07/24/2020, TGIF

Good morning all !! I saw my doctor and managed to stave off daily visits to the wound care center 40 minutes away for now. She has prescribed medicinal honey to accelerate healing and as predicted, no lake water until healed. I have to wear my compression stocking and can take off the dressings once a day, when I have my leg elevated. No signs of infection or cellulitis, but because she's seen me and I'm familiar and competent with this chronic issue, if I see any signs of either, she'll phone in Rx for antibiotics. All I have to do is think of DD to remember gratitude that this is all I'm dealing with. I'll share water banishment with you, DD. Diane S, you'll have to do enough water play to cover two additional Dianes ! After being on hold with Lowes on and off for 45 minutes, they refunded my $302 installation fee and the gas company is coming today to hook us up ! Too hot to cook anyway !! Liz and Peps, I hear what you are saying about smaller, local appliance stores but there are none within an hour of here. Covid wiped out the two remaining ! Have to run.... Love, serenity and healing to all !!

Weight 122.6, nearing the top of my desired range. WAY TOO MANY dinners out this week! I think the last is tonight, then I need to cool it until late next week when we have SIL's Birthday party.

Diane, I guess you are in a somewhat remote spot? So glad that the wound care can be handled at home and that Lowe's is making it right. I think it is sad that the box stores continue to put small operations out of business.

The guy I had lunch with yesterday was super nice and easygoing. No bunker in his basement! But he is REALLY chubby. I just don't know - I was used to my very tall, very slim husband who somewhat gave me the incentive to lose and watch my weight.

Today nothing is planned yet other than dinner with SIL and her visiting daughter. I may kayak and should definitely do an Oceanside Justice walk.

Have a safe and healthy Friday!

Diane, medicinal honey was a big part of my 4 month long healing process. It helps (though thinking back to that terrible time is giving me feelings). I'm more sorry than you know that you are having to deal with that!

Therapy was one of those meh days where it doesn't feel like we talked about anything helpful. My dad and his wife, jokesters that they are sent me pictures of my dad with his catheter bag on display while he relaxed in the sun. It's like I'm right there (ew and lol).

Vacuuming was my big chore of the day yesterday. I need to come up with another one today. Maybe one a day and my house would be a lot cleaner than it currently is.

Happy Friday all!

Your Dad sounds like a character!

I had to Google medicinal honey. So now I know! It must be sticky! YUCK! But, if it works... Hallelujah!

Diane Mc., So glad you got your $302 back!!!! That was just ridiculous! Sorry about your no pond, lake water prescription. I suppose that includes no kayaking. Better safe than sorry! Weren't you hospitalized last year or the year before due to an infection in your leg?

Had a very good session with the NUT yesterday because I got to go over all my thinking triggered by the Ah Ha of passive vs. active. Also, being about to acknowledge the difference (for me) between wanting to be thin and wanting to lose weight. I am doing much better thinking about what actions I need to take and choices i need to make to be healthier and to get "thin" than I did when thinking about losing weight. Semantics.... Interesting how the eating disordered brain works!

That said and after making a conscious decision to NOT concern myself with making choices geared to lose weight, I am the lowest on the scale I have been since can't remember when. I am down to 266.8 today. I think I saw the 266s in April for a day or two, but that's it. Since then it has been between 267 and 270. So a 266.anything feels monumental.

I have a grooming this morning and a second ophthalmology appointment today. Yesterday was eye measurement day. Today I believe is getting my eyes dilated followed by a thorough examination by the Ophthalmologist. I hate spelling the word ophthalmologist, by the way. I have to think every time I write it. By the time I have the cataract removed I should have the spelling committed to memory! LOL!

Berkeley the Airedale is here. Toodles!

Is it possible that you are eating in such a way that you are loosing very slowly without dieting? The post surgery weekly loss was addicting, but difficult to replicate now. If you were losing say 2 pounds a month, overtime your losses would add up. I say this because you seem so much more at peace with your food choices right now, and maybe these food choices are actually producing what you want, except slower.

I am not too sure if what you say is the case. It sounds feasible, but I am wondering more if the Ah Ha has driven my choices more towards the form of eating you are talking about. I think overall that I may have been heading this way all along, but the last week or so my thinking has had an impact on my choices. Yesterday, for instance, I ate something for lunch that sounded good. I ate two deviled eggs made with some mayo (unmeasured) and beef jerky. Not a big lunch, but it was exactly what I wanted. It wasn't until afterwards that I realized it was a pretty "diet" type of lunch. The difference seemed to be that the eggs and jerky were what I wanted to eat at that tine, not what I thought I should eat to lose weight. I hope that makes sense.

I am perfectly capable and knowledgable enough to know how to eat to lose weight. Yet the moment I start focusing on the "diet" I start to self sabotage in some way or the other. Focusing on making choices that will be satisfying and healthy and help me maintain my weight seems to be much easier. Again, it's semantics. I am working really hard at living with my disordered eating and this type of mind game seems to be helping to keep the eating disorder quiet and "Little Peps" feeling comfortable.

At 8.5 years out from WLS my sleeve is pretty relaxed. I can eat a fair amount in one sitting, if I choose. I can also be satisfied with much less than the average fellow my age. It just depends on mood, how much I've exercised and time of day. I tend to be more hungry in the afternoon through about 9 pm. I like to eat the bulk of my calories between those hours. It's not intermittent fasting because I'm not locked into that time frame. (I know enough now about myself to know that trying to relegate food intake to between the hours of such and such would absolutely trigger my disordered eating.)

Hehehe.... Probably way more than you wanted to know, but your question caused some thinking on my part and it helps me a lot to put my thinking "to paper".

Diane, I feel your pain, having to stay out of the water. Here we both are, living in winter states where summer is so short, and now we sit this one out for a bit. I've promised myself a trip to an awesome beach (Key West, Cozumel, Siesta Key ?) as soon as a trip like that is safe.

I set up my appointment with the oncologist I will be seeing. I'll see her next Tuesday, one week from my surgery.

Today, more of the same. Reading. Napping. Not a lot of other options right now, so luckily these are activities I really enjoy.

Greetings All

A day of errands and feeding popcorn to the dog as I eat it as well. Had pool plans but other stuff took longer than expected. In my old age I find I need to wind down at about 4 pm and nap or play dead.

Liz glad the new guy is fun. Enjoy these events - at least you get to socialize. I do too if I wish but I know some poor folks who can't . Like my friend who broke her leg and is in a rehab hospital for 6 weeks.

Diane M sorry for your no-pond order but glad you have jumped on this ailment and are getting it treated. Be grateful for decent medical care. Much of the nation lacks it. I will do a few pool laps for you and DD. I had cousins in Minn when we were kids - lake Minnewashta I think. We had lots of fun in their lake. They always said swimming pool water was like jello and I think of that often.

So DD, rest up and I hope you escape chemo. Tell us if you find any extra dood books.

Tomorrow I see the cardiologist on follow up to my test. Yep, I know its Saturday. They canceled an earlier one and scheduled it for Saturday. Gotta give the guy credit for not just pushing it off for a couple of weeks.

Peps thanks for all the thoughts on dieting/weight control/eating etc. I guess there is no single answer and everyone has to find the thought matrix that works. As I sit here and eat popcorn. Oh well.

Mecicinal honey! I would probably eat it.

Peace all. Diane S

Shocker of shocks, I walked! I did the perimeter of my neighborhood which is 4 miles almost on the nose and all flat. Considering how pooped I was at the end, I can officially say I am in terrible shape. If I just did that kind of walk everyday, I imagine in short order I'd feel a lot better physically and about myself. I wonder if I can keep it up?