Tuesday, 9/22/2020

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Surprise!!!!

Up early this morning for final visit to the dentist. This latest dental work has been a major drain on my discretionary money piggy bank. It irritates me when I have to spend money on boring maintenance work- **** I could have invested the same and Gotten Invisalign (my once wonderfully straight teeth have shifted over the years and snag a bit). It's like putting a new roof on the house when I could use the money to landscape or something pretty.

I'm so glad I checked yesterdays late posts...thoughtful stuff re hunger-scales-etc....will figure what and how that relates and hopefully get back. But for now off to the dentist.....

Have the day happen today you wish could happen. Make it happen in thought and deed!

Weight 123. At the absolute top of my range. I knew it was creeping there. How to get back into a good routine???

I agree on the dental work. Necessary but it hurts the pocketbook! I am having a crown installed on Friday.

I just went through some stuff and put several boxes of miscellaneous "junk" out with the tra****hought I would follow Cecily's lead. What I didn't expect was DS having a fit over me putting some of his Dad's camping stuff out. DS HATED camping, but I guess he associates it with DH. Right now I can't do much right around him - like walking on eggshells. I think it is partially because he is not thrilled with his life and partially because I am seeing Mike. Sigh.

Speaking of which, Mike is coming mid-day for lunch and a walk. Tomorrow we are meeting some close friends of his for dinner who I haven't met yet. Mike's other friend who I met twice says it is the "sniff" test (said when we were walking our dogs together). LOL!

Stay safe, healthy and social!

Bonnie, I feel your pain so much. I have very weak teeth. I currently have 10 crowns. I would have more, but I've also had previously crowned root canals fail, and have to be pulled. There's the money, and then there's the physical discomfort. My dentist is awesome, but there is usually some kind of misery quotient to complicated dental work. I'm sorry you've been enduring this.

I need 2 dental implants, finally got one done, sadly, my insurance does not cover implants. They would give me a partial denture to treat the tooth loss. In a previous era, I would probably have dentures by now, so I guess I should be grateful for modern dentistry, and for the portion of the costs my expensive dental insurance does cover.

There is nothing less fun to spend money on than maintenance work. No one wants a new roof for their birthday... Good luck with the dentist today, Bonnie!

Liz, the last time I lost the weight on my own pre-sleeve I started dating a guy who fancied himself a foodie. I went from controlled meals by myself to dining "experiences" and quickly started to put on pounds. It's so hard to integrate frequent social eating with weight maintenance! It's always felt like a downer when you're out at a wonderful restaurant p and the person you're with orders grilled chicken and vegetables or a small salad.

I was up late reading last night and so I'm dragging a bit getting ready to walk with my friend. Thankfully we'e walking on the trail next to my house so I get an extra 15 minutes. Every minuted matters when you're not a morning person.

The scale had a one pound woosh this morning. Some might be dehydration as I didn't drink a lot yesterday. So I'm preparing for it to go up tomorrow.

I chatted with Shirley last night. She had local surgery on her finger and is resting up. Has some pain, poor thing. I'll let her give the details!

I am resting in our hammock, looking up into a canopy of green leaves, with some tinges of yellow. It's in the mid 70s. I wish I could do smell a rama, the leaves that have fallen are getting toasted in the sun, and give off the most incredible aroma.

One last radiation treatment tomorrow. My family wants to celebrate, but I am just so weary of it all. I've been on this ride since June 9. I've tried my hardest to bring some balance, to set it aside when I could, to embrace the moment (like inhaling the scent of fall leaves), but it's always just a quiet moment away, and then my brain whispers, cancer. It's not just cancer though is it? There is more than enough to make us feel weary these days.

So current mood: pack up the car, drive to Florida, live in my parents winter house, come back in May. Nice to think about, as a mental escape. Reality: Not retirement age yet, but getting closer.

Whew! Back to enjoying the slight sway of the hammock, the murmur of the leaves, that dappled sun peeking through, the chick a dees chirping ... the Jesuits believe that appreciation/gratitude for the natural world is a form of prayer. Despite all of the challenges we are all facing in this crazy world, there is still beauty.

Ps I just heard a woodpecker tapping. Marvelous.

It sounds and smells so peaceful in your hammock. I am sure that it will be such a relief to be done with the radiation even if you are too weary to feel like celebrating.

Hey All

Popping in quickly after finally getting a decent nights sleep - got strong pain meds from GP and they worked. In a sling but healing - will go back to hospital next week for check up. I ended up knicking the tendon & artery plus chipping knucklebone - never one to do things by halves. Hating only having use of my left hand and relying on others but it is what it is!!

Miss - Hope the dentist visit went well. Im with you re cost n detest going - we cant go till Nov so have a little reprieve!

Liz - Sorry to hear DS is cranky n hope he adjusts in time. It can take guys longer to process stuff I find than girls. Internalising is high on their defence reactions. How is Mikes shoulder?

Cec - Good on you for walking. You are doing so well. Thank you also for being there xx It means a lot

Diane O - Your site looks just beautiful. So serene. Im sure Sadie & Atlas are loving the change in scenery too

DD - I love reading your posts - I could close my eyes n be right there with you. So proud of how you have tackled this treatment. You are amazing

Peps - How is Ron after cataract surgery? Hope hes resting comfortably.

Diane S Leap BB and Ann - hello to you all too

I had best get this posted - typing with left hand takes ages n wouldnt want too loose my post

S xx