Monday 8/31/2020

Weight 122.4. Carrot cake Saturday (and sushi last night)...

Is it really the last day of August!!! It was 55 outside this morning when I walked Justice and I have my fireplace on to heat my sunroom up (it was 66). I know I am a wimp!

So I think I told you that I thought I lost a credit card last week, then I dropped and broke my iPad on Friday. What a week! The new card and new iPad arrived over the weekend and are now all set up. I had some panic trying to erase the old iPad. Kind of a weird conundrum where you had to be logged into it for it to erase, but I couldn't see to put the passcode in. But this morning I put the iPads side by side and figured out where the keys were to enter the passcode so it successfully erased itself.

Mike is coming later this morning for the day. I think we are going to walk at the Cape Cod Canal, then maybe poke around on the other side of the bridge.

Have a safe and healthy day!

Ha, I like your problem solving with the iPad.

Today has been crazy. I got up and logged into work at 7:15am, got into a webex for a staff meeting. Pretty important stuff, but either the audio, video or both were crashing. The meeting ended abruptly with no audio, so I wasn't sure if I needed to log in again, or if it was done. A couple of texts with staff who were at the meeting let me know it was done. Our principal emailed the powers point, but the embedded links were Google docs that had not been shared, so I had to send emails requesting permission to view. After that, I went to radiation, which was uneventful. Except that my breast definitely feels hot. It did on Friday too, but I had a 2 day break and it calmed down. I'm a little nervous about the accumulating effects, will it get hotter each day? Hope not, but if it does, I have a lot of aloe.

Back at it here in a second for the afternoon meetings. Wish me luck! :)

Up again for the 5th day in a row! Very discouraging. But I know 1700 isn't too much given my size/height. So my hope is this is just a very jagged loss pattern. Grrr.

I think a walk today and I have therapy later. Laundry too. That's about it!

I wish the scale wouldn't give you the hard time it has! Hang in there, you know you're doing the work, eventually the scale will report it.

It is most definitely a MONDAY! I'm tired. I did too much yesterday. Was on the go non stop with "company" from 10 am to about 8 pm. It was all dog stuff, so enjoyable, but still exhausting.

I also, unintentionally, was inconsiderate towards my BFF yesterday. He's sensitive, and I should know better, but I didn't think and messed up. I hate it when I do stupid stuff like that. It will take some time for him to let go of it, even though I apologized. Oh well.... my mess to clean up and live with while it "dries".

Tried some new tech today with the kids. I bought a document camera that plugs into my school laptop with a USB plug. I can share my screen with the kids and they can see the work on my table. This will be much easier for them to follow along than with me standing at the board or at the chart stand. Looks like either the PTO or district will reimburse me the $100 it cost. That's a plus!

Weight was up .3 today, but that is negligible. Got to stomach rumbling hunger today before I ate. It is becoming more and more clear as I am trying to monitor my hunger feelings that VSG really has changed my hunger cues and signals. I have to pay closer attention.

Had WEIRD dreams last night. Stress stuff. Very odd. Wonder what I'm stressing about? BFF, school, Eating Disorder recovery???? Not sure.

Well, it's time to go back to Zoom for my math lesson. Introducing BOOM Cards today (on line math games bought from Teacher pay Teacher). Hope the kids like it!

You know, even if you did mess up , it was, as you noted, unintentional, and you apologized.

I cannot muster up any real emotion, energy, etc for school. I hope it's because of the treatments, and, when radiation is done, I'll find my mojo. If not, it's going to be a long year ... I love how you are going for it! Maybe some of your positivity will inspire me :)

Good Morning All, Coming back in a much better frame of mind... Hit the wall last night in a big way. Ate crap food and curled up in bed to binge watch Netflix till midnight.Bit tired today but I really needed to disconnect.

Finally made myself weigh in as Im ready to start dealing with my gain. Weight is 179.3 this morning - Im well over my comfortable level so it starts today. Scaling back on the comfort eating and all the crap food. I need to loose around 10 lbs to be back where I should be !

DH and I struggled to work yesterday with the old generator running - its over 25 years old and it overheated at lunchtime. It wasnt coping with the load (though we kept it minimal) so DH rang the place we got the farm generator from and went over and picked up a new one. Expensive purchase but needed. We both went over to my mums after work to do things at her house and on the way home I got a text to say the power was back. So thankful. We went for a walk with the dogs and saw the damage from the storm - previously the roads had been closed as the crews worked to re-instate the power line. Massive trees down everywhere. They have done a great job.

Today is just work then I want to pop over to my mums and drop some more things off from her groceries then home to mow the back lawn as we are expecting more storms tommorrow. Will also walk the dogs

Our premier has finally announced that he will table the "roadmap" coming out of Stage 4 restrictions on 6th Sept - prior to this stage ending on 13th Sept. Our cases were down to 73 new cases yesterday - the deaths are still climbing mainly due to Aged Care. People are very very weary and a minority have been protesting which doesnt help any of us. The Tin Hat Brigade is alive and well here !

Well I had better go and be productive at work. Havent felt very motivated over the past few days and that means not much was achieved.

Stay safe everyone

S

Yet when I read your posts, it seems like much has been achieved, at least by my standards.

So right after I got done typing my response to Peps that I'd lost my teaching mojo, I thought, I should talk to Jenny. Jenny is a teacher friend who I team taught with for 10 years, a good friend, incredible teacher, and cancer survivor. And apparently a bit of a witch (or I am), because my phone rang and it was her. We talked about the ambiguity of cancer, and this new world of teaching. Our take away, in the positive sense, hybrid shakes us up, teaches us new skills, makes us think more deliberately about our curriculum, gives students a chance to work at their own pace. From a cynical viewpoint, she said, you are an awesome teacher, even if you are mediocre as a distance learning teacher, you're still going to be good, worse things could happen to students then to have you not at your best ... that helped a lot. May still not have my mojo to bring my best yet, but talking with her made me feel like I could again later.

Greetings Friends

So this happened yesterday afternoon:

My studio buddy Janis and I were enjoying a socially distanced visit on the deck. The dogs were about. We both noticed a brown thing that plopped on to the deck. Initially I thought it was a piece of some plant. Upon inspection, it was a SNAKE. And it had NO HEAD!!!! It had been freshly decapitated as it was still wiggling and bleeding.

How a decapitated snake got tossed on to my deck is a mystery. My theory is that Tesla, who was down in the yard, caught the snake, gave it a good snap as terriers do, and the result was severing of head while sending the body flying onto the deck.

Could have been a bird of prey flying above but I don't think so. We would have seen said snake sooner as it fell and it only dropped about 3 feet. Plus Tesla subsequently came up to the deck licking her lips.

I made DH come and remove the corpse which he did with his grabbers - that tool that old people use to pick up stuff from the floor.

This was a little garden brown snake only about a foot long. Tesla has shown no ill effects if she did indeed eat that snake head. We searched the premises but no snake head located.

Anyway thats our adventure.

DD not surprising you have lost a little mojo. I bet it comes back as you heal up. Wishing you the best. Glad you have a special teaching buddy.

Best to all. Hopefully my next report will not be so gross. Diane S