Thursday October 1, 2020

Weight 124.2.

October is here already. Today should be a nice weather day so I will probably take Justice for a walk on the beach. It has been a long time since he has been able to run on the beach and he so enjoys it.

I need to do things like redo my pedicure, have my car washed, and cut down some plants. No Mike today as he also has things to do including taking his daughter and son-in-law out to dinner before they return to their apartment tomorrow. I spend so much time with him lately that it seems like something is awry when I don't see him. Strange but good I guess.

Have a safe, healthy and social day!

Tiny move down on the scale.

One of my closest friends is from the UK and has a house there still. She just came back after being away there all summer. We had a masked, socially distanced ice tea and split an avocado/tomato bagel sandwich. Deli****hank goodness we were able to sit in the shade. It's 100 again today.

One nice thing was I had told her I'd gained a lot of weight, but have lost a bit now. She said she was expecting me to look heavy given my admission, but I didn't. She's one who is freer with her weight comments, so I felt relieved to have returned to a more normal state from my highest weight.

She's also my friend who hikes 15+ miles up to mountain peaks, but has lost a lot of her fitness with Covid lockdowns and being in flatter England. So we signed up for a hike here in a week that has some good elevation gain, but is only 3 or so miles. I feel like it's a chance to work back up to hiking without feeling like she's left me in her dust. Like we're starting on even footing. She'd so outgrown my hiking abilities, that I've missed hiking with her.

And before that, I had coffee with my walking friend who can't walk after twisting her knee walking with me. So 4 hours straight if talking has left me with a sore throat! Cone of silence the rest of today.

I have nearly run out of time to put my house to rights after 7 months of no house cleaner. They come tomorrow, so I have to be done before bed tonight. It's shaping up.

I think that's it! Off to not talk and keep picking up my house.

That's great that you are going hiking! I am hoping to do that on Sunday on Mount Monadnock in NH.

Good Morning

TGIF here - not a great nights sleep - the autistic guy I help care for told my best friend (his other carer) to F off yesterday when she text him to see how he was. Totally uncalled for - I felt it had to be addressed so I text him late yesterday afternoon telling him I expected he apologises to her. He is in a very bad place mentally with COVID but that doesnt give him a reason to be abusive to her. I couldnt allow it to happen without doing something. It leaves you worrying as to how he will process my disappointment etc when hes sitting the edge already but with no-one else to guide him, I just couldnt allow him to think what he did was in any way ok. Its simply not...... I grow wearier by the day. Tired really tired. And he refuses point blank to do anything we offer in the form of help. Wont even go out for a walk as he cant breathe in the mask - let alone professional help. That suggestion is met with a very aggressive response.

Weight 180.84 - I comfort ate last night big time. Enough said

Today is work then Im not sure. I may have to go over to his place and try and check on him if he hasnt text her an apology. If I do - no doubt I will be up for a serve of abuse too. Failing that I dont feel I have the energy for much else. The weather is supposed to be lovely but Im unable to garden while still healing and bandaged. Curling back up in bed and pulling the covers over my head seems like bliss atm....

Sorry not a very positive person today but love to you all as always

S

I'm so sorry, Shirley! That sounds like such an added stress.

Maybe you can carve a few minutes out to sit outside in the sunshine with some tea and soak in some of the beauty of a nice day. That always improves my day a little!

I like Cecily's idea, but would probably be very novel for you to just SIT and enjoy the nice weather. As for the autistic person you help support, if you wait a day or two more to make your visit would it hurt? You sound like your tank is pretty empty (and there is no shame in that, we all get there), and you need some time to refill. Sit in the sun with your cuppa, go back to bed if you really want to. And hugs for the tough day.

I am so sorry you are feeling this way Shirl. I joined you in comfort eating tonight.

Liz I loved watching the video of Justice on Facebook. And oh to be at the beach! Cecily love the idea of hiking. I always think, this is the summer I am going to get strong and hike some of the trails along Lake Superior and then I break my hand or get cancer or something. But there's always next summer...

I am happy back at work. We left so abruptly last spring for distance learning, it's been so nice to reconnect with the students. One girl told me, I just want to hug you so much, so we did air hugs, another boy stopped by my room while I was meeting with another teacher, and said, wow, my two favorite teachers! And I'm enjoying getting connected with my new students this year. We may have to wear masks, and follow arrows on the floor, and wipe things down constantly, and have lunch in small groups, and keep our distance, but I am so happy to be teaching them in person.

That is really wonderful how important you are to you students and vice versa!

Greetings Friends

Today's mission is to get the dogs to eat their monthly heart worm/flea pills. They are in chewable form but I almost wish they were not so I could hide them in cheese - the nuclear option. I have DH strict instructions not to feed them one single treat today so they would be willing to eat but there are no telling how many dog biscuits strewn about the floor.

I stopped at CVS for a few things and discovered they have the old people dose flu shot so I quick got one. They had been out of them for quite awhile and expect to run out soon. So I have to nag DH to go get one before they run out again. It was an ouchy one - I guess because its big.

Shirly sorry the autistic friend is being a pill. Try not to stress; not much you can do. I agree with Cecily - rest up. And baby that hand.

Liz I saw the Justice film on FB. So cute. I wish I could let my dogs run at the beach but I don't dare. Chip is deaf and senile and Tesla is wild wild wild.

A few sweet peas are blooming through the mass of dead brown stuff. Leaves are starting to turn and the sky is grey from smoke fog whatever.

Still unknown what will occur on Halloween - the huge holiday on our street. People are decorating though the talking witches are not up yet. I don't doubt that some kids will be out but I am not putting candy into their covid fingers. Perhaps I could sling shot candy to kids. More likely just a big bowl at the end of driveway. What are the rest of you doing?

Cecily glad you have a hiking buddy again. Easy does it. We have still had our house cleaner come all this time as she wears a mask and is just one person. Plus she needs the $$

Gallery checks to cut today for 25 starving artists. Thank god for on line bill pay. I used to print all those checks up and it took a long time.

Cheers. Diane S