Friday, July 17 2020

Life is a bit monotonous. But I have learned a big life lesson during this daily uneventfulness: Having time to complete tasks and projects is not the answer to my procrastination! LOL! I could have had the garage cleaned several times over by now, yet it is not. I have a pile of mail that needs sorting. It is not. So, it really isn't about having time to do things. It's that I don't want to do those things. So maybe this somehow applies to my lackluster weight loss.

I am proud of not bingeing for several months. That's pretty darn good. I am really searching for answers to what holds me back from actually losing some weight. Interesting for sure.

I have not been feeling too chipper and carefree the past few days either. Have a NUT session today, but this will be my last for a few weeks, which is good. I have a dr's appointment for my cataract surgery next week, then the following week I will be in Ohio, if the shows are not cancelled. (I'm secretly praying they will be...) Anyhow, I'm still not sure about why I should continue paying for nutritional counseling if, as she said, I don't really want to lose weight. It's a lot of money each month for the small amount of headway I am making.

Have to get ready for a client. TGIF people!

Having time to complete tasks and projects is not the answer to my procrastination!

ME EITHER!

It seemed like you were happy with your NUT until she made that comment. Maybe it wasn't meant the way you felt it was? Regardless, perhaps it would be helpful for you to ask her to explain what she meant and why she said it? I would agree that if she really meant what it sounded like perhaps it is time to stop talking to her. But I wonder...

And this is just a suggestion as I know I sometimes don't say what I really mean.

Liz, I think you are 100% on target. I believe what she meant to say is this: "You know, from my perspective it seems to me that there is a part of you that really doesn't want to lose weight for whatever reason. If you really do want to lose weight you will need to figure out what is keeping you from making the changes you need to make to actually lose the weight. Until then you are just spinning your wheels."

I also think it was a statement to challenge me to look deeper.

However, that knowledge does not negate the negative feelings that were triggered by making the original statement, "I don't think you really want to lose weight." The statement set off a spiral of questions and feelings that have preoccupied me over the past week. One of the questions that has been gnawing at me is this: "If I don't really want to lose weight, why do I need to pay you $80 a session to not lose weight?" That is my very practical, I don't have a lot of expendable income side coming out to play AND it makes logical sense to me. As a dyed in the wool New Englander, I'm sure that logic runs deep in you, too.

As Diane Diamond's surgeon beautifully points out, obesity is a complex disease.

I hear you!

Good Morning :)

Popping in from a sleep in till 9am. My goodness - that never happens ! We stayed up late watching a movie last night. It was nice but I ate too many snacks.......

Weight is 174.02 - expected after last night. I finally weighed as I have been eating badly. Made Vanilla Slice for DH last night and of course ate a piece when I served him some..... If I am being honest there will be a piece today as well at some stage as its one of my favourites too.

Today is dog washing, washing all their bedding and hoping to finally get the roses done. Its very cool but the sun is out - a nice change from sub zero temps and fog till lunchtime. I need to run more food over to my mum - Made Homemade Fried Rice with Peking Pork last night - it was nice and have 6 serves left- also made 18 zuchinni and bacon muffins to use up eggs - have parceled some up for mum. And of course she will get some vanilla slice as she loves it. Dinner tonight is homegrown lamb chops, mash & Veg - more winter comfort food - any wonder my weight is up huh :)

Went back to the physio yesterday after 2 months. I was letting the swelling subside from my slip up in the chook pen. I was worried but happy to report when she tested my backwards flex it went past 100 degrees easily and without pain. Could have gone a lot further. I have lots of strengthing exercises to do 3 times a week and am to keep walking and riding my exercise bike. My goal is to get to 110-115 degrees backwards as apparently thats the magic figure for it to become easier to climb fences etc. I have lost a lot of muscle tone and strength in my operated leg. It was interesting to see the difference as I did the exercises with the physio. My left leg was a wobbly mess but I will get there.

Hope you all have a wonderful evening - Im off in search of another cup of tea then some brekkie

S

I KNOW you will get there! However I don't think I will be climbing any fences in the near future.

Sounds like you've made terrific progress on your knee!