Monday August 3, 2020

Weight 122.4, back in range thank goodness though I certainly wasn't eating perfectly over the weekend (though better than the weekdays).

Yes, it is my face on the thread start today. DianeO, where are you???

Yesterday I went kayaking with DSD and took a long beautiful walk with Justice. I was feeling left out as SILs went out to lunch for the second time this week without asking if I was interested. I pretty much always ask them unless it is with someone they don't know so it kind of made me wonder if I shouldn't do that so often.

I have a bereavement Support group meeting at 11, then a lunch date at 1 with the tall coffee date guy from last week. We are going to the same pretty harbor restaurant I was at on Thursday so it should be pleasant. Very windy with the front edge of the tropical storm though.

Have a safe and healthy start to the week!

I don't want to stir up more feelings, but I'm kind of outraged about your SILs behavior. Is this the same SIL who shadows your every movement in Florida? Now, I don't have sisters, so I am trying to imagine that occasionally you might want a just sisters moment to reminisce about personal, long ago memories... but I would not make these plans frequently and leave out a sister in law who has shared so much. Are they feeling put out that you are going on dates?

And yes, where is Diane M.?

Today I get to do a floral delivery. Daughter and I ordered flowers to be delivered to the bride to be at the shower yesterday. We laid extra to specify delivery by 12:30pm. By 2pm the shower was over, no flowers. We called the delivery service, and said the flowers could no longer be delivered to that address, as the recipient was no longer there. They said they would deliver to her house. Okay. Except by 7pm they were not there, so we cancelled and asked for a refund. Interestingly, the delivery service noted flowers had been delivered at the shower at 11:30, and the bride's house at 5:30, neither of which happened. However, the flowers were finally delivered, after we cancelled, to the shower site. Haha. Oh well, we told sil to enjoy for hosting a nice shower. So we have ordered from a florist near the bride's house, and I will pick them up and deliver to make sure they arrive :)

The SILs are also SILs to each other. Same relationship between them as between my DH's sister and me. Both times they were apparently making assumptions about what I would want (or just really didn't want me there). The first time they left the beach before me and then decided to go out but didn't check with me possibly because they assumed I wouldn't want to leave the beach? I did make some comment about yesterday and SIL said they assumed that because I passed on going out for food and drinks with friends on Saturday night (because I had been out so many times the week before), that it would mean I wouldn't want to go yesterday. I did suggest that it would have been nice if they asked me rather than assuming.

Good, I'm glad you said something. Because it would have been nice for them to let you accept or decline the invitation. My family (parents, brother) does this to me all the time. I see Facebook posts of pictures of my parents and brother and his family up on "our" land up north, and I say, I didn't know everyone was going up north, and they say, oh, we didn't think you were free this weekend, or, oh we didn't think you would want to come. But if someone is sick in the hospital, you can be sure I'll be invited to that. Over time, it's made me less available to them. But it used to make me really sad. Anyhow, I'm glad you spoke up, and hopefully it reminds them that you don't always have to do all the planning, that you can be included in all plans.

Hey all! Echoing the call for DianeO!

I had a frightful step on the scale this morning. Each time, I think, what have I done to myself?? Today I started tracking on MFP for awareness. Ostriching with the scale, my food intake, not trying on my non-stretchy clothes, being sedentary... all are part of my bad pattern I need to break. It's a recipe for easy weight gain.

Puzzle is done. Got a few loads of laundry in and my therapist. That about sums it up.

Tracking on MFP is a really good step. Sometimes when I am trying to get back to what feels like mindful eating, I start by focusing on one macro: For example, it doesn't matter how many carbs I eat, what is important is that I eat 80 grams of protein, etc. It takes the focus off of bring "bad" and puts it on something I feel in control of.

We have all been there Cecily. In this anxious Covid time there are others who have joined too. I can say that doing something like tracking can help in feeling like you have control over something even if not the larger world.

Hello

Popping in from lockdown....... Not a lot to report. Waiting to see how many of our kids are going to loose their jobs :( Just leaves me feeling sick as they are so young and trying to get ahead. Will ring DSD tonight - as it looks like child care is basically closing down. They are about to move into their first home on 11th. My youngest son is looking like he will be put off for the 6 weeks - waiting to hear. He lives with his Dad so at least thats something. Hoping my DSS's job is ok as he is supporting a young family with a home loan. My eldest Son is at Uni so should be ok for the moment. He may have to take a break from delivering catalogues dependant on what the company decides. Its chaos and every day there are new announcements relating to timings and industry closures. Feeling weary and stressed as many are.......

Not feeling like I have anything worthwhile to contribute so will go and get some more work done. Take care all and stay safe

S

I'm so sorry to hear about all the complications facing your children. You remind me to be grateful that in our family of four, our jobs are quite secure. I hope everyone is okay by the end of the 6 weeks, and the lockdown does what it is intended to do, slow down the spread of Covid 19.

The hits just keep on coming with Covid. I'm sorry about the instability for your kids.

Our numbers are dropping with our second semi-lockdown. Reading about yours though, it makes us look freewheeling! Closed for us are gyms, movies, indoor gatherings, indoor dining, bars, malls and personal grooming services. Our hospitalized numbers are dropping, but with the increase in deaths, I think we're sadly mostly trading one for the other. But I guess we aren't backfilling so many of their beds so that's good? We had 159 deaths in the county the last 14 days. Depressing.