Thursday, July 2, 2020

Weight 121.8, WW Bluepoints 20 (more or less). Epic Oyster was fantastic. They have done a great job with their outdoor dining with nice landscaping, shell flooring and color coordinated tables. Not to mention that the oysters and crab cakes were phenomenal!

My hands hurt today but the cushion covers are DONE! I think I will lie on a beach this afternoon and have my in-house chef cook a nice fish dinner for my friends and I. So grateful that this isn't just a dream but probably the day ahead.

I do feel lighter in mood. I have been playing a lot of music and I find that the emotional response I have to it is helping me feel more deeply and ultimately better. Some songs help me grieve, some help me feel thankful for past experiences, and some make me feel happy. And probably having some things to do like going out to the beach, to dinner, and kayaking with friends (old and new) is helping.

Enough self-examination for me. Have a safe and healthy Thursday!

Oh, and here are my hydrangeas in front of the house:

So nice to hear about your happy thoughts today. And self reflection is good, you're leaving a trail of markers to help you back to these feelings when life intrudes.

I had my MRI today. Are there any medical tests that aren't also a test of endurance and resolve? I decided I did want to take something for the MRI to be more relaxed, so I called the clinic, and they told me, and also sent an me an email, that they sent the prescription (2 valium) to my pharmacy. I went to pick it up yesterday around 4:30. Predictably, there was no record of it. Sigh. Clinic was already closed. Sigh. Did the test without it. I was fine. So far, in the pursuit of getting this carcinoma removed, I had my initial mammography. Then another mammography and ultrasound. Then a Covid test. Then a biopsy and non pressure mammogram. Then met with the surgeon. Now the MRI. Next week, a pre operative physical. Then a Covid test. Finally the surgery. Then meet with an oncologist about further treatment. It's like it's my job.

Hot, hot here. I like it!! Hoping to go to one of the lakes of Minneapolis tomorrow to swim and kayak. Today I will stay close to home and putter around. Also read on the porch.

My stomach has been "sour." I think my reflux really upticked suddenly, and then news of this tragedy put it over the top.

I don't really feel like eating. Certainly not anything healthy.

I just feel so helpless to this senseless tragedy. Reach out.

It's so not worth it. I wish he could see that today. And tomorrow. And the years after that.

It is such a terrible loss. A friend of mine was hospitalized in time, before she could die by suicide. When she was better, we talked about her mindset at the time. She loved her children, husband very much. She said her thinking was not, oh they'll be so sad, it was, I'm doing them a favor. She really thought her kids would be better without her. It helped me understand a little bit how awful the pain must be. Sometimes depression is a fatal disease. I so wi**** had not been so for your friend.

Oh Bonnie, it is so difficult to understand how a tragedy like this can happen.

Greetings Friends

We just got back from Singing Tree Nursery where we bought a bunch of ornamental grasses. DH will plant them. I just pick them out and pay. good deal for me.

Everyone should look up this nursery. Singing Tree Gardens Nursury in McKinleyville ca. Beautiful park like place that sells plants. I sent Cici a picture and maybe I can eventually post it if my computer cooperates.

Nice deck Liz. Those cushions are a great improvement.

BB thinking of you.

It finally feels like real summer here as the zillion mile per hour wind has died down.

Gallery duty tomorrow in the tourist village. I bet its packed.

The current furor in our town is some people want to change the name from McKinleyville to "Dalhagali". Thats the ancient native American name for the area. Some have decided that President McKinley was a terrible person (probably true) so they want to change the name.Seems like money and energy could be put to a better purpose.

Yellow lighting bugs Bonnie 150!! So love those.

DD sorry you missed out on meds for your procedure. Such scary stuff and glad you got through it. It does sound like being a patient is a full time job with all the time you must spend traveling, waiting, organizing. Wishing you a good outcome.

Had a long chat with my studio buddy last night. She lives alone in a cabin in the woods and this isolation is driving her nuts. She really wants to come over to my house and visit and sit outside on our deck and talk. I guess thats ok. Must see what DH thinks.

The waterproof seat covers Cecily recommended have arrived and look great. Now if only I had a pool.

So it goes. Diane S

Here's your pic you sent, Diane! Beautiful...

That's the nursery???? Wow!

Good Morning All - Finally made it here. I got up and got a beef Stroganoff in the Slow Cooker. BIL is calling past this afternoon to collect it for their dinner. I try and cook at least one meal for them when Im up here.

Sick chook is still not looking good but I have popped her out in the pen for a while in the sunshine. Changed all her hay and freshed up her food and water. Not much more I can do for her - poor thing.

Puppies are loving being up at the farm. They enjoy the freedom of being able to run. I love the solitude and going to sleep listening to the frogs croaking in the dams.

Today will just be work then I hope to get on the ride on mower and finish the mowing - maybe some weed spraying if time permits and the rain holds off long enough. Another quiet night for me - will be netflix I think

Tommorrow I will finish doing the chores around here - want to get the shed all swept out and our bed changed etc etc before DH comes back up with me next Thursday. I plan to leave early Sunday morning to head back to Melbourne as I want to clean DH ute inside and out plus have some errands to run down there too. Always something to keep me out of mischief.

Liz - your new covers are a huge improvement - they look lovely. Im glad you are finding peace in music x

BB - Thinking of you lots as you struggle to understand why - Life certainly is not fair sometimes and very cruel x

Diane O - Loved the pics in TT - Atlas clearly adores you

Peps - Love the pics too - Lovely looking pup. You have every right to be super proud x

DD - Glad the MRI is behind you x The porch sounds like a perfect way to unwind after that x Thinking of you

Diane S - Good luck with all the gallery stuff. The nursery looks lovely. Im a sucker for plants

Cec - Hope you are doing well x

Miss - You also

Leap - How are you

Ann - You are missed very much. I hope you come back soon x

Well I had best go and get some more invoicing done

I may not make it back over the weekend but will try. Take care

S

DD, was it you *****commended Marcella? It's so good!