VSG Maintenance Group
09/14/2020 Monday
DD, may today provide improvement from boob pain and nausea. I think of you often and send positive thoughts and positivity. Ceci, Diane S and Peps... I feel for your air quality. My BC DD has had windows closed and been able to run for three days due to smoke issues... from hundreds of miles away. Liz, the sweaters are beautiful !! Your joy in finding Mike shines through every post !! BB, the shot of the girls in their OK outfits was adorable !! Shirl...let us know you are okay. Ann and Miss Bonnie, it has been great to see you posting on FB.
We cancelled our November RV reservation in SC. Covid is still not under control, but more importantly with the tremendous divide in ideology and the intensity of political passions growing, we are honestly concerned about civil unrest as the election gets closer. I think the climate for a resounding negative response to the election is building, whomever is elected. We want to be at home, should that happen.
I have gained ten pounds in the last week, probably a combination of water retention and carb overload. Way scary !! I often think of regain patterns of the past...waking up and realizing I've regained 50+ pounds and jumping quickly to why bother ? I am back on MPF and logging food. I'll check in with my PC, stop the upward climb and turn things around. DC is having a challenging time and I need to revisit self care and enforcing boundaries. How many times do I have to say that, before I prioritize it !?
Age: 64; 5' 5"; High weight: 345; Start weight: 271 (01/05/15); Surgery weight: 218 (05/27/15); Pre-Op (-53); M 1 (-18); M 2 (-1.5); M 3 (-13.5 ); M 4 (-13); M 5 (- 8); M 6 (-12) M 7 (-5, Xmas); M 8 (- 9) Under surgeon's goal and REACHED HEALTHY BMI 12/07/15!! (Six months and one week.) AT GOAL month 8. Maintaining at goal range (139- 144) ~ four (4) years !!
Thank goodness you are starting us up Diane! I hadn't thought about increased civil unrest as a possibility. I am going to request my absentee ballot today to make sure I have it before I leave for Florida. I think we will start driving Columbus Day or the day after.
Weight 123.2. ABOVE RANGE (I knew it was coming). Time to buckle down and stay on plan.
The shower was fun yesterday - just family and we sat outside under tents. My nephew and his Mom (my SIL) both cried when he opened the sweaters. Such a happy day! The in utero little boy was kicking up a storm. Their new home is really beautiful. They need a lot of furniture and some painting done but already have started a few projects - mostly cosmetic. I was pleased to see that they weren't jumping to buy all new furniture as many do these days with their first homes. They painted an old bedroom set with chalk paint which came out great. The furniture quality is probably much better than new furniture these days too.
Today I am going out to Mikes for some hiking and sitting on the beach for a bit. I have plans with girlfriends for lunch tomorrow and Wednesday. Time is sure flying by - Columbus Day will be here before we know it.
Have a safe, healthy, and social day!
Liz 5'3" HW: 219 SW: 185 GW: 125 LW: 113 Desired maintenance range: 120-125 CW: 119ish
on 9/14/20 10:23 am, edited 9/14/20 3:24 am
Scale moved down. I am weighing every day, but noting where I stand each Monday. So down 2 pounds this week and 8.2 from my hitting an "obese" BMI wake up call. Still a very long way to go, but at least I'm on the path and not stuck in the weeds.
I had a nice lunch with my friend and his partner yesterday. Lordy, their house is gorgeous. $5m completely gutted and remodeled on the water in Long Beach. But between us, I can think of a hundred other places I'd want to live for $5m that don't include being packed in with my neighbors like sardines with no yard and where strangers are setting up beach chairs 6 feet from my front doors. But they are happy and that's what counts. Sometimes seeing places like that help cement what is important to you. We took a short walk so he could show me around the neighborhood and I caught a reflection of my upper arm in someone's window. Shocked me to say the least. Clearly that's where all my Covid weight went. Argh.
Today is Fergie's 13th birthday! I put a pic on FB. He was having NONE of the party hat I bought for him. Given that one shouldn?t start one's birthday with trauma, I'll save it for someone else. We'll go for a walk in a minute...
Otherwise, I just have therapy today. I was talking to a good friend and I mentioned my recent thoughts about moving. She was totally for it, but something she said struck me. She said she worries about me, because she thinks I'm an unhappy soul.
I don't feel unhappy most of the time. I laugh a lot, am upbeat when I talk to people, smile all the time, enjoy a lot of things, and do not walk around depressed, but something about that struck a chord. Do I give off an unhappy soul vibe? Sure there are things I want from life I don't have (doesn't everyone?), but I am grateful for what I do have and don't mope about those unfulfilled wants. I was wondering if maybe not having a purpose in life is what comes across as me being unhappy? So maybe it's untethered more than unhappy? Certainly my weight is an outward expression of something going on inside, so maybe that's what she reads as unhappy? So at least I have something to talk about in today's session. I don't think I'd be chewing on it so much if part of me didn't believe the was some truth in it.
Hmm, I've re read what you've wrote a couple of times. There are things from life I want, but don't have .... you are so correct that this is the truth of everyone's life. Is it possible in your life, where you count your blessings, where you make sure not to trouble others too much, where you continue to be a good girl (I think we have a lot of good girls and boys in this group, including me), that you have been too quick to dismiss those wants? That, in being grateful for what you do have, you think I shouldn't ask for xxx too? Maybe some of those wants need to be revisited. But if they call to you, take another look and see how/if they could become part of your life.
WW virtual does nothing for me. MFP aligns with the VSG mindset I need to recapture. A precise focus is needed. Thanks for your input... I do appreciate it !!
Age: 64; 5' 5"; High weight: 345; Start weight: 271 (01/05/15); Surgery weight: 218 (05/27/15); Pre-Op (-53); M 1 (-18); M 2 (-1.5); M 3 (-13.5 ); M 4 (-13); M 5 (- 8); M 6 (-12) M 7 (-5, Xmas); M 8 (- 9) Under surgeon's goal and REACHED HEALTHY BMI 12/07/15!! (Six months and one week.) AT GOAL month 8. Maintaining at goal range (139- 144) ~ four (4) years !!
