08/30/2020, Sunday

Liz, your posts and pictures provide much insight as to this significant rite of passage. I believe it was Mike's statement that Peps was trying to recall, life is too short to wait to live it. He has come into your life for a reason. DD, thoughts are constantly with you ! I've enjoyed the pictures you've been posting too. Peps, I'm glad you are realizing self care HAS to be a priority. Educators need so much strength and grace to navigate these very public challenging times. The teachers like Devon and DD who had it together and knew how to get through to children going in to this adventure have a significant advantage. Ceci, glad you are walking with a friend who is also making it a priority to be active. Isn't it funny how we don't think twice about letting ourselves down, but we don't want to disappoint a friend. Diane, the changing seasons do curtail those peas ! Lots of indoor venues around here are scrambling to find out more about air filtering systems too.

The two last, we hope, bags of fire stone arrive tomorrow and we can button up the firepit project. Yesterday, we bit the bullet and made reservations to RV at the beach in SC for the month of November. Our site has a wooden pavilion and is a small dune away from the ocean. Covid and/or a late season hurricane are all that will deter us. We are already trying to design ways to use a combination privacy screen-windbreak in conjunction with the pavilion and dog yard to give us more privacy and protection from high wind days.

I sure hope your SC plans can come to fruition. It sounds like a lovely spot!

I just had coffee then ate some eggs and bacon. I am feeling very full, but that might be because I ate what I felt like last night including a piece of carrot cake. Back to planned eating and drinking today! It was a good night though. I didn't feel weird and chatted with DSD's friend for a while. Nice guy!

I am going to take a walk in a bit, then probably pack up to drive home. I might stop at a state park on the way which is supposed to be very pretty.

Have a safe and healthy day!

North Carolina in November sounds heavenly. And the perfect setting to social distance. I hope the weather cooperates.

Liz, I had carrot cake too. Must be an anniversary necessity. You have honored Paul and your years together beautifully, and with such grace.

We did have a very fun day yesterday. The ingenuity of some of the entrepreneurs is amazing. The place we went for brunch is tiny indoors, but we love it (when it's not Covid) They didn't have a patio, but they created one in their alley parking lot. They took 5 gallon buckets, spray painted them black, filled them halfway with cement, and anchored patio umbrellas in them. Created tons of shade, very comfortable.

The music venue has also been so creative. We had a great spot, close to the stage, but not under the tent, just as I'd hoped. We even got a shout out from the band! (Our waitress must have told them).

Tomorrow is the first day of school for teachers. I'm hoping I'll be able to attend the opening meeting remotely. So far, no one can confirm that.

Looks to be a beautiful day, time for the Sunday paper.

Liz & Diane, Glad your anniversaries were all they needed to be. Sounds like they were just like what you both needed and wanted. Diane Mc., LOVE the wine barrel fire pit!!!!! Think I might need to do something like that, too. Will you hook it up to a propane tank?????

Weight is down a bit today. Back in the 266s. I filled out the my hunger/food log thing yesterday. I question my ability to actually feel the grades of hunger. Ever since WLS I seem to have two kinds of hunger. One is "Oh, wow, I have forgotten to eat and it's 1 or 2 in the afternoon and I am really super hungry." I feel all the physical signs of true hunger. But even this hunger is easily sated with a glass of water and a little bite of something. The other type and much more common, everyday type of hunger that I feel is this: "I'm empty. It's meal time. I should eat. I don't have to eat, but it's eating time." On a rare occasion I may wake up feeling hungry, but a cup of coffee puts that to rest for a couple of hours.

This made tracking degrees of hunger around my meal times yesterday a bit tricky. When it as dinner I didn't feel particularly hungry, but I knew I was empty, so it was okay to eat. When I wanted my evening sweet, I wasn't hungry at all. So, what kind of hunger is that? It certainly didn't make me feel uncomfortable to eat, but I knew I wasn't truly hungry. Curious the questions that are popping up around this process. I guess this is the work I need to do to get to know my eating disorder and make friends with it.

Yeah, you read that right. I want to make friends with my eating disorder. Clearly, it does not like being treated as the enemy, so I might as well embrace it, be one with it and figure out how to work as a unit with it. It's part of me, so it really isn't a bad thing or the enemy. Just a part of me that was simply left to its own devices and learned to use food to cope.

That is plenty of "depth" for a Sunday! So, of that note.....

Hope everyone has a great Sunday.

I have both kinds of hunger too. The actual, stomach growling hunger, and the empty hunger. I honor the empty hunger, because it means the tank is low, and I could hit the wall energy wise, if I don't pay it some attention. The growly hunger, I sometimes think might actually be more acid than anything. I often wake up with it, and like your coffee, my tea settled it down.

I just ate now, empty, not growly hunger. But it was true hunger, because tuna sounded sooo good. If tuna sounds good, I figure I really do need some fuel.

I also think it's okay to eat without true hunger. Most thin people I know will do that. It's an elemental pleasure. It does require more discipline though, doesn't it? I suspect my thin friends are also exherting some self control in response to eating for pleasure.

Morning All- not saying its Good!

What a weekend....... after we left the city house Thursday to travel to the farm, a huge storm hit as I mentioned mum lost power for 24 hrs. We assumed ours would be back around then too but started seeing posts on FB Saturday night that it wasnt. Made preparations & left the farm Sunday am. Brought down the generator and 80 litres of tank water- as the power outage had caused water contamination. Seriously starting to wonder what else !!!!!

I did my mums groceries yesterday and we cooked tea on the stove. Meals over next 2-3 days will be trying too use some of the freezer contents that defrosted. We got power back around 8.30pm last night- alerted by cries of celebration around the neighbourhood- only to wake at 5am to none again. Today will he juggling the generator in order to try and work- thankful to have electrician sons who between them got us rigged up to feed power from generator to the house-so we had lights & the fridges & freezers running.

On a positive note, our water has been cleared and im sitting typing this my torchlight- camping in home until its a decent hour to start the generator. Will pop back later & catch up on everything

Give me strength to endure what I have no control over. Certainly being tested at present between Stage 4 lockdown, power & water issues!!!!

Love to you all

S

Holy Hannah, that's a lot for one weekend. Hope power and water issues are soon resolved! Hello Monday, yikes.

Not the start to week 5 of lockdown we had hoped for ! Just received notification that we wont have power back till 11.59pm on 2nd September - best hunker down and do the best we can

Jeepers! That's horrible!!!!!!

What a nightmare! As if this year can get any worse!