Friday, October 2, 2020

Weight 125.6. Yikes! Yes, I have been eating my feelings this week while I think about my daughter Elise.

I am leaving in a few hours for a couple of days away with Mike. Today he has a cortisone shot and we are going to dinner with his two sisters. Tomorrow we are going to do a little tour of where I grew up, tour where I lived for 35 years, visit Elise's grave, and see my youngest DD. We may be getting together with my former neighbors as well. Sunday we are planning to hike Mount Monadnock in southern N.H. Hopefully their will be some good fall colors there.

I just saw that Trump and Melania have tested positive for Covid. I wonder how that will affect the next few weeks?

Have a safe, healthy, and social day!

Holding steady on the scale.

I have done something to my shoulder. Good Lord it hurts. I can reach forward, up and to the side just fine and can sleep on it with no pain, but reach back or if my elbow goes back at all beyond my body it's yelping time. This includes so many activities! Pulling up pants, reaching all the toilet paper dispensers in my house, putting on a seat belt, reaching into the back seat, adjusting blankets over me at night... It's been like this for days and keeps getting worse. I've even resorted to Advil which I'm supposed to avoid for both anti-coagulants and the sleeve.

Google tells me it's bursitis and not rotator cuff. But ow. I almost want someone to tie it to my side so I don't accidentally move it where it doesn't want to go. That person would ideally be blind and also responsible for pulling up my pants. Apply within. I may have to call the doctor, but I just did for my PE that wasn't and hate bothering him.

My house cleaners come today! My best friend's comment? "Praise all that is holy and God help him". The house hasn't looked this tidy in ages. I also threw out a ton of stuff as I came across it in the shovel-out. I have a bad habit of taking clean clothes out of the dryer and piling them unfolded on top where they become archeological layers as new loads get added. All of that got folded and put away. There were pants at the bottom that have been there since March - the last time they would have fit me. I told a friend I am like a zoo animal in need of a keeper. She laughed and said if I'm an animal, I'm her spirit animal. Made me not feel like such a loser!

Anyway, must dash to zoom therapy... have a good day everybody!

****ly- sorry to hear about your shoulder. Is it just the one? Google "Frozen Shoulder" and check the symptoms against yours. Sounds very much like what I had a number of years ago. Just developed out the seemingly blue- affected my range of motion beginning with back reaching, then affected up motion. It was progressive in its scope and severity finally sending me to dr - diagnosis- and physical therapy. Cannot say the PT did much good. The prognosis is that eventually it goes away on its own time (mine did after about 5-6 months.). Sometimes surgery is necessary, but you don't want to go there. What I remember most about it was I had to buy front closing bras and no side zippers. The side zippers were no problem because all my pants were elastic at the time!

Yes, just the right one. I looked up frozen shoulder. Not sure that's it as most movement of my shoulder doesn't hurt and none of it is stiffness? Just moving my arm/elbow backwards causes sharp pain.

Sorry I've been seriously MIA for these last days (semi-serious local cluster f in progress). What ever happened to that space known as "don't sweat the small stuff, and by the way, it's all small stuff" ? I used to dwell there in perfect contentment and peace.

No weight. Like Peps, I am resolved to give the scales a break. Have been letting them judge me - reward and punish- am I- have I-will I be naughty or nice.....Anyway, I'm going to try.try.try to take a 6 weeks break away in order to get my thoughts-feelings-words and deeds in right relationship with each other.

Have fun with your hike! Kansas seems to be a bit behind itself with the color change. sometimes it happens- other times not-

Regarding the presidential quarantines- I suspect there will be a greater increase of Tweets-a-chirping-out the White House windows for a while.

Working this week was gratifying and rewarding. I loved former students stopping in to check in with me. But I am wiped. Out. Perhaps more to say later. Exhausted but feeling positive.

Way to go! Appreciation and Concern from others is good medicine, as is a feeling of accomplishment. I remember how sweet my students were after my long absence- they really do care! Stay strong and use your weekend wisely recuperating, resting and recharging!

Greetings Friends

Its so weird around here that I can leave Arcata with the sun shining and drive 7 miles into thick fog. Just how it is.

Not much to report. Studio time where I played with clay and made trinkets. I recently had sort of a revelation that I am now an old person and its ok to be unproductive. So there.

Cecily sorry your shoulder hurts. Have you considered a chiropractor? I hurt my shoulder dumping a trash can and after putting up with it for 6 months, I went to the chiropractor and a couple of sessions fixed it. I have never been a big fan of the practice but do believe they can help with some things. Fixed my back years ago too. So long as they don't tell you to eat cat food or something.

Liz, thinking of you. Sad week. And a tough week for the whole nation. Geez, can it get any more weird???I feel like I need to get a transistor put directly into my brain so CNN can be directly absorbed.

We are watching the series Fargo. Very engaging. DH also watches The Third Day which I find creepy and icky.

Time for a nap and dose of the CNN **** show. Cheers. Diane S

I haven't yet but I'm not opposed to chiropractors working on musculoskeletal pain. It's when they start dabbling in curing colds I start to look them sideways.

Good Morning All - Saturday here and a beautiful warm morning. Im just going to potter today - plant out some seeds and be in the sunshine. Wont over work my hand but I need to be outside. DH is making the second layer of our veggies garden. We had a virtual home grown meal last night for dinner. Scotch Fillet Steak and Salad - picked fresh from the veggie patch. It was delicious

Yesterday was not an easy day. I text the autistic guy and said I was going to come over to talk to him about what had happened - well that proved not to be a good idea at all. I got a very abusive long text back - basically telling me not to dare come to his house or he will call the police, that he is blocking my number and everyone elses and a whole lot more nastiness. Apparently hes not perfect like me - ugggg. I discussed it with my best friend (the other carer) and neither of us are going to contact him - we will respect his wishes. We spoke at length of what risk factor we felt he was and what avenues are available and there is basically nothing else we can do - short of calling it in to the CAT Crisis team and he wouldnt go with them let alone even allow them inside. He spoke of unblocking us in 2-3 weeks when this lockdown ends. I highly doubt I will hear from him for many months. He will contact her before me. And to be completely honest I welcome the reprieve..... I have been the one mainly dealing with him for the past 18 mths and its incrediably exhausting. With that over I took myself for a long walk in the sunshine and it felt good to be kind to myself. To put my needs first for a change. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted and am pushing any guilty as far down as I can. I have spent my life to date caring for others and its time I started looking at my own needs a little more closely.

Liz - I hear you re comfort eating - I need to make myself stop as the scales are rising and I hate it but know exactly why. Only I can fix it. Hope you enjoy your few days away with Mike - Big hugs as you sit with your beautiful memories of Elise

Cec - Im so sorry to hear about your shoulder. Ouch ! If it doesnt start easing you go get someone to look at it. Yay to a clean house. I miss our cleaner so much. Need to clean the house this weekend but that will be later - need to be outside in the sunshine first :)

Miss150 - Good to see you back. Love reading your wise posts

DD- Well done on surviving your first week back. I bet you are beyond exhausted. Be kind to yourself and rest whenever you can

Peps - How are you doing? Has Rons eye healed well? What else is news?

BB - Happy 90th birthday to your grandmommy - she is looking over you xx

Ann - You will be getting ready for your trip away too - drive safe and look forward to hearing all about it. I love hearing about everyones adventures - only being able to travel 5 km radius and only to supermarket gets old fast....

Diane S - Hope you had a good day and the dogs are well

Diane O - Are you still away? Your RV spot looks just divine - miss your voice

Leap - You are missed too

Hoping I havent forgotten anyone - Im off to have some breakfast and then get outside in the healing sunshine

Take care all

S