Wednesday June 17, 2020

Weight 119.8, WW Bluepoints 10. Weight last seen August/October 2018. This is where I wanted my weight to bounce around so I will have to food around with what I eat to stay here. I eat so many WW zero point foods I think it will be somewhat more difficult to figure out the right mix. But I don't want to go back to calorie counting because I like how WW has encouraged me to eat lots of fruits and that has made a huge difference in satisfying my sweet craving. On calorie based counting, fruits like bananas always seemed to be many calories. Mind games, I know. Ann is the one who started me realizing that fruits and veggies didn't work the same way on a calorie basis when she was able to raise her calories but still lose when having lots of produce. But I still couldn't get over the calorie count. I so miss Ann!

The sun is up and it is quite warm. Today will probably include long Justice walks by the beach after I possibly do some bamboo cutting (don't ask) and some floor finish stripping. The latter is in my upstairs bathroom where the tile had gotten dull a few years ago. I attempted to put a shine product on it but DH walked all over it while it was wet (even though there was stuff blocking the doorway). So I just left it at that point. I want to strip that old stuff off and try to redo it. But I think stripping sections over several days will work better than trying to do the whole floor at one time.

Have a safe and healthy day!

While my husband was loading the kayaks, the call came from the breast health center. Not the news I'd hoped for. I have a class 1 invasive ductal carcinoma. The good news is that it is less than a centimeter (.8), so it is the nurse told me, what they consider a good catch. I meet with the surgeon next Wednesday. Possibly could be a lumpectomy, but no guarantees. Right now, I feel the weight of having to tell my kids. We're going to go ahead and go kayaking, and talk with them after they are both done with work.

I'm feeling confident that I will join the legions of breast cancer survivors. So, onward we go. 2020 will look good in the rear view mirror.

I'm so sorry you have to go through this, Diane! But I'm glad there is good news in catching it early. Thank goodness for annual mammograms! Sending you a big hug.

I'm glad you are feeling confident about the outcome! I love that attitude. I am sorry this is the news you got, though. I was hoping for the "It's benign" news. Big hugs and healing prayers and mojo coming your way!

It sounds like it is quite early, so hopefully you will do excellent. Is class 1 the same as grade 1 or stage 1?

Good luck telling the kids. Regardless of how positive the outcome seems, I think something like this really shakes them up.

So sorry that you had to get this news.

Diane, as with any other challenge, attitude is 99% of achieving the desired outcome. You've got this, and your tribe has your back !!?

DD

So sorry you had to get the second best news (I think?) on your biopsy. Good for you to go ahead and paddle. I am so hoping a lumpectomy is the deal.Wishing you all the best and thinking of you. Diane S

Oh Diane - so very sorry to hear that. Sending you lots of love and strength. Your positive attitude will help you more than you know xxxx

We are right here behind you. Lean on us when you need too

Sorry on the medical finding side of things. Glad you caught it early. Strong positive attitudes will help you greatly. Telling your kids will be stressful but they will be glad they were included.

My funk fog is clearing finally! Long story short, I had a huge meltdown with my therapist and feel a lot better now. Like floodwaters floating buried debris to the surface, I think all the stress and anxiety of the last several months has floated a lot of my internal crap to the surface. Which is not a bad thing as you can more easily clean up what you can see.

I've been using my post-depression energy surge to focus on projects around here. One has been a huge password/email/phone number clean up project on all websites and accounts. We are getting Google Fiber as an alternative to our cable company here and I so dislike my cable company, I'm going to jump ship. But my oldest email address has been with them for 25 years and I'll lose it when I cancel service. You can only imagine how many places that one is! I'm also going to cancel my landline with them as no one uses it anymore, so there was a lot of phone number changing to do there too. Other projects have been cleaning related, so that's good too.

Yesterday I walked at the beach with a friend. Boy am I out of shape! So there is work to do there too.

Food has improved with my meltdown. My therapist says so long as I struggle with making and deepening connections with others, I will always default to food for comfort as it feels safest. I think she's right. Food is really my best friend and it doesn't serve me well.

Take care all. Hugs all around.