VSG Maintenance Group
Wednesday September 2, 2020
Still strange typing September.
Weight 121.4. The lobster did well by me I guess (I don't use butter). My friends seemed to like Mike. One was DH's oldest and closest friend so I think it went really well. Poor Mike gets nervous ahead of meeting people but then he is so engaging, relaxed and interesting. He makes a point of finding common interests and expands on it. I guess most people do but I feel like I am doing a dissection of these meetings in my head. LOL
Today is going to be a bit rainy so I think Mike and I are going to have lunch and watch a movie at my house. Then I am going to SIL's to get together with the Oregon family members who are leaving here tomorrow.
In the meantime, laundry and cooking shrimp for tonight is on the agenda.
I will be thinking of you all but especially DD, hoping that the discomfort isn't too bad. Are there ice type bags that can be tucked into your bra if not what Diane suggested?
Have a safe and healthy day.
Liz 5'3" HW: 219 SW: 185 GW: 125 LW: 113 Desired maintenance range: 120-125 CW: 119ish
This may be my lowest day so far in this cancer journey. I could handle greatly changed school year and Covid last spring. I could handle cancer and Covid this summer. But I am having a lot of trouble handling all 3 at the same time. I can't sleep. I can't get my head in the space where it needs to be. Maybe the holiday weekend will help me recalibrate. I'll figure it out, I always do, but today is a miserable day, physically and mentally.
I see the radiologist tomorrow. I will meet with them after my treatment on Thursday for the next few weeks. I'll talk with them about my insomnia (probably not uncommon). I think they want to avoid icing because of skin breakdown, but I'll check. One suggestion they gave me in a pre treatment visit was to keep their recommended brand of aloe vera in the fridge. I ordered some, so I'll get it in the fridge today.
Eating .... I'm eating whenever I'm hungry, and trying to keep focused on protein. I am having a treat if I want one, but only single servings, no boxes of doughnuts or bags of chips or cookies in the house. I'm up about 2-3 pounds from the lowest weight I reached with WW. I can live with that. When this is done, I intend to go back to tracking my WW points.
Love your flowers Liz. Just because flowers are the best.
Cecily, I'm thinking about Ferg. Sounds like your noticing some changes in his energy level. Hoping he continues to be comfortable, even while he slows down.
Your post tugged at my heart strings! I can understand why all this is so hard piled up together. Please remember, you don't have to handle school right now. I'm sure you miss the excitement, energy and even the many frustrations that come with the start of the school year, but you did take off the beginning of the year so you wouldn't have to deal with it. As hard as it is to do, try to keep yourself separated from school right now. It'll probably help on your self care front.
Much good mojo coming your way. Hoping your mood takes a turn for the better today. 
The only space your head needs to be in is picturing yourself cancer free and healthy. With that focus everything else will fall in to place. One moment at a time and lean on all of us who have your back. You are loved !
Age: 64; 5' 5"; High weight: 345; Start weight: 271 (01/05/15); Surgery weight: 218 (05/27/15); Pre-Op (-53); M 1 (-18); M 2 (-1.5); M 3 (-13.5 ); M 4 (-13); M 5 (- 8); M 6 (-12) M 7 (-5, Xmas); M 8 (- 9) Under surgeon's goal and REACHED HEALTHY BMI 12/07/15!! (Six months and one week.) AT GOAL month 8. Maintaining at goal range (139- 144) ~ four (4) years !!
on 9/2/20 2:09 pm
It's so hard when crises pile on top of one another. One you can do. Two is a lot. Three is a huge burden. 
Thank you for sweet thoughts on Ferg! Yes, his comfort and happiness are the priorities. I had a covert hair appointment today (still not allowed. Living in my glass house I can't throw stones at Nancy Pelosi!). Ferg hadn't wanted to walk yesterday, so I was surprised when I went to leave and he headed for the door like we were going out. So I texted my hairdresser I was going to be late and took him for a walk. What Ferg wants, Ferg gets!
Just now seeing this and hope the world is looking lighter by now. Most certainly- drop two of those burdens- the school situation and the COVID- nothing to be done on your part. Pour all that energy into your healing self- selfish is very good right now. counting down those treatments with you....hugs your way- and my prayers.
