly giving you jip!

Hello to all that follow, I had best go and get some work done. Yesterday was crazy

S

Feeling the Monday blues! Though, Mondays are easier in one way right now with distance learning. At the same time, they are harder because my days are spent in quiet solitude. No kid energy off of which to feed,

Well, apparently last week was a breakthrough week, according to my nutritionist. I didn't feel like it was an exceptional week, but along with my food journal I sent her a copy of some of my written musings about my eating disorder. I guess she didn't fully understand to what depth I think about his stuff.... LOL! She'll learn...

My homework is to take stock and closely examine my "drive by" eating. I don't know if "drive by" eating is a problem for most people, but it is one of my biggest issues. It is the eating of a bite here and a bite there when there is no hunger present. It's simply putting food in my mouth to put food in my mouth. Possibly for the momentary pleasure I derive from it.... I really don't know. So that's my job this week - trying to notice the feeling and the actual true (but hidden) thought and drivers behind the non hunger eating.

I always get a kick out of Shirl being a day ahead of us. I know it's not really a full day, but shoot, she's 19 hours ahead of me in CA and that sure feels like a full day! Okay, I digress, but what cracks me up about that is that I can get all weird about thinking how Shirl is actually living in the manmade future that exists, but coexisting with me in the same moment in real time. I know I'm weird, but, I think strange things like, "So, what IF I went to Australia? Would I be a day older of would I lose a day altogether and be a day younger than I really am? I know it doesn't matter, but I like to ponder such strange things. Like, have you ever really contemplated the size of the the universe or even our galaxy? It's really hard to wrap the brain around such non tangible concepts.

My dad had chest pains last night and was taken by ambulance to the ER. Luckily, nothing wrong with heart, lungs, or blood. The culprit is gallstones. So, gallbladder removal is in his immediate future. What is AWFUL is I cannot be with him. My brother can't be with him, but wouldn't go right now because he's a high risk Covid person. But I am horrified that my 91 year old dad has to go through this by himself. It's simply not right. When he hurt his arm I was allowed in the clinic and in the exam room with the attending physician, but they won't let me come be with him for an emergency surgery. UGH!!!!!! I have had my gallbladder removed, so I know what to expect, but he's 91, a bit forgetful, and does need emotional support like a kid would need. It's breaking my heart not to be with him today. At least, I don't have to have a substitute! LOL!

Shrink later today. I think I'm going to start going monthly now. Makes more sense to me to do that at this stage, what with the weekly NUT appointments.

Liz, you are right.... it's BAT **** CRAZY! It's not even close to a normal crazy. It's just frigging insane in this country right now. I am left speechless most of the time because I simply don't want to believe some of what seems to be actually happening.

I'm so sorry you can't be with your Dad. I am 100% being covid safe and precautions etc, but I also think there has to be some compassionate leeway in these situations. Are parents allowed to go with their children? I think elderly people deserve their advocate too. I was fortune my husband got to come in and wait with me before my surgery. Once they took me to the OR he had to leave. But I could have done it alone. Big difference between how you process events at 59 vs 91.

Oh, and I bet the kid energy is sorely missed. It's the only thing that I look forward to right now at work. Today we discussed a short story and they had such interesting thoughts. It was fun. Some of the adults on the other hand, have the kind of energy best avoided. Stress reveals a lot about people...

It doesn't make sense to me that someone your Dad's age with some memory issues can't have an advocate present? What if he had true dementia or was a child with severe autism???